EPT
As the title says...I have been playing DOTA 2 until like 6am today so when I woke up at 10 I only had 4 hours of sleep.
Combined with the only 5 hours the night before I felt really really tired but I fought my way through the day.
When practice finally started and I set the stream up I knew it was going to fail.
So the game started and everything I did was feeding the enemy team.
We played really bad teams today so even though I fed a lot we were still fighting to win but in the end we always lost because I lost my lane so much.
I feel really sorry for that and really I was close to throwing my whole dream of away after I didn't even get any helping words from my team mates.
We were all very disappointed and I am pretty sure the whole team is angry at me for feeding so much today and throwing the games away.
Well..When I started writing that blog I reconsidered everything though and now I think I should stop being a pussy. I had a bad day and yes my team mates are angry at me but tomorrow we will practice again and I can show what I really got.
To be honest I even think today's experience is a very important one for me because it will help me in my role as a captain a lot.
I might sound like a little kid looking for his mum here but after I failed so much I was really looking for the help of my team mates. Cheering me up etc. But it didn't come. And I can understand it.
Before I would have been angry at a guy feeding as badly as me, too.
If this ever happens to one of my mates I know what to do now.
Some nice words and it should help him to forget his bad performance.
I think this is something every captain should experience once.
As always my thoughts are very random but I guess that's a part of my personality.
If you got that far I thank you a lot for reading and I am really hoping for feedback.
NoLuck out!
