EPTMy most recent Major Depressive mood has been brought upon by my failure to join the Air Force. While I pass the ASVAB, TAPAS, some other batteries I can't remember the names of (got a 90%) I failed the medical part of my testing when they discovered scars from a failed suicide attempt years ago. Normally any self inflicted injury is an instant dis-qualifier from the military but I was given a second chance at joining because the injury was from years ago. I however, despite hearing this news, I was dealt a serious blow to my confidence and happiness. I then called up after a few days and decided it was best for me not to have a follow-up consultation just retire my dream of joining the military. While this sucks I feel as though it will be for then best..
All this being said I am going to continue to get by and keep on kicking despite what I feel is a major setback in my life... To take steps to get back on the right track and feel better I plan on continuing the exercises I started when I planned on enlisting, starting up school again, and going back to work despite a long absence. I also want to assure everyone that I will be alright and that I am really grateful for all the people I have met even if I have been really distant lately. Writing this really helped and I feel as though a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
