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I've really missed interacting with a scene as passionate about SC as you guys. I still try and be a part of it, but I've felt like a fake for a while now. Someone who calls himself a pro gamer, yet plays no games. Someone with a Liquid tag, who doesn't play in clan wars, win tournaments or stream a ton feels wrong to me. Even the fact that I never fully retired like Haypro or Jinro has felt different. I never quite followed along in retiring fully, and making a big announcement that I'm leaving, I just kind of slowly backed away and watched...
I moved on with my life. I'm a chemistry student now, for a university. FGCU to be exact. I play some chess, because it has always felt similiar in some way to SC. A balanced, 1 on 1 competition of the minds. And as always I've read TL and Reddit every day following up on the major stories, and games of Starcraft. I've watched WCS at its worst and its best as have probably most of you. Sometimes people still recognize me at school, or when I'm eating out or whatever around town. But I've moved on, changed. Just as surely as all of you have from when I was last here as an active player.
I used to dream sometimes that I was playing Starcraft games, and I'd wake up and realize I that I couldn't play still. For those of you who don't know, I have some sort of hand issue. Lots of pain, 3 separate doctors didn't know what it was. Two were specialists in hand pain. Anyway I guess my point here, is I miss it. I miss Starcraft and above all I miss being an active part in a community. And sure, a lot of it is my fault, I could have played other games more, streamed random things like other casters. Even commentated other Starcraft games more and gone in that direction. Regardless this is how things ended up. Today however I'd like to make it official though. Or at least as official as I can..
Starting soon, I'll be trying to come back to being a professional Starcraft 2 player. I finally found a doctor who knew what the problem in my hands was. His diagnosis is that some major symptoms should go away within 2 weeks, and I should be back to normal in 3-6 months. This doctor told me this 2 weeks ago today. I wanted to wait a little while and see how things were going before I made any announcement or brought this up. However typing this, no longer hurts like it used to. Some things are improving rapidly. Plenty of others are going much slower, mouse clicking is still painful for instance. However he is very confident that I'll be back up to speed fairly soon.
This was absolutely amazing news to me. I shared it with some close friends and I've really been wanting to share it with all of you. I have so many ideas and things I want to do when my hands won't cause me a ton of pain. I don't want this post to go on too long however. So I'll just kind of surprise you with my ideas as I do them hopefully. I'll be streaming for around an hour and a half after this, to answer questions and play some SC2 with you guys. As that's what I really love doing.
I don't know when I'll be able to stream constantly and consistently while playing Starcraft. However I hope it will be fairly soon, and in the mean time, I want to be involved with you guys. I just want to do interesting things that I've thought I'd never be able to do again. To give you one idea, that I want to do, would be a day of just analyzing and helping other people with their games. I realize I'm not that great anymore, and it'll take a lot of work. But I have high hopes, and motivation. I'll be hopefully taking some time off school again in six weeks or so, when this semester ends to continue doing more with you. So.. lets get streaming, and feel free to come ask me w/e questions and I'll answer while playing. I'll also answer any questions in the thread, whenever I have some time.
P.S. The hand problem was a combination of Trigger finger, carpal tunnel and cubital tunnel. Also <3
