• Log InLog In
  • Register
Liquid`
Team Liquid Liquipedia
EDT 01:27
CEST 07:27
KST 14:27
  • Home
  • Forum
  • Calendar
  • Streams
  • Liquipedia
  • Features
  • Store
  • EPT
  • TL+
  • StarCraft 2
  • Brood War
  • Smash
  • Heroes
  • Counter-Strike
  • Overwatch
  • Liquibet
  • Fantasy StarCraft
  • TLPD
  • StarCraft 2
  • Brood War
  • Blogs
Forum Sidebar
Events/Features
News
Featured News
RSL Season 1 - Final Week6[ASL19] Finals Recap: Standing Tall15HomeStory Cup 27 - Info & Preview18Classic wins Code S Season 2 (2025)16Code S RO4 & Finals Preview: herO, Rogue, Classic, GuMiho0
Community News
Esports World Cup 2025 - Brackets Revealed16Weekly Cups (July 7-13): Classic continues to roll8Team TLMC #5 - Submission extension3Firefly given lifetime ban by ESIC following match-fixing investigation17$25,000 Streamerzone StarCraft Pro Series announced7
StarCraft 2
General
Esports World Cup 2025 - Brackets Revealed RSL Revival patreon money discussion thread Who will win EWC 2025? The GOAT ranking of GOAT rankings Server Blocker
Tourneys
FEL Cracov 2025 (July 27) - $8000 live event Sparkling Tuna Cup - Weekly Open Tournament Sea Duckling Open (Global, Bronze-Diamond) RSL: Revival, a new crowdfunded tournament series $5,100+ SEL Season 2 Championship (SC: Evo)
Strategy
How did i lose this ZvP, whats the proper response
Custom Maps
External Content
Mutation # 482 Wheel of Misfortune Mutation # 481 Fear and Lava Mutation # 480 Moths to the Flame Mutation # 479 Worn Out Welcome
Brood War
General
Flash Announces (and Retracts) Hiatus From ASL BGH Auto Balance -> http://bghmmr.eu/ BW General Discussion Soulkey Muta Micro Map? [ASL19] Finals Recap: Standing Tall
Tourneys
[Megathread] Daily Proleagues CSL Xiamen International Invitational 2025 ACS Season 2 Qualifier Cosmonarchy Pro Showmatches
Strategy
Simple Questions, Simple Answers I am doing this better than progamers do.
Other Games
General Games
Stormgate/Frost Giant Megathread Path of Exile Nintendo Switch Thread CCLP - Command & Conquer League Project The PlayStation 5
Dota 2
Official 'what is Dota anymore' discussion
League of Legends
Heroes of the Storm
Simple Questions, Simple Answers Heroes of the Storm 2.0
Hearthstone
Heroes of StarCraft mini-set
TL Mafia
TL Mafia Community Thread Vanilla Mini Mafia
Community
General
US Politics Mega-thread Things Aren’t Peaceful in Palestine Russo-Ukrainian War Thread Stop Killing Games - European Citizens Initiative Summer Games Done Quick 2025!
Fan Clubs
SKT1 Classic Fan Club! Maru Fan Club
Media & Entertainment
Korean Music Discussion Movie Discussion! [Manga] One Piece Anime Discussion Thread [\m/] Heavy Metal Thread
Sports
2024 - 2025 Football Thread Formula 1 Discussion TeamLiquid Health and Fitness Initiative For 2023 NBA General Discussion NHL Playoffs 2024
World Cup 2022
Tech Support
Computer Build, Upgrade & Buying Resource Thread
TL Community
The Automated Ban List
Blogs
Ping To Win? Pings And Their…
TrAiDoS
momentary artworks from des…
tankgirl
from making sc maps to makin…
Husyelt
StarCraft improvement
iopq
Customize Sidebar...

Website Feedback

Closed Threads



Active: 597 users

Introduction...or how I started to rant

Blogs > SOyuncastor
Post a Reply
SOyuncastor
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
Mexico40 Posts
January 25 2012 10:08 GMT
#1
Well, it is now 3 45 am and I am ranting. Yes, I am one of those players who rants all the time. A player who never was more than mediocre but thought it was going to be one of the best if he kept playing. A player who smashed more than once his fist over the desktop because that's what mediocre players do.

I was one of those. But then, I got old.


The worst part of getting old is you lose your passion. Is that key ingredient that makes you enjoy life, even when you are losing. But once the passion is gone, man, that's when life starts to ask for its payment and that bitch wants every fucking penny she can get. Imagine a divorce with a blonde bitch and then multiply it by 100 times that. Losing passion is worst than losing erections (you will find out later in life young-lings).

You can't remember when your erections are starting to go soft but you can remember always when is the day you lost your passion: My day was the 26th of october. That day was the day I didn't had enough money to pay gas for hot showers and to pay the internet bill. Something was about to be cut. And for god sakes, that day I decided to pay the gas for hot showers was freezing like if I were in the artic pole.

So I payed the bill... was it the right one at that time. You bet. Now I am starting to think it was the biggest mistake of my life. You see, in order to get my internet back again took me several days, well, 8 weeks if you want to be exact. In those weeks I had no porn, no series, no internet, no nothing. I even started to see those kind of things you download for some "rainy day" that you never would watch if you had internet.

in the month of october before the internet went down, I would look for so many topics on TL. I would fall asleep watching replays from anyone, or watching streams like Slayer Dragon (when he did that epic game of nuking his enemy until he resigned) Watching Idra playing with that damn mathematic style he possess or watching destiny playing at the highest resolution. Those were the days...

But after having no internet I was only able to satisfy my craving for starcraft 2 playing the campaign. Of course it was in the easiest mode - such a scrub that I was - but even after that I found that if the game does not connect in certain amount of time, it will go from full player mode, to guest mode and then to nothing mode. That was hard to face.

So, no internet, no starcraft, no replays. The fix that I daily needed started to fade away. And when the day came, you know, the day when I finally gathered the money to get my internet back. I decided not to play. It took me like 4 or 5 days to start a game with some friends. Just a little after the new season started: But I was afraid, afraid like a junkie who had no drugs in the system for 2 months and someone suddenly offers you the first after so long of not being in touch with that old friend.

I decided that I would play with my friends but I WOULD NOT CARE if I win or if I lose. Worst mistake ever.

From that day on, I stopped caring of even playing. I stopped feeling mad or happy or even feeling that I was alive. Because you see, when you get old you want to experiment once again that rush of adrenaline just to remember the old times. Sometimes you need that fix by losing, you even want to lose on purpose so you can feel alive. But once you stop caring for that feeling, you see how gloomy its life if you don't even care for a simple game.

I read once in this place that many people were worried to be raging in starcraft 2. They even tried to do push ups in order to deal with the frustration and the anger contained in the body. At that time, when I read that there were others who, like me, were having problems dealing with that frustration that I also did the push ups. I decided to do 5 push ups everytime I would lose a game.

One day I did 70 push ups. Me, a person who never excercise. It felt great...until the next day.

I was able to be that guy, a guy In control with a hope to be a better person. But the moment the internet went down, that was the moment I stopped doing push ups... and suddenly I had no rage, but I also had no motivation to do push ups.

It's getting long. I must stop. Another thing I left inconcluse. But hey, if it wasn't like this, it wouldn't be me.

*****
There is always someone younger and better than you.
ToKoreaWithLove
Profile Blog Joined September 2002
Norway10161 Posts
January 25 2012 10:40 GMT
#2
Made me think of this quote:

"Passion... it lies in all of us. Sleeping, waiting, and though unbidden, it will stir, open its jaws, and howl. It speaks to us, guides us... passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have?... Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love, the clarity of hatred, and the ecstasy of grief... it hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we could know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank... without passion, we'd be truly dead."

ModeratorFather of bunnies
dapierow
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
Serbia1316 Posts
January 25 2012 11:11 GMT
#3
Made me think of this quote:

“Life is not easy. We all have problems-even tragedies-to deal with, and luck has nothing to do with it. Bad luck is only the superstitious excuse for those who don't have the wit to deal with the problems of life. ”

Rants = Excuses.
Eat.Sleep.Starcraft 2
Dirkzor
Profile Blog Joined June 2011
Denmark1944 Posts
January 25 2012 11:17 GMT
#4
So you lost your passion for stracraft... and? You'll find a passion for something else at some point. It's the time in between passions, which i think you are experiencing now, that fuck your mind. I've gone from CS -> NS -> WoW -> SC2. And thats only my gaming passions. More offline activities have been things like: Juggling -> Rubix Cubing -> Juggling -> Crossfit. (and reading at steady intervals inbetween)

The time between passions have been month or years but at some point you either pick up an old passion or find a new one

It will come again...

Also I have to ask: How old are you?
"HOW THE FUCK ARE YOU ON TOP AGAIN???? HOW DO YOU KEEP DOING THIS????" -Julmust (also, thats what she said)
SOyuncastor
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
Mexico40 Posts
January 25 2012 17:45 GMT
#5
I'm 36 years old. I really liked what all you guys wrote. Specially ToKoreaWithLove. May I ask who was the person from where you got that quote?.

That quote was amazing.
There is always someone younger and better than you.
OpticalShot
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
Canada6330 Posts
January 25 2012 18:15 GMT
#6
Just chill and try out different games, you'd be surprised how many of them are well-made and thoroughly enjoyable. Oh and don't lose internet again haha I can't even imagine living a week without internet.
[TLMS] REBOOT
Delwack
Profile Joined December 2011
123 Posts
January 25 2012 20:10 GMT
#7
I've personally always been of the opinion that love and hate are two sides of the same coin, it shows that you care.

If you love something, you care for it wand want to preserve, protect, and grow it.

If you hate something, you care for it and want to change, improve or defeat it.

Either way, that emotion is the passion that drives you to do what you do. When you don't care anymore, when you lose that passion, that is when something has truly lost it's value to you. With love or hate comes improvement and the creation of value. With enough apathy, death ultimately results.

Perhaps then, starcraft is dead to you now, but I'm sure you'll find something else, if you haven't already, that will occupy you and make you care. Maybe not to the same degree, maybe you won't get that 'high' back, but you'll find out. And don't discount re-finding your passion for starcraft, though it's not sometihng you can force.

I hope you find something that you ca nbe as passionate abou tas you were with starcraft.
Please log in or register to reply.
Live Events Refresh
Next event in 4h 33m
[ Submit Event ]
Live Streams
Refresh
StarCraft 2
Nina 289
StarCraft: Brood War
Sea 14889
PianO 92
ajuk12(nOOB) 18
LuMiX 1
Britney 0
Stormgate
NightEnD11
Dota 2
monkeys_forever772
League of Legends
JimRising 777
Counter-Strike
Stewie2K1123
Heroes of the Storm
Khaldor53
Other Games
summit1g12525
shahzam1365
WinterStarcraft412
ViBE217
ROOTCatZ44
Trikslyr28
Organizations
Other Games
gamesdonequick4572
StarCraft 2
Blizzard YouTube
StarCraft: Brood War
BSLTrovo
sctven
[ Show 14 non-featured ]
StarCraft 2
• Berry_CruncH260
• AfreecaTV YouTube
• intothetv
• Kozan
• IndyKCrew
• LaughNgamezSOOP
• Migwel
• sooper7s
StarCraft: Brood War
• BSLYoutube
• STPLYoutube
• ZZZeroYoutube
Dota 2
• masondota2511
League of Legends
• Lourlo1372
• Stunt674
Upcoming Events
CranKy Ducklings
4h 33m
Epic.LAN
6h 33m
CSO Contender
11h 33m
Sparkling Tuna Cup
1d 4h
Online Event
1d 10h
Esports World Cup
3 days
ByuN vs Astrea
Lambo vs HeRoMaRinE
Clem vs TBD
Solar vs Zoun
SHIN vs Reynor
Maru vs TriGGeR
herO vs Lancer
Cure vs ShoWTimE
Esports World Cup
4 days
Esports World Cup
5 days
Esports World Cup
6 days
Liquipedia Results

Completed

CSL Xiamen Invitational: ShowMatche
RSL Revival: Season 1
Murky Cup #2

Ongoing

BSL 2v2 Season 3
Copa Latinoamericana 4
Jiahua Invitational
BSL20 Non-Korean Championship
CSL Xiamen Invitational
2025 ACS Season 2
Championship of Russia 2025
Underdog Cup #2
FISSURE Playground #1
BLAST.tv Austin Major 2025
ESL Impact League Season 7
IEM Dallas 2025
PGL Astana 2025
Asian Champions League '25

Upcoming

CSLPRO Last Chance 2025
CSLPRO Chat StarLAN 3
BSL Season 21
RSL Revival: Season 2
SEL Season 2 Championship
uThermal 2v2 Main Event
FEL Cracov 2025
Esports World Cup 2025
ESL Pro League S22
StarSeries Fall 2025
FISSURE Playground #2
BLAST Open Fall 2025
BLAST Open Fall Qual
Esports World Cup 2025
BLAST Bounty Fall 2025
BLAST Bounty Fall Qual
IEM Cologne 2025
TLPD

1. ByuN
2. TY
3. Dark
4. Solar
5. Stats
6. Nerchio
7. sOs
8. soO
9. INnoVation
10. Elazer
1. Rain
2. Flash
3. EffOrt
4. Last
5. Bisu
6. Soulkey
7. Mini
8. Sharp
Sidebar Settings...

Advertising | Privacy Policy | Terms Of Use | Contact Us

Original banner artwork: Jim Warren
The contents of this webpage are copyright © 2025 TLnet. All Rights Reserved.