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Sawamura
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
Malaysia7602 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-01-11 15:07:19
January 11 2012 15:03 GMT
#1
My name is Sawamura and I also go by the nick name of Snake , thenoob , OneEx, extreme One . Originally started out as a casual gamer with my friend's , playing broodwar at lan , although most of my friends were playing MMORPG back than because of the popularity . I sticked with counter strike , because shooting gun's was amazing , seeing that tomato juice coming out from a accurate shot from an ak 47 to your target's head was amazing for my self through my teenage years .

I carried out playing games , through out my life even during my college day's when I was taking my diploma , I had friends , good times hanging out with my friends , it's good also to know about the opposite sex , but thing's didn't go the way I wanted and It never went further beyond friends . Here I am back to square one playing games . As a counter strike fan from my younger days , I just love the adrenaline rush I get from playing FPS games be it Halo , Cs 1.6 or Cs source as long there is huge amount of fire fight . You can count me to be there .

Now continuing my Counter strike Journey , I can say I have never reach even to the level of amateur , more like a total newbie to the game , however than I discovered Cs Source , played it a while for fun , than I realized there was a local server called FsN team . Fast forward , I played there more frequently and I practice harder to win these so called " Good players " . With each hours I pour in to my shooting skills and reflex , I got better , I downloaded more replays and even watch Got Frag coverage on CGS .

Watching KSharp, Frod, Dominator duking out on dust_2 and inferno , the tactics was amusing , not only I realized that I wanted to become like them . I decided to block out real life and paid more attention to this "crazed" that boiled in me . I got better of course in my shooting skill , from a noob , I was recognized by the singaporeans who frequently pub's in matches , I was immediately picked when ever they saw my name on the spectator screen .

I never got so angry on my life , when one of this kid , screwed me up so badly , said in a really bad manner tone that I might as well delete the game , Phen goes by his nick name , after losing to him count less time , I watched how he played the game , He was of course more superior than me in everything , game sense , strategy , shooting skill , he could handle the awp really well and his shots are accurate . So I tried to imitate him , practice countless hours on death match , till I can't even feel my fingers any more . I continued this for a very long time . Until I could handle the damn AWP with great accuracy and suddenly my favourite hand gun become really deadly . My objective was clear to beat this Phen guy and make him say my name ....

Who need's an AWP , when I could take down every target with a single head shot from a Deagle ? Making come back ? I did it a whole lot in scrim matches , even against "so called pro cs teams from singapore " . However no matter how much I tried to join the team FsN , I was rejected on the basis that I can't hold out for their team and I was just too bad . However , there was a chance of me entering the team when they decided to make a third team .

FsN .3g was the name , during my recruitment , leading the team was Nitrate and Speed was second in command , Me i was merely some grunt ( my only purpose was to get kills and become bait ) , Dark and Undertaker . It was great finally I was in the pro team , we practised , positions and strategy , 3,1,1 , 4,1 if that numbers confuse you , Just take example on a map dust 2 , you are playing as the terrorist , if the strat was 3,1,1 , you send 3 guys in B tunnel waiting for the , guy in mid to smoke up and the other guy at 1 at alley door to watch for back stab , Mid guy who smoke the mid will than try to fake a push to bomb site A . Who than once the mid guy give's the go all of us would have pushed bomb site B .

The guy at alley would also try to back stab the CT's from alley . However all strategy was not perfect , Some times it did work , Some times it doesn't and that is the price of using a really safe strats because player will get familiar to the strategy and just might as well allow you take bomb site for B for all they care and blind you with 4 flash bang's in your eye and it's an instant win for them .My issue with my team is , We never lacked in Fire Power , however communication with my younger players such as Dark and undertaker was a huge problem , They Considered me as some arrogant douchebag for ordering them around . When I was just merely correcting their play . Speed was some time offline , Nitrate was also busy .

Although over clouded with passion , with my overzealous craziness for this game cs source , I stayed up late from night to early morning only to repeat this mad cycle that I believe I will become a cs source pro gamer one day . FsN 3G started to fall apart when we couldn't win matches that were assigned by the person managing FsN . In order for FsN 3G to be accepted to the FsN team it has to win their most boasted line up of players . Main team line up's were for FsN were Han,Oxide,teQuila , KC , WC .

My team started out fairly well in the CT Team getting win's for the score was about 3-0 to them , thing's turn around when were asked to play as the terrorist , not only were we caught with our pants down when tried to go for our favourite strats as a Terrorist , which is the 3,1,1 . They simply just waited for us to do the fake and pushed us out from the mid . Main team players were seriously good , each player not only having superior accuracy , having specialized in their weapons due to countless training and experience , we got out gunned , as every time we got the bomb down , we just can't hold the flashes and with our lack of numbers . the game was 16-7 .


Team FsN 3.G was finally disbanded and only nitrate and Speed was considered to be of "FsN" material and that left me thinking , what the hell have I spend all my time for on this game ? ,I screwed up my papers in my degree , I finally drop out , Life seems meaning less after that , I thought to my self , If i haven't blindly followed my passion and gone with this childish thought , I would have graduated and become a proud person right now . As time pass , each of my universities mates , graduated .

I am left alone , no where to go , my dad set it out on the table straight " It's either you Study or Go Work " , Which do you want ? I put you to college so you could study , not wasting time's on game ?. As time goes on my parent's finally allowed me to study again, of course I was happy that I was given a second shot to clear all this mistakes . All the excuses I was giving during my whole life time , that even to the point I was blaming my parents for not giving me the proper direction . I was the one who decided to go all in to the game and drop out my studies , I was the one who made the call to study a course that I never Intended to do so .

So what do you want to study now ? tell me ! was what my dad said to me , Well since I was average at math's although I excel at all theory papers . Math's was never my thing and I decided to study Law with the university of london . Sure it was hard to re adjust normal daily life , no longer do I spend hours in the dark room trying to perfect my shooting skill , there were all past which I want to forget and I never ever wanted to do the same mistake .

I think can I say it was fun for a time being , having crazy dreams like playing with the big teams one day , making money from playing the game you love , In the end did I get what I wanted to do for a living ? . No , I didn't , Now thinking of my gaming career and time that I have spend on gaming , It was seriously a waste of time , time's that I could have used to improve my self and make a career for my self .

Currently, I just managed to make it through the intermediate stage of the LLB course and now I am having a tough time in my Part 1 . I think that passionate me is still some where although more directed in my studies now days . Although I still hated losing very much as I did back than . I just want to make sure , that I will follow through with my studies and get that Degree because I know with my LLB , I have a chance of becoming a Lawyer which isn't bad at all . My parent's are growing older and I am not getting younger , I will give my best to ensure that I will make it through the LLB degree .

I think one can learn from my experience , that if you are merely just want to be a wannabe at a game and try to go pro while juggling with studies . You are asking for it , you either go all out for it or just drop it and move on with your life . I don't think I can ever play cs in my life again , never again.......



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BW/KT Forever R.I.P KT.Violet dearly missed ..
TheToast
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
United States4808 Posts
January 11 2012 15:24 GMT
#2
This story reminds me of the early 2000s, I used to play a fuck ton of C&C Renegade online: probably close to 20 hours per week. I even became a mod on a popular server and joined a "clan". We weren't really a clan, just a loose collection of guys who were just really good amatures; though we did play some clan wars and stuff. In then end, it didn't contribute to my life in anyway, and I spent a shit ton of time playing that game every week. I could have been out getting a job or doing extra curriculars in HS to maybe get some college scholarships, etc. etc. But I would never classify the time I spent playing that game as a "waste of time", I had some great experiences, amazing fun, and met some great people.

If you don't enjoy the time you have in life, there's no point in living it. Cherish the experiences you've had, if nothing else you learned a lesson from this experience that will be with you the rest of your life.
I like the way the walls go out. Gives you an open feeling. Firefly's a good design. People don't appreciate the substance of things. Objects in space. People miss out on what's solid.
Ciryandor
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
United States3735 Posts
January 11 2012 15:33 GMT
#3
Don't think of it as wasting time with people you've played with; I still manage to get to talk with some of the people I used to play DotA with; and I'm at least half-familiar with what everyone I used to play with RO does.
에일리 and 아이유 <3 - O Captain 박재혁 ・゚✧*:・*゚+..。✧・゚:*・..。 ✧・゚ :・゚* ゜・*:・ ✧・゚:・゚:.。 ✧・゚ SPARKULING ・゜・:・゚✧*:・゚✧。*゚+..。 ✧・゚: ✧・゚:*・゜・:・゚✧*::
Abort Retry Fail
Profile Joined December 2011
2636 Posts
January 11 2012 16:02 GMT
#4
Hello Sawamura,
I often see you in the BW section. Based on your posts, I'd never imagine you to be this emotional/vulnerable.
From one KT fan to the next, Sawamura hwaitiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing!
BSOD
DyEnasTy
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
United States3714 Posts
January 11 2012 19:35 GMT
#5
Awesome blog Sawa. Always move forward and accept the mistakes you made and let them make you stronger.
Much better to die an awesome Terran than to live as a magic wielding fairy or a mindless sac of biological goop. -Manifesto7
Black[CAT]
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
Malaysia2589 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-01-11 20:23:54
January 11 2012 20:23 GMT
#6
Y U NO explain how you come to playing BW and its scene?

Great read yo! Managing to become good at gaming while studying full time is hard but not impossible (T_T). I cant even manage my time to play BW nowadays...
You mean ESPORTS isnt a synonym for SC2? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ -Proud owner of a Filco Majestouch 2 with Cherry Blue Switches- BW or SC2? Why not both?
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