EPTat first i wrote this thinking i was going to ask for help on cracking this case, is my gf cheating on me or not. but eventually it lead to maybe believe i was being an idiot...
i swear my brain must be fucking me royally after that ^^^ because while i feel like we've been connecting way more than usual lately, i can't stop thinking like an idiot.
she's in taiwan, i trust her, but this past week has been pretty funny. first, i ask her to call me cuz i'm on my way to LA to pick up my mom. well...i get a phone call from her but she usually calls from skype which is some random number from the US, but this time she called directly from her cell (+88whatever). i answer, don't hear anyone talk for like 15 seconds. i stay on the line thinking the problem will be fixed any second...nope. instead i hear what appears to be heavy breathing and rhythmic beating (you know what i'm talking about). i listened for a whole 2 minutes 45 seconds as my brain was like WTF and my heart was going out of control. then finally either the phone disconnects or she realizes and hangs up. i called her back 2 times, straight to voicemail. then i tried a 3rd or 4th time and she finally answers and says that i shouldn't be calling from my cell phone due to $$$. then disappears for about 35-45 minutes. supposedly her roommate ran over a pedestrian with a scooter and she's helping her out LOL!
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when she finally called back after an hour we talked for a bit and i asked her about my suspicions. to me her story sort of checked out. she said she was running to the post office to get there before they closed? although i'm sure that if she was running she would run with her phone in the pocket? heavy breathing = due to running, and rhythmic beat is the shoes? fine maybe the story does check out? i probably should have confronted her about this AFTER i checked her FB and email for any fishy shit (yes we share our passwords, but checking each others shit is more of a gray area for both of us).
fine. her story sounds believable i guess. here's where high tide hits. we've really been hitting it off the past 2 days. she's sending me pics of what she wants her engagement ring to look like, blah blah blah. booking a ticket for her interviews and to come see me in january. when we video chat, she's literally bouncing in her seat because she's so excited as we talk.
but here's where things get sort of weird again. warning sorta graphic:
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i forget how we got to the subject, but considering we always talk about sex, it makes sense... i finally learned that she started masturbating, she claims she started a month ago. she NEVER ever did this when we were together and certainly NEVER told me about it even though i encouraged her to try it out. i couldn't believe her so i asked her to show me via video chat. though she didn't exactly let me see the details, i believed her...and we cybered
and then... today supposedly she's going to a leehom wang concert. this concert is supposed to be in taipei arena which last time i checked google is in taipei.
see leehoms website and taipei arena website:
http://www.kham.com.tw/ad.asp?P1=0000008447
http://www.taipeiarena.com.tw/Web/W02/W02.aspx?PID=367
but she tells me she's going from kaohsiung to Taichung... not sure how you could mistake this? she knows the damn country pretty well because she's wannabe Taiwanese (she's from Hong Kong but always watches Taiwanese shows and what not). anyways, supposedly she took the high speed rail, so a 1.5 hour transit time is believable, but not sure how she made that mistake between taichung and taipei...
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i'm trying to check my gmail chat but for some reason can't find exactly what she said even though the conversation was only like an hour or two ago...she didn't delete it because i checked my gmail activity log and no logons from anywhere else...
i am indeed an idiot because she said she's going to taichung for a concert in taipei...i lose
if i put aside my idiotness for a second, its hard to see any of this shit as worrisome. i think maybe the fact that i'm conceding my dream goal for her might be, subconsciously, making me find excuses. i'm only giving up on my dream for the time being... i will apply MSTP again after i retake MCAT. would you agree that i'm just being unreasonably suspicious?
