• Log InLog In
  • Register
Liquid`
Team Liquid Liquipedia
EDT 21:24
CEST 03:24
KST 10:24
  • Home
  • Forum
  • Calendar
  • Streams
  • Liquipedia
  • Features
  • Store
  • EPT
  • TL+
  • StarCraft 2
  • Brood War
  • Smash
  • Heroes
  • Counter-Strike
  • Overwatch
  • Liquibet
  • Fantasy StarCraft
  • TLPD
  • StarCraft 2
  • Brood War
  • Blogs
Forum Sidebar
Events/Features
News
Featured News
[ASL20] Ro24 Preview Pt2: Take-Off6[ASL20] Ro24 Preview Pt1: Runway132v2 & SC: Evo Complete: Weekend Double Feature4Team Liquid Map Contest #21 - Presented by Monster Energy9uThermal's 2v2 Tour: $15,000 Main Event18
Community News
Weekly Cups (Aug 18-24): herO dethrones MaxPax5Maestros of The Game—$20k event w/ live finals in Paris30Weekly Cups (Aug 11-17): MaxPax triples again!13Weekly Cups (Aug 4-10): MaxPax wins a triple6SC2's Safe House 2 - October 18 & 195
StarCraft 2
General
Weekly Cups (Aug 18-24): herO dethrones MaxPax What mix of new and old maps do you want in the next 1v1 ladder pool? (SC2) : A Eulogy for the Six Pool Geoff 'iNcontroL' Robinson has passed away 2v2 & SC: Evo Complete: Weekend Double Feature
Tourneys
WardiTV Mondays Maestros of The Game—$20k event w/ live finals in Paris RSL: Revival, a new crowdfunded tournament series Sparkling Tuna Cup - Weekly Open Tournament Monday Nights Weeklies
Strategy
Custom Maps
External Content
Mutation # 488 What Goes Around Mutation # 487 Think Fast Mutation # 486 Watch the Skies Mutation # 485 Death from Below
Brood War
General
No Rain in ASL20? BW General Discussion Flash On His 2010 "God" Form, Mind Games, vs JD BGH Auto Balance -> http://bghmmr.eu/ [ASL20] Ro24 Preview Pt2: Take-Off
Tourneys
[IPSL] CSLAN Review and CSLPRO Reimagined! [ASL20] Ro24 Group E [Megathread] Daily Proleagues [ASL20] Ro24 Group D
Strategy
Simple Questions, Simple Answers Fighting Spirit mining rates [G] Mineral Boosting Muta micro map competition
Other Games
General Games
Stormgate/Frost Giant Megathread Nintendo Switch Thread General RTS Discussion Thread Dawn of War IV Path of Exile
Dota 2
Official 'what is Dota anymore' discussion
League of Legends
Heroes of the Storm
Simple Questions, Simple Answers Heroes of the Storm 2.0
Hearthstone
Heroes of StarCraft mini-set
TL Mafia
TL Mafia Community Thread Vanilla Mini Mafia
Community
General
Russo-Ukrainian War Thread US Politics Mega-thread Things Aren’t Peaceful in Palestine The year 2050 European Politico-economics QA Mega-thread
Fan Clubs
INnoVation Fan Club SKT1 Classic Fan Club!
Media & Entertainment
Anime Discussion Thread Movie Discussion! [Manga] One Piece [\m/] Heavy Metal Thread
Sports
2024 - 2026 Football Thread TeamLiquid Health and Fitness Initiative For 2023 Formula 1 Discussion
World Cup 2022
Tech Support
High temperatures on bridge(s) Gtx660 graphics card replacement Installation of Windows 10 suck at "just a moment"
TL Community
The Automated Ban List TeamLiquid Team Shirt On Sale
Blogs
Evil Gacha Games and the…
ffswowsucks
Breaking the Meta: Non-Stand…
TrAiDoS
INDEPENDIENTE LA CTM
XenOsky
[Girl blog} My fema…
artosisisthebest
Sharpening the Filtration…
frozenclaw
ASL S20 English Commentary…
namkraft
Customize Sidebar...

Website Feedback

Closed Threads



Active: 3773 users

Birthdays are reflection-days

Blogs > Hynda
Post a Reply
Hynda
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
Sweden2226 Posts
May 12 2012 18:43 GMT
#1
My 24th Birthday is comming up next week and as usual I spend the weekend before it reflecting on the year that has passed. Sadly 2011/2012 have not been a good year, it's been the year where I lost my identity. To explain this I guess I have to go back a bit, on valentines day 2003 my father was watching a panel show called time-out in bed when he suddenly fell over and couldn't get up. That was the last time I saw him alive, I was 14 years old and I was supposed to start the Swedish version of high school that fall. This led to a horrendous academic time and not only were I held back a year, I also left without finishing it. I don't remember much about my 15th to 19th year simply because my day was mostly sleeping, trying to keep my family together and trying to catch up with whatever I missed in school. During this time I held on to one thing and one thing only, it was the only thing that kept me going and kept me alive. ”I am not an idiot”.

Nobody failed high school other than complete morons and criminals, that was what I was told over and over agian, and I wasn't a criminal. When I was 19 I finally got my own apartment and my family was slowly repairing itself, moving out was probably a life saving move for me. So with that in mind I set out to get into university, that was the only thing I cared about and from there that was the road I was. I hade 1 and a half year left before I could get grades that I could apply to uni with and I set out knowing that I wanted to do this properly. In the end I had a 19.2 out of 20 average, so most university courses were open to me and I got in. But at that moment something died. I had done what I set out to do, my life goal for the last 4 or 5 years had come true and it left a large void.

I tried to fill it with what I had always dreamed of doing before my life collapsed. I wanted to entertain people, I am happy when I am around happy, laughing people and if I could be part of the source that made people happy or at least entertained that would be amazing. So my 23rd year on this planet was spent comming to probably worse conclusion I've ever had to draw.

I am horrendously unfunny. I can't write texts to entertain, I can't make jokes, I can't be a driving force for entertainment, in short I'm unable to make others laugh or heck even smile. If I try to be funny I'm annoying, if I don't try I am boring. The best I can hope for is a ”Meh”. It might sound wierd but it was such a truth in my life, I fix the whole university thing and then move on to what I was supposed to do. It was engrained into my life since I was 5 years old that I was put on this planet to help others be happy. So moving towards my 24th birthday I have no idea what to do with my life, I no longer have any goals or any reason to move forward. I am sure that is the case for alot of people, but my life was put on hold for about 5 years so I guess everything happens 5 years later for me than they do for most people.

There is no real point to this blog other than to write down the disjointed things I think about and get them out of my head.

Atom Cannister
Profile Blog Joined April 2009
Germany380 Posts
May 12 2012 18:49 GMT
#2
I'd recommend just trying out some jobs and see what you like.

Maybe start slow with some volunteering or part time jobs here and there.

Discover what you're into.

Most of all gl &hf!
...
Th1rdEye
Profile Blog Joined December 2006
United States1074 Posts
May 12 2012 19:15 GMT
#3
Maybe you are funny in different ways than you think..

Not everyone is a stand up comedian. Maybe you are a comic artist who rights funny comics with silly punchlines? Maybe you entertain people by funny sounds in a cartoon? Maybe you're really a mime who doesn't speak? Maybe a clown?

Who the hell knows, but you!

Entertainment comes in many forms. Maybe funny isn't the entertainment you will give either. Drama is entertainment. Action films are entertainment. Who knows, maybe you will have to find a menial job to find your outlet for creativity.
from the days of: TheMarine [NC]...YellOw [H.O.T.]-Forever99 OgOgO [_MuMyung_] ChRh PlayGrrrr.... SlayerS_`BoxeR` [Oops]Reach [ReD]NaDa [DF]zergboy..!! Pusan[S.G] Nal_rA GARIMTO SSamJJang ChoJJa JinSu Silent_Control iloveoov H_PauL_WII JulyZerg [DaK]JoYo
Hynda
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
Sweden2226 Posts
May 12 2012 19:57 GMT
#4
On May 13 2012 04:15 Th1rdEye wrote:
Maybe you are funny in different ways than you think..

Not everyone is a stand up comedian. Maybe you are a comic artist who rights funny comics with silly punchlines? Maybe you entertain people by funny sounds in a cartoon? Maybe you're really a mime who doesn't speak? Maybe a clown?

Who the hell knows, but you!

Entertainment comes in many forms. Maybe funny isn't the entertainment you will give either. Drama is entertainment. Action films are entertainment. Who knows, maybe you will have to find a menial job to find your outlet for creativity.

This I do understand. I never saw myself as the haha funny guy, I guess that was a bad way of putting it. I was born with two left hands but writing has always been the thing I thought I would do the most. I'd love to be an author aimed at the younger demographic, but when I was 15 I could write out 50 page stories that were decent and that I thought was clearly the most brilliant work ever created, now it's as if I get 2 pages in and just can't force myself to go further because it's god awful. No matter what I do it never matches what I had in my head to begin with and that is frustrating.
Please log in or register to reply.
Live Events Refresh
PiGosaur Monday
00:00
#46
PiGStarcraft383
SteadfastSC95
[ Submit Event ]
Live Streams
Refresh
StarCraft 2
PiGStarcraft383
Nina 173
NeuroSwarm 131
SteadfastSC 95
ProTech80
Nathanias 75
CosmosSc2 38
PattyMac 3
StarCraft: Brood War
Artosis 782
NaDa 78
Sharp 57
Dota 2
monkeys_forever653
Counter-Strike
fl0m1531
taco 172
Super Smash Bros
hungrybox420
Other Games
summit1g6436
tarik_tv4501
shahzam1470
Day[9].tv820
C9.Mang0393
WinterStarcraft351
ViBE262
Maynarde131
ToD104
ROOTCatZ10
RuFF_SC24
Organizations
Other Games
gamesdonequick986
BasetradeTV25
StarCraft 2
Blizzard YouTube
StarCraft: Brood War
BSLTrovo
sctven
[ Show 15 non-featured ]
StarCraft 2
• rockletztv 33
• Sammyuel 5
• AfreecaTV YouTube
• intothetv
• Kozan
• IndyKCrew
• LaughNgamezSOOP
• Migwel
• sooper7s
StarCraft: Brood War
• BSLYoutube
• STPLYoutube
• ZZZeroYoutube
League of Legends
• Stunt367
Other Games
• Scarra993
• Day9tv820
Upcoming Events
Afreeca Starleague
8h 36m
hero vs Alone
Royal vs Barracks
Replay Cast
22h 36m
The PondCast
1d 8h
WardiTV Summer Champion…
1d 9h
Clem vs Classic
herO vs MaxPax
Replay Cast
1d 22h
LiuLi Cup
2 days
MaxPax vs TriGGeR
ByuN vs herO
Cure vs Rogue
Classic vs HeRoMaRinE
Cosmonarchy
2 days
OyAji vs Sziky
Sziky vs WolFix
WolFix vs OyAji
BSL Team Wars
2 days
Team Hawk vs Team Dewalt
BSL Team Wars
2 days
Team Hawk vs Team Bonyth
SC Evo League
3 days
TaeJa vs Cure
Rogue vs threepoint
ByuN vs Creator
MaNa vs Classic
[ Show More ]
Maestros of the Game
3 days
ShoWTimE vs Cham
GuMiho vs Ryung
Zoun vs Spirit
Rogue vs MaNa
[BSL 2025] Weekly
3 days
SC Evo League
4 days
Maestros of the Game
4 days
SHIN vs Creator
Astrea vs Lambo
Bunny vs SKillous
HeRoMaRinE vs TriGGeR
BSL Team Wars
4 days
Team Bonyth vs Team Sziky
BSL Team Wars
4 days
Team Dewalt vs Team Sziky
Monday Night Weeklies
5 days
Replay Cast
5 days
Sparkling Tuna Cup
6 days
Liquipedia Results

Completed

CSLAN 3
uThermal 2v2 Main Event
HCC Europe

Ongoing

Copa Latinoamericana 4
BSL 20 Team Wars
KCM Race Survival 2025 Season 3
BSL 21 Qualifiers
ASL Season 20
CSL Season 18: Qualifier 1
Acropolis #4 - TS1
CSL Season 18: Qualifier 2
SEL Season 2 Championship
WardiTV Summer 2025
BLAST Open Fall Qual
Esports World Cup 2025
BLAST Bounty Fall 2025
BLAST Bounty Fall Qual
IEM Cologne 2025
FISSURE Playground #1
BLAST.tv Austin Major 2025

Upcoming

CSL 2025 AUTUMN (S18)
LASL Season 20
BSL Season 21
BSL 21 Team A
Chzzk MurlocKing SC1 vs SC2 Cup #2
RSL Revival: Season 2
Maestros of the Game
EC S1
Sisters' Call Cup
IEM Chengdu 2025
PGL Masters Bucharest 2025
MESA Nomadic Masters Fall
Thunderpick World Champ.
CS Asia Championships 2025
Roobet Cup 2025
ESL Pro League S22
StarSeries Fall 2025
FISSURE Playground #2
BLAST Open Fall 2025
TLPD

1. ByuN
2. TY
3. Dark
4. Solar
5. Stats
6. Nerchio
7. sOs
8. soO
9. INnoVation
10. Elazer
1. Rain
2. Flash
3. EffOrt
4. Last
5. Bisu
6. Soulkey
7. Mini
8. Sharp
Sidebar Settings...

Advertising | Privacy Policy | Terms Of Use | Contact Us

Original banner artwork: Jim Warren
The contents of this webpage are copyright © 2025 TLnet. All Rights Reserved.