the night before i fell and hit my head, i was reading a thread about music recommendations. ahrara posted a video of sufjan stevens and i became very intrigued, and so i completely legally acquired his album "come on feel the illinoise" and began listening to it.
i was feeling pretty sick, and very very out of it as i was listening to the first few songs. after that, i have only a few small fragments of memory.
not much later, i must have gone upstairs to find food. coming back downstairs, i began to seize, fell and hit my head, and that's all she fuckin' wrote.
after that, i only have a few fragments of memory, but they are all very, very significant to me. and i would like to share them with you!!
a) my best friend told me that when he came to see me in the hospital, i had a matter of utmost importance to discuss with him. i made my mom, sister, grandparents, and ex-girlfriend leave the room so i could talk to him about this in private. like it was my last dying request, i said "colin... you need to steal all the keyboards from the hospital. mine is broken"
NOW, i don't remember any of this. but when he told me this, it sparked a memory of me, after i had fallen, trying to use the computer again. i was trying to use AIM, and i was typing furiously away on the keys but nothing was coming up on screen. of course, the keyboard works fine, and i was just tripping my balls off from my head injury, but i see no better reason to treat myself to a nice new Razer keyboard. GO DRACO
(also this reminded me of that one episode of the office where dwight gets a concussion and is typing DWIGHT DWIGHT DWIGHT DWIGHT DWIGHT DWIGHT DWIGHT on his computer screen. pretty much exactly like that)
b)i saw a spider. i was always pretty creeped out by spiders. but i saw a spider, and then i saw 20 or 30 giant, 3 foot tall massive giant tarantula huge fucking spiders all over my room and i was hallucinating like crazy.
after that, i'm now terrified of spiders god damn those things are scary as SHIT FUCK man i hate spiders. all i had to say to my mom for 3 or 4 hours after she found me and took me to the hospital was to keep those god damn huge motherfucking scary ass spiders away from me.
c)i was listening to sufjan stevens this whole time. for 7-8 hours, while i was hallucinating, falling over trying to walk, gripping the bed out of raw terror, throwing up all over the place, the album was playing loudly on repeat. i was trying to describe to my family these songs, that it felt like i had heard years and years ago, so that they could help me remember where and when i had heard them.
i listened to the album again, just now. it immediately sparked the memory of laying there, badly injured & hallucinating like crazy, and it was an extremely powerful and moving experience.
have a listen!
whether you guys enjoy his tunes or not, i just felt very compelled to share this. thanks for reading, and thanks ahrara for the recommendation