EPTi wanted a friend
but have only loneliness
i wanted happiness
but it's just not there
i wanted to help others
but am overwhelmed with weakness
i wanted to have faith
but have lost all my hope
i thought all this was worth bearing through
maybe one day Adelle will love me soon
but i know that's just not at all possible now
everything's gone, but if i could
i'd go back and do anything i could
just to change how things turned out this time
because i'd have done anything just to be able to stay with her
and i know nothing was ever her fault
i admire her so much for being so strong
sometimes though i just wonder
do You even love me Lord?
all i've learnt is that i have no right to love someone
if they don't love me too
i've learnt that if someone doesn't love you
then there's nothing you can do
they just don't
is that how they treated You too?
all the love in my life
has been taken away from me
the faith i once had in having a will
just isn't there anymore
Song 7: All I Wanted To Say
i know you don't think much of me
and every day is a mission trying to get away from me
and i know he feels blessed to have you by his side
and that you'll be there to support him for all his life
does he know though
that he's taking my will to live away
'cos for all of my life
i've spent those times alone, praying
maybe you'll notice the things i'm doing for you someday
i think about you all the time
and for all of my life
i've just been hoping that you'll notice me
that i'd be
just a little closer
to your side
Song 8: Alright By Myself
awareness is so sad
if you want me to be there i will
take care, my friend
you have your reasons not to tell me why
but just so long as you're ok
maybe it's better just like this
holding on to struggling
but i'm ok
maybe you don't know
i'm alright by myself
but sometimes i think to myself
life would be so different if you were here
holding my hand, always near
and i'd do my best to treat you right
what a difference security would make
it doesn't take long to realise though
holding on so close to my faith
i realise that i'm holding my breath
Song 9: Anything You Need Prayer For
i believe in you
so keep believing in yourself too
i pray that everything for you goes well
it's time for me to look after myself now
and i know that the tears you cried when you prayed
are much more earnest than what i could ever repay
when i owe you the hope that you always gave
when you went out of your way to help me stay safe
sure pray you'll be happy
and keep a loving heart, always
somehow if i try to remember how special you made everything become
always telling me that i could be good
remember you know that God knows too
remember that God has loved you too
Song 10: Autumn Leaves
my dear friend
how are you now?
thanks for thinking of me too
to visit me
and come inside too
and to have you here
looking out the window as the Autumn breeze flows by
sending us pretty leaves that drift from the trees
so hard to hold on to everyday faith now
my dear friend
it's so dark and rainy and cold these nights
praying that you're safe from the storms outside
stay beautiful inside
how is life where you are now?
i hope that you've been keeping warm
i pray that you're happy too
i've been thinking about you too
and i have missed you all along
but that doesn't matter anymore
Poll: Why would anyone waste their time and read all my songs to vote for them, especially since so many of them are so repetitive?
(Vote): All I Got Now
(Vote): All I Wanted To Say
(Vote): Alright By Myself
(Vote): Anything You Need Prayer For
(Vote): Autumn Leaves
