So I started thinking of a billion diseases that were wrong with me, I started diagnosing myself with another disease everyday. Could NOT sleep, I wake up 8 times or so every day feeling utter confusing and just cant handling myself anymore. I had thoughts of going back but they just seemed wrong. It got worst, started getting a fever, more strees because of 2 exams I didnt study much for because of 0 focus, and just fatigue. Low appetite, only ate vegtables and fruits for 3 days. Although I started feeling better, my mind would constantly play tricks on me to the point I thought I am going to die. Yeah, I would call my parents 2-3 times a day just to calm myself down, and thank god they are 100% supportive.
Then Just yesterday it hit me, I am going to kill myself if I stay like this any longer, so I decided to drop out of UWO and go study back home. Education back home maybe a bit lower, but my health and sanity is important to me more than a mere degree. I hence realized that If a person want to accomplish something then he can do it wherever the fuck he pleases. I have a goal, and I can reach it wheter its canada or Bahrain or wherever. But ever since I booked my flight and calmed myself down, I have been feeling alot better.
Decisions like there are really damn big, but I am 100% confident that I did the right thing. I dont have any regrets. I came to a great country (except the weather T.T), met great people, and got the experience I needed. Thank you Canada for all the time I spent on you, but dudes
.. I am going home..