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Anxiety and Obsessive Thinking

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Kim_Hyun_Han
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
706 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-04-13 21:23:59
April 13 2009 21:22 GMT
#1
Hello there guys.


long, oh yeah freaking text wall

+ Show Spoiler +

First off i would like to ask you to not to post if you're going to use an internet meme or a joke/ =/

Recently , 1 or 2 months precisely i had what i thought it was my first experience with anxiety and obsessive thinking,
after watching a movie in our beach house (hellraiser, where u have that corrupt cop that want to discover about a murderer that puts the finger of a child everytime he kills someone). I felt a strong fear of hurting my parents, yeah u know what i mean with this, it was completely unreal, fake, no reasons to feel that, i never had any kind of "killer" instict, i hate blood, i love my parents and my brother, i just couldnt explain why or wth that meant.

Well, it is part of my nature to seek for answers for my problems, solve them alone, as always, i discovered then it was called, Obsessive Thinking, little brother of the "panic attack" and "Obsessive compulsive disorder"(or something like that)
All of them are caused by ANXIETY. And they dont turn u to a killer, these thinkings dont affect ur critical sense, u only affraid of hurting these ppl, afraid of losing control and doing something stupid.

Ok, 5 days, yeah its gone, but the anxiety was still there,
but for my luck, my Cousin( a female cousin) came to visit us, wow her presence almost , if not, cured me.

ok... she had to go back to her hometown

1 week after, me and my father discuss, anxiety comes again, oh no, it takes over, but this time, no obsessive thinking, i just had to deal with an "unexplainable" anxiety, ok, 4 days yeah yeah she is gone...

I did seek for more information, intel of my enemy, and what i just found my precious...

All my life , from where i can remember was based off in obsessive thinkings and high anxiety situations:

* Im a lonly guy, not THAT LONLY, but a nerdy one =)
* Religous family -> i discovered that when i had 7 years old, i had an obsessive thinking with the devil, i could pray dozens of times just to try to avoid my fear of thinking about it, or selling my soul(lol) lmfao...

* I got obsessive with videogames that were to be released ( SC2 included, oh macro oh macro ), that xbox game NightCaster, Megaman and etc...


I never went to a movie(cinema), few were the times where me and my friends made something together that wasnt physics works for school, or flash/actionscript projects, my standards were fucking HARD most of the times I DIDNT STUDY, I JUST JUDGED MYSELF ABLE TO CREATE SOME FUCKING kind of algorhythm to solve the questions...
i was able to do that partially, but i wasnt able to re-create Newton's, Descartes' works in 2 or 3 hours, i dropped from A's to B's and C's...( my school avaliation method uses numbers like A + = 10 A=9 , so i just made this transcription or whatever)

OK , here i am again,
this sudden anxiety disorder has not caused me real life problems, and will not cause, i found out that the name of the fear of hurting ppl is "Impulse Phobia"
Everytime i ignore it, it disappears in ...3 or 4 days...
everytime i have experiences with real life ppl(like my cousin) it disappears too...


but a lonly weekend at home, in my room with my computer + a small discussion with my father about my
loneliness

can bring it on.. again...


6 months is the limit time it have to be considered a problem, only 1 month have passed, but i just want it to disappear asap....

Have anyone suffered of anxiety problems b4?
There is anyone with psichologist experiences?
Does anyone knows the best way to defeat Phobias?



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anderoo
Profile Blog Joined March 2008
Canada1876 Posts
April 13 2009 21:39 GMT
#2
I have no experience with impulse phobia, but I've always had a high level of anxiety.
Some of the things I've found to help are: sleeping more, lowering expectations for myself (trying to see the learning aspect of making mistakes), and drinking chamomile tea believe it or not (apparently it calms the part sof your brain that makes you feel anxious, not sure if it's just got a placebo affect on me or what but it helps me to relax and sleep more)
Navane
Profile Blog Joined February 2007
Netherlands2763 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-04-13 21:49:28
April 13 2009 21:48 GMT
#3
Puberty, Adolesence?
Forgottenfrog
Profile Blog Joined September 2004
United States1268 Posts
April 13 2009 21:59 GMT
#4
go make some friends so you wont be so lonely and sleep more. actually go find a friend to sleep with, that usually helps me.
R3condite
Profile Joined August 2008
Korea (South)1541 Posts
April 13 2009 22:16 GMT
#5
tl;dr

just exercise it off
ggyo...
antrax
Profile Joined July 2005
Peru191 Posts
April 13 2009 22:40 GMT
#6
Recent studies has shown that regular exercise (specially running) can deal with many of these disorders in same or better way than drugs. You have to make sure that your heart pump as much blood as it can to your brain so your emotional balance is regained.

First you are stressed, then anxious, next depressed and finally in panic, you need to break that vicious circle putting your attention in something else (your cousin did it, even go out and talk to someone will help you). One of the best ways is doing exercise it will reestablish the chemical balance in your brain.
.
Another important part is that you have to convince yourself that you are in control of your life and no matter what happens you decide over your destiny, if not you will feel helpless and the vicious circle will start all over again.

If you can put your hands on this book, I'm pretty sure it will help you.
http://www.amazon.com/Spark-Revolutionary-Science-Exercise-Brain/dp/0316113506

Deep tech
Kim_Hyun_Han
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
706 Posts
April 13 2009 22:48 GMT
#7
On April 14 2009 07:40 antrax wrote:
Recent studies has shown that regular exercise (specially running) can deal with many of these disorders in same or better way than drugs. You have to make sure that your heart pump as much blood as it can to your brain so your emotional balance is regained.

First you are stressed, then anxious, next depressed and finally in panic, you need to break that vicious circle putting your attention in something else (your cousin did it, even go out and talk to someone will help you). One of the best ways is doing exercise it will reestablish the chemical balance in your brain.
.
Another important part is that you have to convince yourself that you are in control of your life and no matter what happens you decide over your destiny, if not you will feel helpless and the vicious circle will start all over again.

If you can put your hands on this book, I'm pretty sure it will help you.
http://www.amazon.com/Spark-Revolutionary-Science-Exercise-Brain/dp/0316113506



thanks
i am going to try this asap
i was considering using some drugs to restore the chemical balance tho
Malongo
Profile Blog Joined November 2005
Chile3479 Posts
April 13 2009 23:16 GMT
#8
Some of the suggestions here are good but i think there is something behind the anxiety that cant be cured with exercise or social life. Actually all the information you can take from the definitions in the internet about your problem is useless unless you talk to someone (in a real conversation) that knows about this stuff. I think the best advice i can give you is to visit a therapist, you can learn lots of things and clear some points about your own. Drugs *can* help you too but again none of this things will deal with the real cause.
Help me! im still improving my English. An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind. M. G.
Wuewdoodoo
Profile Blog Joined April 2009
Mexico127 Posts
Last Edited: 2009-04-14 01:55:35
April 14 2009 01:54 GMT
#9
Wow, I must be really fucked up. Well, you seem to be able to single out what you're feeling, which means that you're fine..

At least you're not all like "I'M HERE JUST FINNEEE
PRETENDING I'M NAWTTT!!"

and that's it. I can't even control what songs get stuck in my head anymore, they just randomly play now. Fuck you!!
EDIT: [mind]^
I lost it.
Fear no evil.
OneOther
Profile Blog Joined August 2004
United States10774 Posts
April 14 2009 03:52 GMT
#10
i went through the same thing a couple years ago. exact same stuff. i eventually learned to control my mind and realize that it's completely pointless lol. i know how tough it can be though. make sure to keep yourself busy and so on.
OMin
Profile Blog Joined August 2007
United States545 Posts
April 14 2009 04:06 GMT
#11
hey bro

i went through a somewhat similar problem

i had that obsessive praying problem and a problem where I start pretending if dont do something (something that would cost me, like something embarrassing), somebody will get hurt or something... I would be thinking like "If I knew so and so would die if i didnt take an ice cold shower, could I do it??"

A self quest to become a more moral person soon took on proportions of its own and turned itself into this vicious cycle of "Could I do it"s. And I didn't even realize that this was an anxiety disorder

But I am definitely better from it now, and though I do sometimes get some compulsions, I am always able to successfully dismiss them. Here's how I keep myself free from these compulsions:
1) I tell myself that these compulsions are ridiculous, impractical, and not real.
2) I tell myself that I know that this is anxiety disorder, and that I won't be categorized as someone who suffers under this condition if I don't give in to the compulsion

Here's what basically freed me from the whole anxiety. It's pretty related with step 1.
-Using the reasoning from step 1, I basically didn't take action to do whatever silly punishment I had for myself to keep whoever it was from death and whatnot. I would basically (in my mind of course!) let the person in question "die" by not doing the action i had in mind, telling myself it was totally ridiculous and irrelevant to my moral standards. Basically, by doing the very thing I dreaded and was trying to prevent (letting the person die by not doing a given action), I eliminated the stress of the compulsion. It doesn't seem like you have a compulsive action that follows your anxiety, but what I'm saying is this: do the very thing that causes your stress, knowing that it will have no harm because your mind is being unreasonable and ridiculous, and you will be rid of that stress.

I know this was really confusing, but I really want to help you out. If you want to talk or anything, send me a pm and I will be glad to talk with you!
Rainbow
Profile Blog Joined December 2008
United States249 Posts
April 14 2009 04:16 GMT
#12
Try getting a girl, very nice.

Make some friends, go to a bar or go golfing with your boss?
ahrara_
Profile Blog Joined February 2008
Afghanistan1715 Posts
April 14 2009 04:18 GMT
#13
I used to get mad anxiety when I was at a forensics tournament. I mean like really intense performance anxiety -- hands shaking, no appetite, etc. A few times, either when I'm really stressed with school or something shitty happened, I feel anxiety in my general life too. My symptoms aren't as bad as yours, but I tend to be mildly OCD. One time a few days before a major tournament I had the completely irresistible urge to clean out every square inch of my room. So I spent an entire day doing that >_>. Mostly I just have an intense fear that I forgot to do something important, and I'm always trying to figure out what I need to get done.

First of all, exercise definitely helps, but it's not a panacea. Your anxiety seems to be connected with self-esteem issues, so if exercise makes you feel like a better person, it will go far. Otherwise, it'll take the edge off for a while, but the anxiety will come back after an hour or so.

99% of the time anxiety isn't just some random medical condition. It almost always has some kind of psychological cause. You need to isolate what that is and do your best to deal with it. If it's loneliness, get involved and try and meet new people. I dealt with my anxiety either by forcing myself to study for a few hours or just researching my ass of for forensics.

Sometimes you just have to claw your way past the anxiety. Spend some time thinking about your anxiety and try to lock in on a few ideas or memories that help push the anxiety away. Really hard to express some of the things that worked for me, but you seem clever enough to come up with stuff of your own.

As for drugs, there are some anti-depressants that also help to deal with anxiety. Dunno what they are, so ask your doctor. You'll probably have to shop around a bit before you find one that works though.
in Afghanistan we have 20% literacy rate
ahrara_
Profile Blog Joined February 2008
Afghanistan1715 Posts
April 14 2009 04:24 GMT
#14
On April 14 2009 07:16 R3condite wrote:
tl;dr

just exercise it off

Get fucked. If it was tl;dr, don't post.
in Afghanistan we have 20% literacy rate
Quanticfograw
Profile Blog Joined October 2005
United States2053 Posts
April 14 2009 04:36 GMT
#15
ive experienced all types of anxiety, mild and severe and alo of different aspects of it. i could literally post a fucking book here but i'm not going to because i don't want to waste my time because anxiety is different for each and every person that it affects. I have been diagnosed with it for about three years now and still sometime struggle with it. if you have a SERIOUS inquisition about it, let me know and pm me and i can help you talk through alot of what your going through and answer some questions. pm me and we can s etup a time to talk
https://twitter.com/quanticfograw
Kim_Hyun_Han
Profile Blog Joined January 2009
706 Posts
April 14 2009 09:07 GMT
#16
thanks guys
thinks are clearly better when u know that ur are not the only only who feels/felt this way
im going to cut off my pc time and find anything else to do, i think exposing me to many new situations will be good to calm down, and think clearly what is the source of my anxiety.

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