EPTMy mom dedicated this song to me when I was a child and forever young my mom will be in my heart.
I love you Mom, what I would do just to be with you again.
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I miss you; Two years since my Mom's passing.
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ShoCkeyy
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My mom dedicated this song to me when I was a child and forever young my mom will be in my heart. I love you Mom, what I would do just to be with you again. | ||
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obesechicken13
United States10467 Posts
I regret not going out with her more, I regret not spending more time with her. If it was sudden, you wouldn't have had much chance to. If it wasn't then you at least got an opportunity to spend some time with her. | ||
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ShoCkeyy
7815 Posts
On June 15 2011 06:17 obesechicken13 wrote: How'd she die? If it was sudden, you wouldn't have had much chance to. If it wasn't then you at least got an opportunity to spend some time with her. She had a heart problem and went in for a routine check up. No one thought anything of it, it was a small problem. Well during the check up, one of her valves exploded and they had to preform open heart surgery. She didn't make it past recovery. The thing is as well, I had gotten into a huge fight with my mom before she passed away. | ||
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te3l
Canada126 Posts
You say your life has been getting worse and worse, what's up? | ||
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ShoCkeyy
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Pandain
United States12989 Posts
But you have to remember: There's nothing you can do. Over the years my tears stopped flowing and, while I never forget him, I don't mourn him. I celebrate him, I rejoice in the fact that I was able to live in the presence of someone who was so "holy." I mean, I'm not celebrating his death(that would be weird), but I celebrate and cherish the memories we share. At one point or another you should realize that she never truly died, for her influence spreads itself with every passing moment. Her body may not be with us, but she certainly is. And never forget that your mom was never angry at you, or hated you, or even truly in a fight. Your mom loved you like only a mother can, and you must never forget that she loved you until the end. | ||
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Maliris
Northern Ireland2557 Posts
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ulszz
Jamaica1787 Posts
the sadness of the thread and subject reminds me of this song I was going through your old blogs and saw one about colorado university. u still go there? i'm in boulder now | ||
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te3l
Canada126 Posts
On June 15 2011 06:45 Pandain wrote: But you have to remember: There's nothing you can do. Over the years my tears stopped flowing and, while I never forget him, I don't mourn him. I celebrate him, I rejoice in the fact that I was able to live in the presence of someone who was so "holy." I mean, I'm not celebrating his death(that would be weird), but I celebrate and cherish the memories we share. At one point or another you should realize that she never truly died, for her influence spreads itself with every passing moment. Her body may not be with us, but she certainly is. And never forget that your mom was never angry at you, or hated you, or even truly in a fight. Your mom loved you like only a mother can, and you must never forget that she loved you until the end. This is so touching | ||
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Trezeguet
United States2656 Posts
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damahammer
Germany111 Posts
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Sauron
Romania169 Posts
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ShoCkeyy
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On June 15 2011 06:45 Pandain wrote: My Dad died when I was in third grade. I guess I'm actually luckier than you because I hardly knew him, even now he's a faint memory of a childhood long gone. But I'm sure at the time he was as physically present as day and night, for tears rolled out of my eyes when I heard of his passing. But you have to remember: There's nothing you can do. Over the years my tears stopped flowing and, while I never forget him, I don't mourn him. I celebrate him, I rejoice in the fact that I was able to live in the presence of someone who was so "holy." I mean, I'm not celebrating his death(that would be weird), but I celebrate and cherish the memories we share. At one point or another you should realize that she never truly died, for her influence spreads itself with every passing moment. Her body may not be with us, but she certainly is. And never forget that your mom was never angry at you, or hated you, or even truly in a fight. Your mom loved you like only a mother can, and you must never forget that she loved you until the end. Pandain my respect for you has mutliplied by x1000. I thank you for these comforting words at a moment like this. On June 15 2011 06:47 Maliris wrote: how old are you and how old was she went she died? I am about to turn 22, she passed away when she was 51; I was 19. On June 15 2011 07:12 Trezeguet wrote: Did your mom teach you to be such a generous person? Yes she did and learned by watching her. My mom was always generous and I still want to know exactly how your MLG went  And thank you everyone for your kind words, I love this community and I hope to keep serving it. | ||
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obesechicken13
United States10467 Posts
On June 15 2011 06:22 ShoCkeyy wrote: She had a heart problem and went in for a routine check up. No one thought anything of it, it was a small problem. Well during the check up, one of her valves exploded and they had to preform open heart surgery. She didn't make it past recovery. The thing is as well, I had gotten into a huge fight with my mom before she passed away. Maybe she just didn't want to pass away with you still wanting her, maybe she wanted to push you away with the fight because she thought it would make you not miss her as much. I think that's what I would do. | ||
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Maliris
Northern Ireland2557 Posts
 I am 19 too and I'm really close to my mother, I can't imagine life without her atm ;-; i was tearing up reading the OP. | ||
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AspenY
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MetalMarine
United States1559 Posts
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RaLakedaimon
United States1564 Posts
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BLinD-RawR
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VIB
Brazil3567 Posts
So when you're sad that she's gone. Try to remember that you're only sad because you had a wonderful mom that you got to spend all those times together. Remember how fortunate you were to have her in your life, in your education and in your memory. | ||
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Sava90
Denmark144 Posts
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2WeaK
Canada550 Posts
This thread just brought a tear to my eye. My mom passed away 4 years ago, from a cancer, supposedly hereditary but seems to be skipping a generation AFAIK. I'm 21, 17 when she passed away, she was however in .. I forget what they call it, basically she wasn't going to make it out, so I had a month to get used to it (I had a surgery of my own that went down the hole so I couldn't visit her much) but she died suddenly, she was constantly getting her stomach bloated (colon/intestin cancer) so I've always had this thought in my head that my dad/mom decided to end it early (I doubt I'll ever know). I personally coped with it by picking up something she enjoyed (I never thought I'd like the CSI/Murder Investigation genre) Though she was always happy, she was never scared of death so she was always positive about it. I've mourned her enough for me, but whenever I go to my gramps, it's really tough. Also, the generic "remember the good stuff" advice to me was really bad, did more harm than good for me as it would make me miss her even more. If anything I'd recommend just speaking out loud as if you were talking to her to get it out of you. PS: What I think helped me get through most of it was when my friends did your mama jokes (Ironically, most of them didn't know about my mother's situation so they didn't believe me) and it just took the sadness away from the situation because my mom was that kind of "lulzy" person, she would always tell me to make fun of bad situations instead of being sad about them. (I'm aware this isn't how most people deal with it though) | ||
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HomicidaL
United States283 Posts
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OneStepAbove
United States45 Posts
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a176
Canada6688 Posts
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Knap4life
Slovenia333 Posts
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downmaster
Canada116 Posts
R.I.P. | ||
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Grettin
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Rip! | ||
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Bereft
United States1007 Posts
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adwodon
United Kingdom592 Posts
All I can say is dont regret being a dick sometimes to your parents, I can tell you now that no wise parent exects their kids to be angels, if anything its reassuring, you're just trying to be your own person when that happens, and while its a pain to deal with at the time you never look back on those times as pointless or wishing your child were different. I put my parents through hell sometimes but now they look back and have told me that actually I wasnt so bad and the person I am today made it more than worthwhile. Kids are always a learning experience and you will have taught your mother a lot of great things about life, I guarantee it. Its a shame she couldnt find out more, but life is like that sometimes. It can be hard to move on but you should try to live as a normal teenager, be strong for you mother and live a good life, sometimes you need to let it all out and thats why having forums like this where you can are a great thing. My only worry for you is that you become insular, you sound really proud of your mother so I know she'd be proud of you and the best way to show that is to life a good, happy life, and remember the good times you spent with her, being sad is only natural but those times will pass and life will go on as normal eventually. | ||
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SmoKim
Denmark10305 Posts
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ShoCkeyy
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lIlIlIlIlIlI
Korea (South)3851 Posts
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Chesner
Iceland817 Posts
Did he not love me? Was I not worth living for? Those are questions I have asked myself hundreds of times. I came to the conclusion he was very ill, and nowadays I look past what he did and look at the great times we had. He lived in Germany and I used to go to him on the summers for a few weeks, those weeks were the best times of my life. He's the one that sparked my interest in computers and computer games, he was an avid Mac lover (I am not lol) and also he had a Sega and we'd play Sonic for hours to end. I'm not sure if we were that close, but I'd like to think that we were. Fuck, I miss him so much right now. He'd have loved to play 2v2's with me in SC2 for sure, I just know it. Anyways, I'm terribly sorry for your loss, I can't quite relate to your loss though, but in a way I can and my advise to you is, just think about all the good times you two had, don't think about the bad stuff, you had an argument? So what, that could have happened at any time of the week. She loved you more than anything, just think about that. | ||
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