Wow. I haven't been this pissed off in such a long time.
I'm fucking shaking. I punched the wall a few times as well...which I regretted immediately after. I can barely type with that hand now. It's been longer than I can recall since I raised my voice in anger or ill will. I don't even yell at my parents when I get into fights with them.
I am seething. Seething...that kind of connotes an image of an overwhelming pressure building up inside of you. The pressure is from trying to contain yourself; expressing your anger outwardly is a taboo tendency of people, after all. It's just not right. It's always better to be the civil and collected one. As long as you can maintain that, you're the good guy.
But to seethe, I feel, refers to an intermediate state between complacency and full blown out rage. It's that point where you still have the ability to control yourself...but it could go either way from there. I am seething...seething through my teeth. The pressure has to be alleviated somehow, after all. However, when the problem cannot be immediately resolved, there is no safe way to relieve that pressure. I guess that's why they say we seethe through our teeth. If we let it out too quickly, it could easily ignite and the state of unadultered rage we always seem to have to try and avoid would manifest itself in a shocking display of swears, physical destruction, and a complete collapse of sanity for that brief moment. If we clench our teeth, that release of pressure feels controlled, perhaps.
I see red. Not literally, of course. I refer to the expression of having your thoughts clouded by that pressure building up within. This pressure caused by anger and disappointment seems to be the mortal archenemy of logic and reason. At that moment they seem so distant when really, you need them most. It is one of those circumstances we must all surrender to and accept the discontentment. The absence of logic and reason causes things to become less clear. Vision is blurred. You cannot control your thinking. Connections devoid of rationality are made. It is not your vision itself that sees the red. That is a manifestation of the chaos flowing freely through your mind.
I am shaking. Like a steam engine dangerously close to its threshold limit, this anger that we have abstracted as a pressure building up inside our bodies threatens to overtake our sense of self-control and decency. What is there more to say on this? I'm not afforded any release from this pressure but the hard way out. No satisfactory options are left.
I am defeated. I must sit here with teeth clenched, vision cloudy and body shaking.
Don't worry man, LC is strong and I don't think she did it. Justin Bobby will forgive Audrina too. And I really think Audrina will get make up with LC eventually.
I dunno man did you see the previews with audrina's friend that isn't regular cast? Audrina was like "should i apoligize to lauren?" and the girl just looks at her and Audrina goes "YOU REALLY THINK I SHOULD APOLIGIZE DONT YOU!" meaning she wont or will have a really hard time doing it. I imagine this drama lasting for the next 3-4 episode minimum and then it will be super awk. Lauren is a really strong girl i have alot of respect for her for having to deal with that. I also think Justin Bobby has matured a lot and really cares deeply about Audrina - i don't think he will cheat on her anymore like he did with all her friends last year.
Ok, thank you Kennigit, finally sum1 says it tru. What DOES that mean? "...she's good," Did he mean that she was 'taken' or 'available'? Sheesh! I just dont get a word that guy utters! And they weren't 'man capri's' as much as -finger quotes- cool, man cut-off-pants that you wear with your-cool-man-boots. Any way you say it....he's stoopid. also, lmao @ man capris. TY for that! She's real good? What kind of crap was that. JB is a friggin mess.
I feel so bad for Speidi lmao. They have no friends and they are so young, what a waste. Heidi is a crackhead. Why am I hooked on this shyyt? Thank u Fafa! What makes me so mad is that all he talks about is loyalty...ALL THE TIME!!! And then he gives Heidi an ultimatum about her sister! How does that make sense at all?! i AGREE Brody and LC should get back together!!!!!!!!
i dont care what anyone says i think Justin bobby is hot! but he is stupid and she needs to get over him. The new guy Cory was soo hot 2 and seemed like he would treat her good.
What is friendship? What is romantic love? Are the two really so different? And does Lauren's inability to truly accept Heidi back into her life reveal her to be afraid, ultimately, of her own overwhelming emotions? Catching Heidi is like trying to pin a wave upon the sand, and what Lauren fears, above all things, is being out of control.
All I know is: If it weren't for that Spencer, they'd be together.
On November 26 2008 22:06 Chill wrote: Don't worry man, LC is strong and I don't think she did it. Justin Bobby will forgive Audrina too. And I really think Audrina will get make up with LC eventually.
Lol, when I played protoss, I hated losing to a dt rush. What made it even worse was the some players said "gg". WTF? The best part was when my obs came a little bit after the dt's came to my base, so they pretty much failed.
Don't worry, after losing a few times to a dt rush, you'll learn to stay calm.
I got into a huge fight with a very good friend of mine last night, which is what made me angry. The fact that it was over the phone, and that our call got fucking DROPPED before it could be resolved pissed me off even more.
So...I did what any normal person would do...punch a wall and tear some skin open, down six shots of rum in ten minutes by myself, and start writing a flowery interpretation of the stages of anger on a weblog.
(no, this wasn't because of a DT rush...-____-;; )
The replies here turned pretty fucking funny though...lol.
ps...what the hell show are you guys talking about? The one that Chill brought up?
On November 27 2008 06:17 PH wrote: I got into a huge fight with a very good friend of mine last night, which is what made me angry. The fact that it was over the phone, and that our call got fucking DROPPED before it could be resolved pissed me off even more.
So...I did what any normal person would do...punch a wall and tear some skin open, down six shots of rum in ten minutes by myself, and start writing a flowery interpretation of the stages of anger on a weblog.
(no, this wasn't because of a DT rush...-____-;; )
The replies here turned pretty fucking funny though...lol.
ps...what the hell show are you guys talking about? The one that Chill brought up?
You need... better ways to deal with your anger than this :o Worse things are guaranteed to happen to you in the future, so figure it out now. + Show Spoiler +
Which is a nice way of saying "Grow up."
I mean, what if Spencer slaps Heidi in front of all her friends? Where do you go from there if you're already punching walls over an argument with a friend?
On November 27 2008 06:17 PH wrote: I got into a huge fight with a very good friend of mine last night, which is what made me angry. The fact that it was over the phone, and that our call got fucking DROPPED before it could be resolved pissed me off even more.
So...I did what any normal person would do...punch a wall and tear some skin open, down six shots of rum in ten minutes by myself, and start writing a flowery interpretation of the stages of anger on a weblog.
(no, this wasn't because of a DT rush...-____-;; )
The replies here turned pretty fucking funny though...lol.
ps...what the hell show are you guys talking about? The one that Chill brought up?
You need... better ways to deal with your anger than this :o Worse things are guaranteed to happen to you in the future, so figure it out now. + Show Spoiler +
Which is a nice way of saying "Grow up."
I mean, what if Spencer slaps Heidi in front of all her friends? Where do you go from there if you're already punching walls over an argument with a friend?
What? Writing out a blog entry is an immature way of dealing with anger? I'm sorry...what?
I perfectly understand how this kind of thing works. Unfortunately for me, the circumstances surrounding this argument hit home somewhat hard, and so yes, I decided to drink a bit as well. I don't understand what you're trying to say.
Writing can be therapeutic for me, and I ended up posting what I wrote here as well. I'm sorry if that annoyed you, but really...this is blogspace on TL, where I can post personal things, and what was perhaps a lapse in judgment while inebriated led me to putting it up here.
On November 27 2008 09:24 Frits wrote: you drink 6 shots of rum because of an argument over the phone.....
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please dont ever have kids
lol. I'm 20 and in college. For the moment, it's a perfectly acceptable option, I think.
Well...ok maybe not...but whatever. No real harm done.
And yes...an argument over the phone can be serious as well if what was spoken about has consequence beyond that immediate conversation.
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