But as we speak, my father is undergoing stent placement surgery to clear one of his Arteries that is 75% blocked by cholesterol and to further reinforce said blocked artery. I can't help but wonder if maybe I am doing something wrong by not being there. I understand it is a routine operation that Cardiologists and surgeons perform all the time, but I can't help but wonder, "What if something goes wrong?"
If it makes any difference, my mother is working right now as well. She dropped my father off at the hospital. I'm in the middle of getting a job interview and passing training at a local Papa johns.
But ultimately, I can't help but wonder if I am doing something wrong. I wonder if right now I should actually be at the hospital waiting to hear from the doctors about the outcome of my father's surgery. What if something goes wrong? What if the man who raised me since I was in diapers disappears from my life? I'm only 23, he's 61, still young...
Just now, I was outside, smoking a cigarette and mentally preparing myself for the worst. I couldn't help but shed just a few tears.