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Right... I saw a few people pouring their heart, anger and soul into these blogs and although I'm no wizard in the articulation department, I felt this surge of expression coming out, but I have nowhere else to vomit, so I'll do it here!
If you're unsure of what this blog is about, it's just generally food for thought [of my day] so 1. ease back and get out your utensils, 2. don't fill up on bread and 3. tip your waiter with your own thoughts or sentiments.
Thanks
Winter Parmesan and Myself, Tortellini
Friend Chicken and Gluttony
A rather short entry today, I promise.
Today was no different than my days I typically spend. I huddled in my room until around 12 today. I usually sleep longer, but the barrage of laughter, socialization and the need to show one's self in a positive, joyous light awoke me. My sister's friends, turns out, stayed for the night and now were being disruptive for those who sleep (it was noon, so to be fair, I should be awake anyways).
I clenched the door's knob and dashed out, revealing a face that did not get the revitalizing sleep it wanted (I went to bed late). Looted the cupboards for remnants of food to compose a lop-sided breakfast (more liquids than solids) and dashed back into my room. My sister, continually trying to show that she's a chatty and good sibling, muttered something about a friend of her's being in one of my classes. The idea irked me and I ignored her without even taking a gander. I don't know if this is a common trait in everyone's family, but the women in my family seem to have a knack for spotlighting themselves in two different lights. When alone, they jerk around the radical-feminist ideas that men think of their dicks and are incapable of completing the most mundane tasks without proper instructions from their spouses/friends/partners or relatives. They'll be rude, snide, snarky, sarcastic and blunt when alone with you, but as soon as the phone rings or friends come over, they resume this interaction with you on an entirely "normal" and acceptable level. This includes my mother, by the way, who has since toned down these charades dramatically over the years. As for the men in my family, we just shut up and eat and let them perpetuate poorly-conceived notions about men, hoping they'll transform in long-nosed pimply witches as Aesop would most likely end the story with. To go off on a tangent, I noticed that some women, when surrounded by men, often pitched their tones or voices in a much more adorable fashion. Twisting their last syllables to be more of a flair of joy or excitement, maybe even exaggerating their gestures, hand movements or overall reactions to either poor jokes, playful teasing or just downright flirting. Perhaps I'm too focused on these things and emphasizing situations that are potentially normal, but over the years, I've come to notice these things during social occasions, not just through my family, but through the rare social gatherings I come across or, if I'm lucky, get invited to.
Nonetheless, I scurried back to my room, played my games and the hours ticked away. I ordered some fried chicken from St-Hubert. I tend to eat out a lot when A. I can't be bothered grocery shopping or B. I run out of food in my fridge, usually both occur at the same time and I rack up a pretty high bill with all my eating out. As most people are, I'm unhappy about my body, I weigh about 134 or so, but none of it is muscle and none of it is something I'm proud of. People tend to view obesity as being physically large or overweight, but in reality, the idea of being out of shape has no shape, just a poor stereotyped association. I'm talking a bit out of my ass here, but I've always preferred people who liked food and were overweight over those who were lean, attractive, but were picky about what they ate. If you focus too much on what you're eating, you won't be able to enjoy the feeling of eating. That's right, the primitive nature and essentials of eating is something we should and can enjoy. I generally enjoy it, despite my teeth rotting to the core and my degenerating health. On a side-note, ever notice that Asian people tend to open their mouths just enough to fit the size of the food they're putting inside? When I see Westerners eat, they open their mouth and then the food is passed in. For the Eastern folks, the size of the food is pinched between the chopsticks (or forks) and then the mouth opens. Maybe it's just the utensils or maybe I'm making this shit up, who knows...
That sauce has got to be the tastiest shit in the world. I'd eat my own fingers in that sauce if I could. But for some reason, if you let it sit out for awhile, it becomes a bit more... solid. Like sludge, can anyone explain this
Lately I've just not been enjoying video-games whatsoever. This has been on and off for years and throughout that time, I thought it was due to my consoles/PCs not being powerful enough to enjoy what's new and fresh out there. But now that I have all the games I could want and a computer that far surpasses my expectations and standards, I still find myself troubled and bored. Tired of the same dull tasks, same three-ring circus that the games obligate you to do to complete a story that hardly stretches the imagination or the competitive multiplayer that hardly breaches any levels of cooperation, strategy or overall fun. I tried Crysis today and it was fun, amusing, really entertaining. Then after a few minutes, it felt repetitive, dull and overdone. Shoot, hide, cloak, right-click, shoot. Repeat if necessary. Reminded me of Mass Effect 2's gameplay: shoot, duck, spell or form of biotic attack, shoot, duck, reload, repeat. Story was superb, but the gameplay felt like a drag to me. Yes, I installed Crysis for the graphics, yes, I was thoroughly impressed by the graphics. But why? Why are we so bent on making games appear and feel so realistic? In a sense, it isn't realistic, because the characters, scenarios, weapons/tools and enemies/story are things we'll never encounter in our life, so then why make the graphics something we can relate to? I played Crysis and thoroughly loved the lighting, shadows, physics, but soon realized: "Wait a second... all this shit happens in real life too. The trees shake when I punch them and I can pop the tires off of cars if I wanted to too". It was something that bothered for a bit and I decided to just turn off the game and relax, [...]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QdPrB_lcpBc
[...] maybe do some studying, but then again, for what purpose? To pass the class and show my proficiency in an area I was already aware of, but somehow had to prove the authorities that my intellect was sufficient enough to comprehend, adapt and assume the knowledge accurately tested on standardized exams? No thanks.
So I end the day with the feeling of guilt (for eating more junk food and wasting potentially good money), laziness and wonders for tomorrow. I'm thinking of volunteering again, putting myself out there in a more social place. I did it before back in CEGEP to feel more accomplished, contributory to society and to be surrounded by those who appreciate any and all help you could get. I got so many compliments there about how sweet and cute I was (n________n)! The volunteers and workers were all nice to me and it felt really good. The food isn't bad either (I never ate it, I was never comfortable eating food the elderly ate mainly because I felt it was for them, never for the volunteers), but I always was comfortable walking around with them and hearing them gloat about how good they look for their age (Jack was like 94 and looked like a king of the 80-year olds). It was also amusing seeing them try and banter if I was Jewish or not (long-story). I might go back, I don't know. I told them I'd come back after the summer 2 years ago, I never did. I still have this shame about lying to them...
Hell, while I'm wishing. I want to read to people who are in a coma. Can you imagine? You get to read a book you truly love, narrate it with as much enthusiasm, joy and excitement as you want and the person you are reading to isn't even awake to judge you, to laugh or opinionate? "Wow, low self-esteem much?" Yeah, perhaps, but there's something poetically sound about reading to someone who can hear, but will never listen or rather can't listen and one's inability to listen is a nice change to those who just don't or won't listen to you.
Maybe I'll just go back to Reuben's and try their apple cobbler and a coke. I miss that place and I miss the small, small interaction I had at school.
I also need a haircut.
As for a song, how about Sinatra's: "It was a very good year"?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2BNEZyyueqw&feature=channel
No, this isn't Sintra singing, this is an acquaintance of mine: Sergio Vellati
I'm always mixed about Sinatra, a lot of people go to him when they think of jazz, doing his classics like "Fly me to the Moon", a song that's been so overdone (atrociously overdone, just like "Imagine" by John Lennon), when he has so many other songs, so many songs of swing. What about swing? Stop ignoring swing damnit!
Right, as I said, short entry, though I meant short in relation to my previous entries.
You know what, fuck you. Let's throw another classic. A woman this time!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8WP1p3mUKDw
This song is just pure bliss. Definitely not for everyone, just like alcohol, wine and certain foods, but I suppose that's why I like it. I love tooting a tune and someone obnoxiously chimes in, incapable of restraining them, perhaps equally as thankful as I am that they've found someone who likes and knows the same music as they do.
Anyways, yeah. Just makes my head rock, my eyes curl with exhaustion, relief and subtle joy. Ah...
 
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Yeah man St Huberts! Good stuff man!
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On January 31 2011 16:04 peidongyang wrote:
Yeah man St Huberts! Good stuff man!
TELL ME WHAT'S IN THEIR SAUCE! I MUST KNOWWWWWWWWW!
Their club sandwich is beast!
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Yeah I have no clue what`s in their sauce I just pour it over the chicken and eat so fast people around me get scared.
Awww cegep.... one reason I`m not in Quebec I guess. Well McGill is very reputable so you can always go there. Would be more funner than taking a 4-year torture program at UofToronto...
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On January 31 2011 16:08 peidongyang wrote:
Yeah I have no clue what`s in their sauce I just pour it over the chicken and eat so fast people around me get scared.
Awww cegep.... one reason I`m not in Quebec I guess. Well McGill is very reputable so you can always go there. Would be more funner than taking a 4-year torture program at UofToronto...
It's all about Concordia dude.
Sure as hell beats Bishop!
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wow, good read! you should write more often! I think you'd make a good writer.
since you're bored and don't feel motivated towards school, maybe you should delve into that a bit.
At least until you feel like going back, ya know?
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I sure could go for some fried chicken right about now. Too bad nothing around here delivers and nothing except the 7-11 is open this late. :C
I've realized that it's more important to me to have delicious food and enjoy eating than it is to have sex with attractive people.
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On January 31 2011 16:28 Roe wrote:
wow, good read! you should write more often! I think you'd make a good writer.
since you're bored and don't feel motivated towards school, maybe you should delve into that a bit.
At least until you feel like going back, ya know?
Aw, thank you. The CEGEP I graduated from has actually published my works several times before. :3
Very much appreciated I absolutely adore comments like these! I have written two more entries previously if you fancy a read!
Yeah, you are right. Tomorrow I have two hour gaps between my responsibilities. I am thinking of seeing a counselor, though my history with therapists, psychologists and counselors has been very, very shaky.
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You're probably just all wacked up because you lost too many ZvWhateverItIsThisWeek's. You really should switch to Terran, I think your playstyle suits it a lot better than any other race.
Also, St-Hubert is yummy.
Also, you have issues with your sis.
Also, lemme know if you ever want to hit the gym. I would go...but never alone.
Also, good luck getting the Korean puke off the floor.
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On January 31 2011 16:32 Ghin wrote:
I sure could go for some fried chicken right about now. Too bad nothing around here delivers and nothing except the 7-11 is open this late. :C
I've realized that it's more important to me to have delicious food and enjoy eating than it is to have sex with attractive people.
A-Fucking-Men, let's be bros and go get some fucking damn good food!
I think you'd love Reuben's to be honest mate!
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On January 31 2011 16:33 Torte de Lini wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2011 16:28 Roe wrote:
wow, good read! you should write more often! I think you'd make a good writer.
since you're bored and don't feel motivated towards school, maybe you should delve into that a bit.
At least until you feel like going back, ya know? Aw, thank you. My CEGEP has actually published my works several times before. :3 Very much appreciated I absolutely adore comments like these! I have written two more entries previously if you fancy a read! Yeah, you are right. Tomorrow I have two hour gaps between my responsibilities. I am thinking of seeing a counselor, though my history with therapists, psychologists and counselors has been very, very shaky.
Also, Starcraft is the only counselor you need.
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On January 31 2011 16:34 Torte de Lini wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2011 16:32 Ghin wrote:
I sure could go for some fried chicken right about now. Too bad nothing around here delivers and nothing except the 7-11 is open this late. :C
I've realized that it's more important to me to have delicious food and enjoy eating than it is to have sex with attractive people. A-Fucking-Men, let's be bros and go get some fucking damn good food! I think you'd love Reuben's to be honest mate!
Also, which Reuben's are you talking about? The underground mafia front or the overpriced snob joint?
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On January 31 2011 16:33 Slivered Skin wrote:
You're probably just all wacked up because you lost too many ZvWhateverItIsThisWeek's. You really should switch to Terran, I think your playstyle suits it a lot better than any other race.
Also, St-Hubert is yummy.
Also, you have issues with your sis.
Also, lemme know if you ever want to hit the gym. I would go...but never alone.
Also, good luck getting the Korean puke off the floor.
ZvP, always ZvP. I don't know how Travis can bitch about Zerg, when it is Protoss that's fucking impossible. 4-Gates are ridiculous.
I have two sisters and a brother and I have an issue of how the family functions [see previous entries].
I would go to a gym, but 1. I have a small one here in the building.
2. I don't like to sweat.
3. I'd probably just do cardio because I love running fruitlessly and
4. What if I see a pretty lady and my shorts become too tight ):
haha thanks!
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On January 31 2011 16:35 Slivered Skin wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2011 16:34 Torte de Lini wrote:On January 31 2011 16:32 Ghin wrote:
I sure could go for some fried chicken right about now. Too bad nothing around here delivers and nothing except the 7-11 is open this late. :C
I've realized that it's more important to me to have delicious food and enjoy eating than it is to have sex with attractive people. A-Fucking-Men, let's be bros and go get some fucking damn good food! I think you'd love Reuben's to be honest mate! Also, which Reuben's are you talking about? The underground mafia front or the overpriced snob joint?
Overpriced Snob Joint ):
I resent that remark, the bartender is super-duper nice (see previous entries).
Overpriced, yeah, perhaps. I despise paying 19.99 for a Del Monico sandwich, but to be honest... it's pure gold.
Nice angus steak, sauteed mushrooms, battered onion frills, on a sourdough and yellow-toasted bread and oozing with a monterey jack cheese and sauce.
OH GOD @____@
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On January 31 2011 16:36 Torte de Lini wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2011 16:33 Slivered Skin wrote:
You're probably just all wacked up because you lost too many ZvWhateverItIsThisWeek's. You really should switch to Terran, I think your playstyle suits it a lot better than any other race.
Also, St-Hubert is yummy.
Also, you have issues with your sis.
Also, lemme know if you ever want to hit the gym. I would go...but never alone.
Also, good luck getting the Korean puke off the floor.
ZvP, always ZvP. I don't know how Travis can bitch about Zerg, when it is Protoss that's fucking impossible. 4-Gates are ridiculous. I have two sisters and a brother and I have an issue of how the family functions [see previous entries]. I would go to a gym, but 1. I have a small one here in the building. 2. I don't like to sweat. 3. I'd probably just do cardio because I love running fruitlessly and 4. What if I see a pretty lady and my shorts become too tight ): haha thanks!
Hmm. I take it you've practiced 4-gates against Nirano? He's pretty good at them. It really helped me to play a few games against him.
1. Go to the gym then!!
2. That's...tough.
3. Cardio is fine.
4. You and your pretty ladies. Shame on you.
EDIT: Also, I forgot to put an "also" somewhere.
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On January 31 2011 16:38 Torte de Lini wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2011 16:35 Slivered Skin wrote:On January 31 2011 16:34 Torte de Lini wrote:On January 31 2011 16:32 Ghin wrote:
I sure could go for some fried chicken right about now. Too bad nothing around here delivers and nothing except the 7-11 is open this late. :C
I've realized that it's more important to me to have delicious food and enjoy eating than it is to have sex with attractive people. A-Fucking-Men, let's be bros and go get some fucking damn good food! I think you'd love Reuben's to be honest mate! Also, which Reuben's are you talking about? The underground mafia front or the overpriced snob joint? Overpriced Snob Joint ): I resent that remark, the bartender is super-duper nice (see previous entries). Overpriced, yeah, perhaps. I despise paying 19.99 for a Del Monico sandwich, but to be honest... it's pure gold. Nice angus steak, sauteed mushrooms, battered onion frills, on a sourdough and yellow-toasted bread and oozing with a monterey jack cheese and sauce. OH GOD @____@
Wait wait wait. Is this that bartender lady who thought you were super old or something? lol.
You can tell me what happened in your other blogs during our next meeting. Wednesday?
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On January 31 2011 16:39 Slivered Skin wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2011 16:36 Torte de Lini wrote:On January 31 2011 16:33 Slivered Skin wrote:
You're probably just all wacked up because you lost too many ZvWhateverItIsThisWeek's. You really should switch to Terran, I think your playstyle suits it a lot better than any other race.
Also, St-Hubert is yummy.
Also, you have issues with your sis.
Also, lemme know if you ever want to hit the gym. I would go...but never alone.
Also, good luck getting the Korean puke off the floor.
ZvP, always ZvP. I don't know how Travis can bitch about Zerg, when it is Protoss that's fucking impossible. 4-Gates are ridiculous. I have two sisters and a brother and I have an issue of how the family functions [see previous entries]. I would go to a gym, but 1. I have a small one here in the building. 2. I don't like to sweat. 3. I'd probably just do cardio because I love running fruitlessly and 4. What if I see a pretty lady and my shorts become too tight ): haha thanks! Hmm. I take it you've practiced 4-gates against Nirano? He's pretty good at them. It really helped me to play a few games against him. 1. Go to the gym then!! 2. That's...tough. 3. Cardio is fine. 4. You and your pretty ladies. Shame on you. EDIT: Also, I forgot to put an "also" somewhere.
Nah, not anymore. I usually hold off his 4-gates. I beat his 4-gates once with banelings... remember?
1. It's small, white and uncomfortably boring.
2. no u
3. Yeah, it is. But if I want to run, I can just go fucking outside lolol
4. Should have seen me during my hormonal years at my first public high-school, we had a swimming pool and obligatory swim classes.
Sigh, no matter how baggy my swim trunks were, it never hid Waldo very much ):
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On January 31 2011 16:42 Slivered Skin wrote:Show nested quote +On January 31 2011 16:38 Torte de Lini wrote:On January 31 2011 16:35 Slivered Skin wrote:On January 31 2011 16:34 Torte de Lini wrote:On January 31 2011 16:32 Ghin wrote:
I sure could go for some fried chicken right about now. Too bad nothing around here delivers and nothing except the 7-11 is open this late. :C
I've realized that it's more important to me to have delicious food and enjoy eating than it is to have sex with attractive people. A-Fucking-Men, let's be bros and go get some fucking damn good food! I think you'd love Reuben's to be honest mate! Also, which Reuben's are you talking about? The underground mafia front or the overpriced snob joint? Overpriced Snob Joint ): I resent that remark, the bartender is super-duper nice (see previous entries). Overpriced, yeah, perhaps. I despise paying 19.99 for a Del Monico sandwich, but to be honest... it's pure gold. Nice angus steak, sauteed mushrooms, battered onion frills, on a sourdough and yellow-toasted bread and oozing with a monterey jack cheese and sauce. OH GOD @____@ Wait wait wait. Is this that bartender lady who thought you were super old or something? lol. You can tell me what happened in your other blogs during our next meeting. Wednesday?
She thought I was 27, but I hadn't shaved in awhile, so it's understandable... I think (I was a bit more calm and reserved too).
Uh... yeah, no. I probably won't. Be discreet too please, these aren't think I'm blathering to every neighbor and their dog :3, but getting a third outside opinion has yet to do any harm.
Read them if you want, otherwise don't trouble yourself since it doesn't really change or affect much (just gives you a tip of insightful information about me, how I see and know things, etc.).
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