one could always say that love makes you blind and in a way, it really does. its kind of funny when you find stuff out, its mostly from impersonal ways such as phone, email, messengers. from one thing turned to another, i was hoping it was the latter of my thoughts but it wasnt.
but my best friend kept telling me to persist her. and i did, so now its "i didnt want it to happen, it just happened" wow. couldve so fucking said that than something else or leaning it into something else. so this is a question i really want to ask and see what the answer would become. if you had sex with someone, and its not consensual. its rape no? HOWEVER, its not rape she says. so basically it is consensual, right? it cant be both, it cant be neither either, it had to be one or the other right?
Pretty much yeah =/ Either she didn't want to have sex or she did. The way it sounds like is that she willingly had sex with her friend, but now she seriously regrets it and says it wasn't consensual...but she doesn't want people to think she was raped so she's trying to somehow say it was somewhere in the middle.
Or it could be that she really was raped and she's not really right in the head atm. People who've been raped generally don't seem coherent at all for a while after the event.
her best friend said she objected at first then she did not, guess it was mutual. well, that does it. /emo. i really have no more high hopes with girls anymore. god fucking damnit.
On October 23 2008 06:22 t_co wrote: don't get mad, get even
find the guy that did it and take his girl one day
im not that kind of person. its over and done, its really scary that the first post in my other blog, the guy kind of figured it out. i was on the phone with my best friend(lol she got banned from here) for hours and she told me that guys are stupid and theyre oblivious to what girls really want to say yet they wont. meh. i live my days in regret, but no really hard feelings i guess. i have TL(wow is this a good thing or sad?). <3
So it really was that way now was it? Life sucks, lots of hugs. Oh well, a relationship that needs "breaks" to work was never worth pursuing anyway. At least you can tell yourself that. And TL is good, at least it helped me =p. Try to learn as much as possible from it, so that all emotions poured into her aren't completely wasted. But seriously man, take care.
fucking woman. I swear they all enjoy fucking with our heads. They actually receive pleasure from making men suffer. If only I could stop myself from loving them.
Consider yourself lucky because the reason of the break-up wasn't your mistake at all so it's easy to move on. Or else you would suffer from self-guilt and self-hatred until it turns you to an ignorant jerk in order just to get yourself over it.
My advices: - Trust is key to a good relationship. So don't let this relationship make you not trusting your future partner. - Go out with lots of girls to gain experiences. From times to times you would be able to know which type of girl is more trustworthy. Although I have to say that even the most trustworthy girl cannot be trusted, you have to spend your time (occasionally, not continuously, don't give away love and care too easy or the nice-guy-syndrome will take effect) to maintain the relationship or else it would just die.
On October 23 2008 08:23 Elvin_vn wrote: Consider yourself lucky because the reason of the break-up wasn't your mistake at all so it's easy to move on. Or else you would suffer from self-guilt and self-hatred until it turns you to an ignorance jerk in order just to get yourself over it.
My advices: - Trust is key to a good relationship. So don't let this relationship make you not trusting your future partner. - Go out with lots of girls to gain experiences. From times to times you would be able to know which type of girl is trustworthy and which type of girl isn't. Although I have to say that even the most trustworthy girl cannot be trusted, you have to constantly spend your time to maintain the relationship.
really good advices, thanks. yeah idk why but if i had past relationships that were faulty/nasty then i would make my current one edgy and shit like that. yeah its not my fault but, bleh. i cant even be friends with her anymore.
On October 23 2008 10:09 travis wrote: You were not cheated, she cheated herself.
Her doing this is a result of her own faults, you can tell by the way she behaved.
Hopefully saying that makes you feel better.
yah but.. man. i really know its not my fault yet i kind of beat myself for it. i keep thinking when she hung out with the kid, what the fuck was she thinking? wtf? sdjkld.
EPT
So it really was that way now was it? 
