EPTIts been a long time and I felt like an update would be nice, even if just to see for myself where I am and where Im going.
Since then Ive gotten a new girlfriend. We've been together 10 months, almost 11. We're doing alright.
I still battle with depression big time. It keeps me from getting motivated and sticking to things. I also have Lyme disease and got anxiety from it, and its gotten a lot worse now to the point where I cant go most places with taking anxiety medicine before I go. It makes doing things a hassle and can be aggravating for friends and my girlfriend, but Im working on the anxiety part little by little.
Ive recently been put on a new depression medicine. Now Im taking Cymbalta, Celexa, and Deplin for my depression (the Celexa is new, she doesnt want to take me off Cymbalta just in case Celexa doesnt help) and Klonopin for my anxiety.
I was looking for ways to get motivated and I stumbled upon that XPIRL thing. Real life experience. It kept me motivated a lot longer than the thread lasted. It made sure I did mundane simple tasks like brushing my teeth and stuff that I didnt always do when I was depressed and unmotivated. Thanks to whoever came up with that
I stopped doing that when it got boring and my reward system didnt really help me keep motivated to keep doing the XPIRL.
Ive been trying to exercise more. I rarely go to the gym but I have a membership. Id rather jog outside than on a treadmill and I dont do much weight lifting. Im 5'9" and weight 170ish. I consider myself average weight. I dont necessarily want to lose weight, but I want to stay active because it helps with depression, self esteem, and will make me look better (probably? lol).
Ive been jogging every other day now and Ive done really long 2.5 hour skateboard sessions after work once a week for two weeks (hopefully will keep that up) to stay active. The route I take around my neighborhood is .9 miles. Yeah I should just go around another block to make it a mile, but baby steps here.
That brings me to a question I have as well. I get criticized by some people for having "tits" or "boobs" even though Im average weight. They aren't big but I feel like they are bigger than they should be for a dude lol. When I was jogging shirtless today, for example, some guy yelled 'nice tits' to me as he drove by in his car. I know people say stupid shit and driving by and yelling stuff is fun for everyone, but I still want to find a way to fix that. Would lifting weights or doing pushups help get my "tits" to turn into pecs? Im not looking to get ripped. I just want to look toned or whatever.
Anyone have any suggestions as to what exercise(s) they do that would help that area? And how about the abs? I dont want a 6 pack (Id look ridiculous with a 6 pack), just a toned stomach.
As of right now things seem to be going forward well. The new medicine and the exercising will hopefully continue and lead to other things as well.
As for the girlfriend situation, only time will tell.
