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terfand
Profile Joined June 2012
Russian Federation119 Posts
November 09 2012 11:04 GMT
#141
awesome article
all the best to you.
bigtabs
Profile Joined April 2012
Germany51 Posts
November 09 2012 11:05 GMT
#142
Used to enjoy Merz' streaming. Lots of banter with the viewers and plenty of good commentary. Sadly very intermittent, and now I guess not at all.

Fare well Merz.
Pafnucy
Profile Joined October 2002
Poland1124 Posts
November 09 2012 11:08 GMT
#143
Bye Merz
Member of the "Fuck Yeah, Canata !" committee :-) to join copy/paste this
NarutO
Profile Blog Joined December 2006
Germany18839 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-11-09 11:22:25
November 09 2012 11:22 GMT
#144
Ah man... really getting old. Sad to see you go merz. We had good and bad times in both Broodwar and Starcraft 2. I wish you best of luck, hope you still follow the scene even though you won't play anymore ;;... you know, everyone is coming back or at least not quitting, at least not forever.

Sugo yo
CommentatorPolt | MMA | Jjakji | BoxeR | NaDa | MVP | MKP ... truly inspiring.
dignitas.ToH1o
Profile Joined August 2010
Bulgaria56 Posts
November 09 2012 11:50 GMT
#145
Oh Tim..I'm glad I had the chance to meet you,y're such a cool guy and amazing player!! Gl in your life m8!!

~ToH1o
Cortza
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
South Africa328 Posts
November 09 2012 12:44 GMT
#146
gl merz. All the best.
DruidzShift
Profile Joined April 2011
Sweden71 Posts
November 09 2012 13:03 GMT
#147
Hey i rember watching you playing one of the best TvT vs MorroW (old times) i have ever seen.
It was broadcasted on swedish, Gamer TV if you remember
SickMyDuck_
Profile Joined October 2011
30 Posts
November 09 2012 13:16 GMT
#148
I feel the need to support you with my own story after reading this,because in a way it's very alike and i can really feel we're on the same page.

When i was a teenager,and wow just kicked in grabbing most of the playing pool from Wc3,i was just entering the gaming world or Warcraft-The Frozen Throne.I started in a moderate way,enjoying the game,but my competitive pulse got the best of me,and suddenly,without realizing,after one year inside the game i was top 500 europe in 1v1.I was in an ESL team back then,and had the honor to play with players like sk.Deadman and others.I worshipped 4k,mostly grubby,even tho i was an undead player.

I was spending 8-12 hours a day playing the game,watching replays,training and laddering.Sleeping at school,losing one year and being like a zombie,with only the dream to become a pro player.I was a kid back then,and about the time i hit 16,i realized the road was way too big for me,considering the fact that i had an education to achieve,and eventually university.And mostly,even tho i was good at it,i was just a kid playing computer games all day to the rest of the world.

At the age of 18 i started playing online poker,Texas Hold'em,riding the big boom which the game brought to the whole world.It was the year before my last one in high school,and again i reached a point where i was grinding NL100/NL200 cash game,playing 18 tables on 2 monitors for 8-10 hours a day.I had a sponsor,and never given one single euro into the game from my own pocket,so i can say without arrogance that i was a sponsored online poker player back then.

Even tho i was able to financially sustain myself from age 18-early 20,making an average well above my high school teachers,the rest of my life was a big big mess.I was constantly underachieving in my studies,my family was supporting me and yet,there was no balance in my life.At the age of 20,last year,i stopped playing holdem,because i was stagnant at my level,and i realized that everybody needs perspective in his own life.And that perspective was non existant,even if i were able to make it big in Wc3/Poker,still,i would've been on shaky grounds,with basically no plan B in my life.

Last part of my story regards Sc2.I started playing it last year,and reached immediatly High diamond.After 1 month,i finally broke the masters barrier,and i felt like the progamer dream could live on on a different form.And again,i faced the reality of my final year of high school.Playing Sc2 or losing another year of school.After seeing me being shattered 2 times,you can imagine what i chose.And i can say with no doubt that i made the right call.

Right now im 21,nearly 22.Im at the second year of university,studying Statistics and Information management.I have an internship going on,and next summer i will get a month of stage in a company which works on statistical analisys.These days im working on my cv to a big company which offers Erasmus programs,and with the right turn of event,i will eventually make it.I will be on my second year of university with 3 working experiences on my back,before even getting my degrees.In my country(Italy),students get that kind of experience only 1-2 years after they finish university.And i' counting to never stop,because i want to gather as much oppostunities as i get.

That been said,i hope my story,even in a small way,can make you feel a little better about yourself.Not because of the story itself,but because there is a big concept behind it:Winners never quit;quitters never win.,only on a different perspective.

Winners will always win,whatever they do,and quitters will always quit,whatever they do.My goal has become global,and not local anymore as it was in the past years.

Therefore,i will struggle for the rest of my life to be a winner in everything i do,because trust me,a winner will always find his best field to win.And every winner can tell you,that even if he chose the field,there's the big truth where the field itself chose him.

If you are a winner,you will win.End of story.Maybe progaming was not your field,that's all.
FeyFey
Profile Joined September 2010
Germany10114 Posts
November 09 2012 13:22 GMT
#149
GL in Future and hope you will stop by often.
Motiva
Profile Joined November 2007
United States1774 Posts
November 09 2012 13:35 GMT
#150
Sad Good Games man, Best of luck in your future :D
1oo
Profile Joined April 2011
Portugal876 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-11-09 13:55:52
November 09 2012 13:54 GMT
#151
I remember watching such a cool movie from BW of you, is there any way to download it again?

i even remember the name of the song, Mr vegas - Kokane
At the top of the game, we play by diferent rules.
LeLfe
Profile Joined February 2011
France3160 Posts
November 09 2012 15:16 GMT
#152
Hope it won't prevent you from being active on TL! good luck in your next endeavors!
Writer for Red bull (Fr) and Iron Squid (En/Fr) @ClemLeLfe on twitter
EG.Thorzain
Profile Joined May 2010
Sweden164 Posts
November 09 2012 15:19 GMT
#153
merz, you're one of the guys i like the most within e-sports. We didn't spend a ton of time together but I did truly enjoy the tournaments the both of us went to; I will never forget our New York trip! I am glad that you at least gave pro-gaming a shot, since you are a very passionate guy. It would have been a shame if you at least didn't try it out.

I wish you all the best in the future and I hope that you don't blame yourself too much about your "Stupid decision".
GLHF at the Uni!
Thanks to Roberi for taking care of my TL fanclub! Also a thanks to all my fans in and outside my TL fanclub :). Fighting~~!
MasterMonkey
Profile Joined September 2010
United States96 Posts
November 09 2012 15:21 GMT
#154
I think you will look back on this and say, "I'm glad I did that" because no matter what, you've learned from it and you're going to be the person you are because of the experience. No one can ever be blamed for trying and failing because they learn more than all.
Keep your oars in the brothel where they belong.
Champi
Profile Joined March 2010
1422 Posts
November 09 2012 15:22 GMT
#155
Bye Merz, All the best with Uni, you will be missed

I must admit i never watched any of your games, but just hearing through the grape vine about you blazing apm speed makes you a name that even someone like me who didnt follow you will remember for a long time to come

GLHF in your future
marcesr
Profile Joined June 2008
Germany1383 Posts
November 09 2012 16:13 GMT
#156
I can empathize a lot with this post, this was one of the few times I read through such a huge wall of text on TL.

Good Bye and good luck, dont forget about us
Masq
Profile Blog Joined March 2009
Canada1792 Posts
November 09 2012 16:24 GMT
#157
Its a sad day when another old player retires.
Cheers merz, you always crushed me in online cups.
duoform
Profile Joined August 2012
Spain5180 Posts
November 09 2012 16:31 GMT
#158
Best of luck dude!
"I really like Marauders and Marines." - Flash
Autotroph
Profile Joined September 2010
United Kingdom940 Posts
November 09 2012 16:32 GMT
#159
Thanks for writing this, really candid and insightful.

glhf in your further endeavours!
textbookcovers.tumblr.com
DarkPlasmaBall
Profile Blog Joined March 2010
United States44256 Posts
November 09 2012 16:50 GMT
#160
Gonna miss you, Merz. Best of luck in the future! I'm happy to hear that you're going back to pursuing your education! Good luck "pwning" school!
"There is nothing more satisfying than looking at a crowd of people and helping them get what I love." ~Day[9] Daily #100
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