We met at out previous job. She decided to move away from the city we lived in and I went with her. She got a job witht he Government, and I as a Network Engineer. She has a kid, 6 years old, who has lived with us for about 6 months. When we met she was still married and going through a divorce. She is 29, I am 26. I have no debt she has about 30k in debt from her marriage and her cunthole shitface ex husband.
Now when we first met we each had our own place, and she was still somewhat married. We confided and learned about each other blah blah blah..Stayed together, now she's divorced and we live together with her kid.
Now I knew she had a kid and it didn't really scare or bother me, but recently I've just felt ...different. 75% of my salary goes into bills and debt payments, a debt which is not my own, the rest goes into providing for this kid, which is also not my own. Don't get me wrong but I love them both, quite a bit, if I didn't then I feel like I would have left by now.
We also have a 1 bedroom apartment and he mom is now here to visit and I feel so fuckign crowded with 4 people in this apartment and it's starting to get to me.
I don't want to leave, because I'll feel bad for the kid and the girl, but like what do I do? I don't want to be stuck paying for this fucking debt for the next 10 years for nothing. It's not like I got anything from it. I feel like I have no freedom and like I'm stuck, I'm only 26, I shouldn't feel like this.