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I've been doing quite a bit of drinking for the past couple of months now, usually 3-4 times a week with friends and also when I go clubbing.
Naturally, my alcohol tolerance skyrocketed. I used to get hammered off of 2-3 beers, but now I can down 7-8 beers or 6-7 straight shots and still keep a cool head.
Lately, for the past month or so, not only have I been drinking more and more socially with friends, but I also started drinking by myself especially after dinner. I always keep some beers or low % vodka in my fridge, and I feel the urge to drink almost daily.
After realizing this, I was alarmed that I was fast becoming an alcoholic, so I gave away all my booze to a friend and tried to stay sober for the past 3-4 days. So far so good, but I get irritated easily, have trouble sleeping, and constantly feel anxious without some alcohol in my system. Just now I lost to BBS cheese when I 12 nexus'ed, and I smashed my keyboard on the desk as opposed to just typing GG and asking for a re like I normally do.
Good thing I was still in the early stages of alcoholism, so another week or two should dry me up for good.
From someone who thought the taste of any alcoholic drink was absolutely revolting to a recovering alcoholic, allow me to say, Drinkin's bad m'kay.
 
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United States22883 Posts
I don't know you but this blog makes me happy. I'm really glad you caught it and avoided it.
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lol wut i'm solo drinkin right now... hmmm
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An ounce of prevention, as they say. Keep it up.
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I solo drink daily for the most part. Today an exception as I worked midnights and woke up as all the liqour/beer stores were closing but I took morphine to get exist sobreity a little bit. Urges are always there and I fell into this kinda habbit of being fucked up on something (whatever I'm hooked on changes after awhiles use of the same thing) when I was like 19 and I'll be 23 next month.
I feel like I'm at the end of a long tunnel wanting to get better, !_! it just feels shitty after so long. I feel like I will rid myself of this shit soon though and that my mentality towards quitting is getting stronger and more resolved.
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heavy workout routine > any addiction
one should at least be able to keep from absuing whatever it is until the 2nd half of the day lolz.
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hammerred off 2-3 beers?
k now it looks like your normal -_-
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On January 04 2010 09:33 travis wrote:
heavy workout routine > any addiction
one should at least be able to keep from absuing whatever it is until the 2nd half of the day lolz.
My friend has repeatedly stated the only reason he runs so much and works out hard is so he can continue to abuse drugs and alcohol like crazy. But I do agree with you.
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United States12607 Posts
Good job for cutting yourself off, but I think if you are going to kick this habit permanently (or avoid simply getting addicted to something else) you will need some support, like a sponsor or even just a group meeting once in a while. Consider it, if you start having trouble again. Good luck!
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How old are you? When I was younger I drank a lot everyweek, but I grew out of it and now I may have a beer or two after work, but I don't just drink to get drunk like kids do.
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it's a lot worse when you start getting drunk off 3 beers again
means your liver has gotten really fucked up
i stopped drinking right after new years since thats what started to happen
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My advice, if you really are a alcoholic, you are always a recovering alcoholic, you really need to knuckle down on weakness.
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dont drink to get drunk stupid.
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On January 04 2010 11:22 DeathSpank wrote:
dont drink to get drunk stupid.
yeah drink to get hydrated!
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Remember, alcoholism is not like any other disease where you can stop, rest, and recover for a few weeks and then you can go back to drinking. If you are an alcoholic, you an alcoholic for life. There's no amount of time that can cure it. I've known too many people who have stopped drinking for 10, 15, or even 25 years and one relapse sent them back down to rock bottom.
I don't know if you an alcoholic or not but if you decide to drink again and find yourself back in the same situation you were a few days ago, it might be a good idea to seek help.
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On January 04 2010 11:22 DeathSpank wrote:
dont drink to get drunk stupid.
Why bother paying extra for alcohol in the first place if you drink because of taste?
GL OP. All I can say is after a few months you'll feel like you've conquered it, and someone will maybe offer you a drink or it'll be just some gift sitting on your table. Don't touch that drink. For people who get into the habit of drinking daily, it's all or nothing and you'll be back to drinking daily if you drink at all. I think I blame Canada's excessive drinking culture for that. It's hard to turn down drinks if you don't turn them down every time.
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On January 04 2010 11:43 Chef wrote:Why bother paying extra for alcohol in the first place if you drink because of taste?
social lubricant you don't have to be drunk to have a good time all you need is a buzz.
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if i were you i wouldn't listen to all these nannies. drink when you go out with friends if its that occasion. just don't drink all the time by yoself
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On January 04 2010 12:13 ulszz wrote:
if i were you i wouldn't listen to all these nannies. drink when you go out with friends if its that occasion. just don't drink all the time by yoself
Seconded..
Drinking by yourself is a waste of money. Alcohols a social drug, so use it socially. Drink when with friends and if getting way too drunk is an issue then just only take a certain amount of cash out with you. I usually just take enough for 8 or 10 pints plus a taxi home. Works out for me. Also consider just doing shouts. That way you only drink as much as your mates.
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i dont know if i believe this whole "once an alcoholic, always an an alcoholic".
Alcoholism runs in my family, and they certainly haven't been able to practice consistent control over their drinking, but i've found myself with a little more tenacity and a lot more success.
I don't know what technically defines you as an alcoholic, but my 'homespun' definition is: when you drink to a point where you are unable to control how much more you drink. This was definitely the case for me about 2 years ago. When i would start drinking i wouldn't stop until passing out. I was blacking out for 1-2 hours a night, 3 nights a week.
I had a few nasty experiences that woke me the fuck up. I came home one time covered in bruises, clothes torn, and a fair bit of blood on me, and didn't remember a single thing from the night before; 'had a few run-ins with other drugs while drunk; etc.
In anycase, i drink nearly as often as i did 2 years ago, but now i retain control almost always. Once i start to feel 'drunk' i switch to singles (instead of doubles) if i begin to feel more drunk i completely switch to water. I think i've had like 1 blackout in last 9 months or so? I mean, i drink almost every day of the week. Usually stick to vodka w/ soda to try to be a bit healthier? haha
Perhaps now that i have control over my mental state while drunk i should start considering my liver. lol
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On January 04 2010 17:36 Mora wrote:
i dont know if i believe this whole "once an alcoholic, always an an alcoholic".
Alcoholism runs in my family, and they certainly haven't been able to practice consistent control over their drinking, but i've found myself with a little more tenacity and a lot more success.
I don't know what technically defines you as an alcoholic, but my 'homespun' definition is: when you drink to a point where you are unable to control how much more you drink. This was definitely the case for me about 2 years ago. When i would start drinking i wouldn't stop until passing out. I was blacking out for 1-2 hours a night, 3 nights a week.
I had a few nasty experiences that woke me the fuck up. I came home one time covered in bruises, clothes torn, and a fair bit of blood on me, and didn't remember a single thing from the night before; 'had a few run-ins with other drugs while drunk; etc.
In anycase, i drink nearly as often as i did 2 years ago, but now i retain control almost always. Once i start to feel 'drunk' i switch to singles (instead of doubles) if i begin to feel more drunk i completely switch to water. I think i've had like 1 blackout in last 9 months or so? I mean, i drink almost every day of the week. Usually stick to vodka w/ soda to try to be a bit healthier? haha
Perhaps now that i have control over my mental state while drunk i should start considering my liver. lol
Though I am not an alcoholic myself, I have quite a few people who are very close to me that are in the AA program and I, myself, have become quite involved in the program myself and even wrote an article regarding AA for a college class where my article was selected out of about 150 articles to represent our school in a State competition. I ended up transferring after the semester was over so I have no idea what became of that but I'm guessing it didn't go any further. The reason I'm telling you this is because I don't want you to think I'm talking out of my ass.
While it is possible for some people who are mildly dependent on alcohol to exercise self-control and keep their drinking under control, the majority of alcoholics are completely unable to exercise self-control in self-moderation and are better left if they abstain from alcohol altogether.
Though it may sound cheesy and cliche-like, but one drop of alcohol really does have the potential to completely undo everything you've done towards your sobriety in an instant. You say that you saw yourself falling into trouble from you 3 blackouts per week binge and you were able to recognize that as a problem and adjust/moderate it so that you would no longer have that problem. That's good, I'm happy to hear that from you. But most of the alcoholics and addicts that I know don't recognize that problem. Come to think of it, after being involved in the program for almost 5 years now, I have never personally known or heard of somebody relapsing and everything turning all right for them. The truth of the matter is that the vast majority of those people who relapse and go back into the habit of using/abusing will generally end up on the street, in prison, or dead, All of which I have unfortunately had the experience of having people close to me end up in each of those situations.
Alcoholics and addicts distort and blur reality to live in a world where they find their drug of choice to be more important than air. The first step of the program pretty much says it all. They really are completely powerless to their addiction.
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On January 04 2010 17:36 Mora wrote:
i dont know if i believe this whole "once an alcoholic, always an an alcoholic".
Alcoholism runs in my family, and they certainly haven't been able to practice consistent control over their drinking, but i've found myself with a little more tenacity and a lot more success.
I don't know what technically defines you as an alcoholic, but my 'homespun' definition is: when you drink to a point where you are unable to control how much more you drink. This was definitely the case for me about 2 years ago. When i would start drinking i wouldn't stop until passing out. I was blacking out for 1-2 hours a night, 3 nights a week.
I had a few nasty experiences that woke me the fuck up. I came home one time covered in bruises, clothes torn, and a fair bit of blood on me, and didn't remember a single thing from the night before; 'had a few run-ins with other drugs while drunk; etc.
In anycase, i drink nearly as often as i did 2 years ago, but now i retain control almost always. Once i start to feel 'drunk' i switch to singles (instead of doubles) if i begin to feel more drunk i completely switch to water. I think i've had like 1 blackout in last 9 months or so? I mean, i drink almost every day of the week. Usually stick to vodka w/ soda to try to be a bit healthier? haha
Perhaps now that i have control over my mental state while drunk i should start considering my liver. lol
wow, good for you for putting in the effort to stop, in comparison I'm tons better in terms of my degree of alcoholism. I think you're right though, I have absolutely no intention of quitting forever, I'm simply waiting for my physical reliance on alcohol to die down, after which I'll still drink socially less often (1-2 times a week) only in the company of others.
But yes, your poor liver. DO do something about it. Good luck:D
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Korea (South)17174 Posts
i drink wayyyyyyy higher quantity of alcohol than ur avg alcoholic but i never drink at home alone nor do i get the urge to drink unless its a social situation and i can go weeks without drinking without caring
wussup w/ that
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Social drinkers like social smokers.
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Sometimes I get the urge to drink while I'm alone, but that's only because I despise my own existence.
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I need beers to sleep and feel relaxed.
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