6 months ago i started cheating on my girlfriend with her roommate because i developed feelings for the roommate and the roommate was encouraging me i also felt really isolated from my girlfriend at the time.
Roommate makes comments that leads me to believe she wants to be with me in a relationship
roommate keeps a boyfriend secret from me for a week or two, i find out, make bad decision to break up with my girlfriend (our only issue besides the affair was a lack of communication, we didn't talk through out issues anymore, easily fixed).
Girlfriend finds new guy couple weeks later after our 4 year relationship says she wants to be friends "always" roommate says similar thing.
Both girls cease all contact with me.
ex girlfriend tells me about her new boyfriend, i tell her about the affair.
ex girlfriend and her roommate still friends still roommates everything is great for them, i'm left confused heartbroken and angry at myself for trusting too much.
Takes me months to get out of my apartment from the loss.
The biggest issue i have now is all the sacrifices i made for my girlfriend (and her roommate) are coming back to bite me in the ass. I sacrificed my college scholarship for my girlfriend, sacrificed time with my family before they moved to Rhode island from florida for them both, sacrificed a few friendships for my girlfriend. and sacrificed my girlfriend for her roommate, and now I have absolutely nothing. I can't bring myself to ask my parents for money so I'm trying to pull everything together myself in secret which just adds more stress.
Now that you are caught up, I've been writing blogs about this to help myself through. I'm still in love with my ex girlfriend, still have feelings for her roommate, still don't have contact with either. My life has been gym, friends, games, everything I can do to try to keep my mind off the situation. It doesn't work.
Anyway, right now I'm in rhode island for a couple weeks until my lease begins on my new apartment north of the UCF campus for the next year. I'm excited to meet new roommates and people, excited to get back to the UCF gym which is incredible every week, excited about turning things around. But i always long to have my relationship back. I hate being alone like this and i know I'm in no shape to just go pick up girls for sex right now, and i know i'm not relationship material in my current emotional state so i don't see myself not being alone for a while now.
To make things worse all this stress and pain caught up with me during an argument over a beer pong game with my friends, I threw a ball in anger and pretty much ruined the game (which we were dominating) because I was mad that they were adamant that I had made only 1 shot and not the two I had made (my partner making 3 or 4). a completely unnecessary argument that i've apologized for but I dunno whats up with them since I left the state since then. I dunno. I'm feeling more and more alone as time goes on and this stress has started affecting my friendships and god damn I'm tired of this.
So, thanks for being my therapy Teamliquid members. I'll buy any of you a beer if you ever come to Orlando and let me know you are there two beers if you happen to be staff or a liquipedia contributor. I owe you guys at least that.