Fear #1: Heights
I get extremely nervous and uncomfortable when I am near a tall ledge. It has to be at least 3 stories high and it doesn't make a difference if there is some sort of railing even if it's 4 feet high. I'm not bothered if I am on a roller coaster or standing on one of those glass floors in a tall building. If there is something that I trust will keep me safe I'm okay.
I get paranoid that someone will sneak up behind me and grab my legs to flip me over the ledge. Or if the ledge has no railing (like a cliff on a mountain) I am afraid to get too close to the edge because I'm worried someone will push me off.
I don't know how to get over this. I have been in these situations plenty of times so just being exposed to it doesn't seem to help at all. I was considering bungee jumping or skydiving or something like that. That's the only thing I can think of that might help.
Fear #2: The idea of not existing in any way whatsoever after I die
My best way to deal with this one is to just not think about it. That's all I got.
Fear #3: Clowns
I think I watched too many horror movies as a young kid. I was dumb enough to watch things that scared the shit out of me and gave me nightmares for years. Killer Klowns From Outer Space was pretty bad but Stephen King's It really sealed the deal for me.
Now whenever I see a clown I just can't help but think how creepy they are. How is a clown supposed to make a kid happy? I think if I were ever approached by a scary looking clown (all of them) and I was by myself it would initiate my fight or flight response. Neither option is really anything to brag about. I don't know what would be worse - fighting a clown because he scared me or running away from one because he scared me. At least running would not get anyone hurt. Unless I ran into more clowns and went into a frenzy.
I was thinking about watching some scary clown movies, maybe going to a carnival or something and hanging out with some clowns. Maybe if I can see how not scary the movies are and see that clowns are just people dressed up it might help. It sounds logical but I know those movies are dumb and I know that clowns are normalish people so I'm not sure if that would actually help.
If anyone has any ideas for me let me know.
If anyone has any fears that were conquered or want to conquerer feel free to share that as well.