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Olli
Profile Blog Joined February 2012
Austria24417 Posts
Last Edited: 2014-12-30 10:19:20
December 29 2014 20:57 GMT
#1
My friends and I have this wonderful ritual: every year for New Year's Eve we get together, dress up fancy and celebrate like adults until midnight. Then we change into comfortable clothes and celebrate, eat, drink and laugh together. Only over the past two years have I come to realize how much I appreciate it.

It's one thing to have that sort of ritual with friends you've seen in school every day for the whole year. It's just one more evening you get to spend with them. Another thing is to spend it with those same people after not having seen some of them at all. My female best friend now lives and studies in the UK, one of my best friends has been jetting around the globe modelling, another has spent the better part of this year in the US. Some are simply busy with studies and their lives around them and don't have as much time as they used to. It's all part of growing up. All the more reason to realize how much it's worth to have this evening with all of them, no matter where or how they spent the year. For that evening we're together.

It's become a running gag that I get quite nostalgic around that time and that I like to talk about the year in review, tell them about my year. They're on to something there and I always let it go because I didn't want to force them to listen. I want them to enjoy their time with everybody in one place. This year I will insist on telling them about my 2014 - the year that made all the others seem like a joke.




The year began like all the others before. I woke up on January 1st with a headache and an empty bottle of whiskey not far away, in the midst of all the others waking up to the same hangover. I went home and I felt alone. I hated who I was, what I was doing with my life and the fact that I had no idea, no clue whatsoever, what I would rather be doing with it. 2013 had been the year that I lost to a terrible military service schedule, causing me to work terribly paid, annoying jobs for half a year before I could finally start military service, without which I wasn't able to begin studying.
I went home on January 1st and I knew that three more months of those exact same jobs were waiting for me before I could finally start law school. Why law school? I'm smart. I am extremely empathetic. I thought: why not combine those two, and my love for winning arguments, and turn it into a job? Human rights, international politics. That's what I had my eyes on.

A few months later left me hating every minute I'd spent there. Law school in Vienna is the most overrun place in the world. Every test is designed to kick you out. Every lesson is designed to make you want to leave. 2500 new students every semester, 75% of which fail the very first exam. 75% of those that make it through the first exam fail the second one. And then the easy exams are done.

I barely missed out on passing the first exam. I could have taken it a few weeks later and passed it easily, I know that. But even before I wrote it, I'd decided that I would quit law school. I don't want to study in that kind of environment. So I'd just wasted another half a year, on top of the year I'd already been forced to throw away. I was 20 now and I was exactly where I'd already been two years ago.

In the middle of my first semester at law school, my family broke apart. Mother and father now live separated, I lost track of what family members are currently not talking to what other family members. Law school in Vienna was free, the school I had in mind going to wasn't. Due to the family conflict, there is not enough money in the family to pay for it. Not only was I going to be stuck living with either my mom or my dad, with no foreseeable way out for the next few year, I also was going to have to work while studying just to stay afloat at all.

The only thing that kept me going was the support my friends gave me. No matter where they were or what they were doing, they were always there for me. One night, after having a beer with my best mate (and spending literally my last cent on it), I was attacked on the street. I remember everything that happened clear as day.

Someone was walking in front of me, I didn't pay attention to him. People walk in front of you. Then someone walked up from behind me and asked if I had a cigarette for him. I said no, didn't stop walking. He said that sucks, he'd had a terrible day, his leg was hurting. I asked him if something had happened. A second later I got knocked out from behind. The guy walking in front of me turned around and kicked me in the face when I tried to get up. They kicked me and hit me for minutes, only in the head. Only when I was unconscious did they start searching me and took everything I had on me. I hadn't known any of them.

I was able to drag myself to the next police station, my whole body covered in blood. They called an ambulance. There we were, rock bottom. After everything I'd been through, the world felt like I needed physical pain on top of it, you know, to rub it in. When I woke up the next day, the doctor told me that they had to tell me to stop making jokes about my injuries because the wounds were opening up again from me laughing. I don't remember anything about it. Needless to say I didn't die, even though I thought I would. I recovered. I still have three scars from that incident. They were never caught.

At this point you're probably feeling sorry for me. Don't. It was the best year of my life.




I'm still alone, but the battering I received this year taught me how to live with myself. I'd hated the idea of spending time alone, wasting away on my own. I was forced to this year and I found my mind the most calming place to be. As cheesy as that sounds, my mind was the most peaceful and quiet place there was for me. Nobody fighting around me, no constant stress, nothing. Me and my thoughts, nobody else.

Somewhere in there I found answers that I'd been lacking. I realized that what I enjoyed doing the most was what I did for TL. I started thinking that I could apply for a journalism school and make money doing this, or something similar. A big problem for me has always been that I'm interested in everything, and I'm usually quite talented at everything I put my focus on, but that I had no idea what the ONE thing was that I was supposed to focus on for the rest of my life. Journalism is an option that allows me to focus on a huge number of topics.

One thing that's extremely important to get into this journalism school is experience. They want you to have done something like this before, or have done anything involving media content production, etc. Well. One of those annoying jobs I worked in 2013 was for a local newspaper. This year I was invited by MSI to fly out to Taiwan and cover their event. Then I went to HSC X and met the CEO of TeamLiquid, the website I've been writing (and am now running my own team!) for the last two years or so.

I think that what the TL writing staff did this year, after Waxangel stepped down, is remarkable. Lichter, Zealously and me stepped in on semi-short notice and I think we did an awesome job with what we had. The other staff around us, especially Stacey (shiroiusagi) and Annie (Meru) made life as easy as possible for us. I feel like, especially for Blizzcon, we put out some of the best content in ESPORTS. We're always looking to improve but I have no issue at all saying this as it is.

Not only were all these amazing experiences, and I still lack the words to describe how amazing my time in Taiwan was, or the amazing people I had to pleasure of meeting at both MSI and HSC, but they will also contribute to my life in other ways. Things are coming together and that's a feeling I haven't enjoyed in a while.

I went to HSC with two people from the SQRL Gaming community, a clan I joined sometime in 2013. I was just looking for anything that forced me to actually play SC2 instead of only writing about it. Instead I stumbled into a group of friends who enjoy playing games, making jokes and having a good time together even though most of them have never met each other. I wouldn't even have been able to go to HSC without Jamie "Genesis" Skinner. Meeting him and JoeBarnes (whose name isn't actually Joe) in person was awesome and put the cherry on a wonderful event.

As far as my love life goes, well... I just hope lichter and Zealously don't keep tabs on everything I tell them. But that's the least of my worries.

I'm finally happy with myself. Not satisfied, but happy with where I'm going. And the few scars I had to obtain to get here were all worth it. So to all of you: thank you. You're all part of what helped me get here.

*****
Administrator"Declaring anything a disaster because aLive popped up out of nowhere is just downright silly."
NeThZOR
Profile Blog Joined November 2010
South Africa7387 Posts
December 29 2014 21:05 GMT
#2
What a number of rough experiences you wrote in this blog! All of them made you stronger though, and helped you to learn things in life that you otherwise would not have stumbled upon. Glad to hear of all the great events you were able to attend.
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SetGuitarsToKill
Profile Blog Joined December 2013
Canada28396 Posts
December 29 2014 21:15 GMT
#3
Wow, I can't imagine the feeling of getting mugged like that. That's some crazy shit. Sounds like a rough but important year for you. Hopefully, it gets even better from here. Good luck with everything! It's nice to hear a story about someone who seemed to find a place they feel comfortable in, I kind of hope I find that someday.
Community News"As long as you have a warp prism you can't be bad at harassment" - Maru | @SetGuitars2Kill
Genesis_443
Profile Joined December 2012
Scotland52 Posts
December 29 2014 21:53 GMT
#4
Holy crap, a shout out from Olli in an article? Makes a change from the warnings i guess
dravernor
Profile Blog Joined May 2013
Netherlands6181 Posts
December 29 2014 22:02 GMT
#5
1/5 no shoutout

JK I love your blogs Olli. Even if it is a scary mugging blog. Congratulations though, on a year successfully passed.
much love
<3
JoeBarnes
Profile Joined October 2014
Germany1 Post
December 29 2014 22:13 GMT
#6
Of course my real name is Joe.

It was a pleasure to read your blog and articles over the year, and of course to be there with you at HSCX. I wish you all the best for year 2015 ! May your future posts be long and plentyful, your career orientation the right one, and your real life better from now on.

See you at HSC XI bro :D
The_Templar
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
your Country52797 Posts
December 29 2014 22:26 GMT
#7
Indeed, what a year.
Writing staff is awesome ^^
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Naglfar705
Profile Joined June 2012
England1 Post
December 29 2014 22:38 GMT
#8
"I was just looking for anything that forced me to actually play SC2 instead of only writing about it. Instead I stumbled into a group of friends who enjoy playing games, making jokes and having a good time together even though most of them have never met each other."

Wait are we in the same clan?

As Clan Leader of the SQRLs I endorse this shout out and think it should be bolded, underlined and capitalised for importance.
Clan Leader of the SQRLs m8s o7
Darkhorse
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
United States23455 Posts
December 30 2014 00:30 GMT
#9
Same thing as Aeromi's blog: You are a bro and I'm glad ESPORTS is going well for you. You deserve it! I didn't really read because I think I've heard this all before (mostly) but still keep up the #passion
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BigFan
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
TLADT24920 Posts
December 30 2014 01:16 GMT
#10
Sounds like you've had one hell of a rough ride. The mugging part is especially scary because you're lucky that they didn't cause serious damage (I hope). Glad to see you found your calling! Best of luck in whatever you do Also, Law school is free in Vienna? ;;
Former BW EiC"Watch Bakemonogatari or I will kill you." -Toad, April 18th, 2017
lichter
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
1001 YEARS KESPAJAIL22272 Posts
December 30 2014 03:09 GMT
#11
oh i thought you were going to talk about that other ritual
AdministratorYOU MUST HEED MY INSTRUCTIONS TAKE OFF YOUR THIIIINGS
Topin
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
Peru10055 Posts
December 30 2014 03:27 GMT
#12
came for the feels 5/5 GL bro!
i would define my style between a mix of ByuN, Maru and MKP
Cricketer12
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
United States13973 Posts
December 30 2014 03:33 GMT
#13
pretty amazing blog DLO, pretty awesome you managed to bring up such crazy events like that mugging

On December 30 2014 12:09 lichter wrote:
oh i thought you were going to talk about that other ritual


goddamnnit lich....
Kaina + Drones Linkcro Summon Cupsie Yummy Way
[MD]Frostbite
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
Canada292 Posts
December 30 2014 04:14 GMT
#14
So I'd just wasted another half a year, on top of the year I'd already been forced to throw away. I was 20 now and I was exactly where I'd already been two years ago.


Oh man, I know how you feel...
White-Ra, the godfather Protoss
Kommatiazo
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
United States579 Posts
December 30 2014 05:17 GMT
#15
I SUPER know how you feel about a lot of this. The rest I can sort of empathize.

You do great work Olli, I'm excited for your 2015. I'm rooting for you!
"You must enemy don't know, and very good micro" - Bosstoss #Wet4Ret
peanuts
Profile Blog Joined May 2012
United States1225 Posts
December 30 2014 06:23 GMT
#16
No shoutout, 1/5.

But great blog Olli. You're one hell of a fighter. Can't wait to see where you are at the end of 2015. :D

(Also, just remember that chicks dig scars)
Writer"My greatest skill is my enjoyment of the game" - Grubby | @TL_Peanuts
Zealously
Profile Blog Joined October 2011
East Gorteau22261 Posts
December 30 2014 09:05 GMT
#17
I keep tabs because I know you and Peanuts keep tabs on me

Mutually assured destruction
AdministratorBreak the chains
lichter
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
1001 YEARS KESPAJAIL22272 Posts
December 30 2014 09:56 GMT
#18
On December 30 2014 18:05 Zealously wrote:
I keep tabs because I know you and Peanuts keep tabs on me

Mutually assured destructicon


couldn't resist
AdministratorYOU MUST HEED MY INSTRUCTIONS TAKE OFF YOUR THIIIINGS
Olli
Profile Blog Joined February 2012
Austria24417 Posts
December 30 2014 12:11 GMT
#19
On December 30 2014 12:09 lichter wrote:
oh i thought you were going to talk about that other ritual


Careful now or you might not get New Year snaps
Administrator"Declaring anything a disaster because aLive popped up out of nowhere is just downright silly."
caznitch
Profile Joined July 2012
Canada645 Posts
December 30 2014 21:02 GMT
#20
Crazy stories! I just visited Vienna on a huge Europe trip this year and thought it was the safest place I'd ever been. That said I had a huge stache I was growing for Movember and being Eastern European, it filled out approximetaly 10 minutes after I decided to grow it.

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