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ChunderBoy
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On March 09 2015 18:34 ahswtini wrote: apparently it involves feminism and shakespeare social justice technologist, autonomy activist, gender anarchist, prickly cyborg, neurodiverse free spirit, and vagabonding technomad | ||
ahswtini
Northern Ireland22213 Posts
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Nevuk
United States16280 Posts
On March 09 2015 18:12 SpiritoftheTunA wrote: no i called for an exterminator also taht story makes me more curious about the details of your mental illnesses than anything It would make my story make a lot more sense but also make it considerably less interesting. My literal official diagnosis are Major Depressive Disorder and Anxiety, (unspecified). There's a third component that several psychologists (somewhere around 9 or 10 at this point?) have tried to figure out but... none of them have had success. It was the anxiety that caused all of that story. Really not very interesting. The reality is some combination of anxiety disorders that's heavier on the social anxiety part, both of the illnesses were nowhere near as bad when that meeting occurred, the depression wasn't even noticeable. I basically had moderate anxiety of social and general varieties and would occasionally have... they aren't panic attacks, too extreme a term, implies hyperventilating and shit. Anxiety attack is the easiest way I can term it. But my mind races, my blood pressure skyrockets and I feel like I've lost control of my actions about 50% of the time it occurs(that loss of control is the third component that psychologists can't figure out). This was one of those times, probably the worst before everything got overall worse a few years later (normally it would only occur in the cafeteria or other crowded areas)- basically my mind started racing and spitting out every thought without the totality of what connected the thoughts together whatsoever. Most people in a really awkward situation are too nervous to say anything. I babble in those situations. Even in groups of like a hundred I can babble. It was an awkward situation. I was a sophomore (I think? Maybe junior) and they were closer to graduating than I was, were more sure of their majors, etc. Under normal standards I really would NOT have been nervous whatsoever around them, I had been working on a group project for like a month with them with 0 issues, it was only when I realized it wasn't about the group project that I ... panicked I guess. It really was not a situation that would normally have set anything off, not quite sure why it did to that extent that time. Maybe just the oddity/confusion of it? I was also confused by the whole thing because I thought it was some soriority/fraternity thing, not a math major thing and I thought everyone who joined them was an idiot and the two of them were clearly not idiots (one of them had a 4.0 as a math major and it was their senior year). It was honestly a fairly intimidating situation intellectually and the department head was also female. I think that's where the feminism comment came from (and I had just been reading on feminist literary theory for one class) and the shakespeare was because that was my next class and the last class I had received an A on a paper that didn't even deserve a C. The non-recursive linguistics was because there's a tribe somewhere that speaks a language without recursion and they have no concept of time and I had been thinking about them for ... I don't remember why. edit - Oh part of the awkwardness came from something I just remembered. The department head seemed to be joking about the number of women in the math program that year (ie implying that the male to female ratio was somewhat absurd). It was... I was confused. I couldn't tell if she was serious or not. And it seemed like a really dumb reason to switch majors. Looking back I think she actually was serious about there not being very many male math majors that year, but I don't think she was serious about it being a reason to switch majors. | ||
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SpiritoftheTunA
United States20903 Posts
it's strange that you randomly got the false impression that a meeting with people from the math dept had anything to do with the greek system... is jumping to strange conclusions part of your anxiety? also that last thing you mention i think refers to this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hopi_time_controversy but i think it's a myth that the people speaking the language "have no concept of time," that just seems like a pop science bastardization | ||
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BurningSera
Ireland19621 Posts
i also made new york cheese cake too | ||
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Nevuk
United States16280 Posts
On March 09 2015 19:21 SpiritoftheTunA wrote: so you just go full word vomit with whatever's on your mind when you get too anxious? i have a friend who was kind of like that... it's strange that you randomly got the false impression that a meeting with people from the math dept had anything to do with the greek system... is jumping to strange conclusions part of your anxiety? also that last thing you mention i think refers to this: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hopi_time_controversy but i think it's a myth that the people speaking the language "have no concept of time," that just seems like a pop science bastardization Basically, yes. What's on my mind is usually just bizarre shit. And jumping to inane conclusions is another specialty of mine, though in this case not as much as it sounds. Ok nevermind... it was as ridiculous as it sounds. I just realized I typed up a defense of my thought process and it really was an insane thought. So... I won't post it. Too ridiculous. I'll just say that I was inexperienced with women at the time. Had plenty as friends, had never dated anyone longer than a week. I'm still surprised that even with medication I've been dating someone for three years... After all that as I was leaving to go to my next class they still told me to switch majors (Yes, I was told probably 5-6x each by three people that I should switch majors and I still missed the message that that was what they were talking about - like I said, I just chucked it into the "that was really weird" part of my brain and didn't think about it for years). And the idea of the department head setting something like that up still boggles my mind. On the hopi tribe- it's true it's pop science to phrase the hopi tribe that way, the reality is just that they have a different concept of time iirc (not sure if it was the hopi, I believe it was considerably more recent than that) and I do remember I was only mentioning them because I'd had a conversation with someone who claimed that it disproved Chomsky's linguistic theories and it's easier to frame a relatively brief conversation that way. edit- and when i'm typing up shit this long in LDOT I'm pretty sure that I've forgotten to take medication. | ||
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ChunderBoy
3242 Posts
On March 09 2015 19:03 ahswtini wrote: as a maths major can you relate to nevuk no but i realised i dont like maths as much as i thought i did. asking a 15-16yo to choose some subject to study in uni is absurd coz in uk u choose a whole course to study from the start. shudve done history | ||
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eieio
United States14512 Posts
never went beyond that tho, stupid college. analysis seems neat. not sure what that correlates to in the uk tho studying history seems really fun but being tested on it would be awful idk | ||
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Kupon3ss
時の回廊10066 Posts
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eieio
United States14512 Posts
+ Show Spoiler + lolol | ||
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Nevuk
United States16280 Posts
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Nevuk
United States16280 Posts
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Kupon3ss
時の回廊10066 Posts
On March 09 2015 17:51 eieio wrote: I'm gonna write a plugin to browse this thread from vim All that did is make me think why you don't just use lynx or links | ||
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SpiritoftheTunA
United States20903 Posts
On March 09 2015 20:06 eieio wrote: can't you just be a lawyer, they make great livings + Show Spoiler + lolol can we not do the shitting on professions thing? | ||
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eieio
United States14512 Posts
the vim plugins are more an exercise in poor practices in software development than anything On March 09 2015 20:10 SpiritoftheTunA wrote: can we not do the shitting on professions thing? was more directed at the shitty job market for law these days but ya not very funny my b | ||
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icystorage
Jollibee19350 Posts
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ahswtini
Northern Ireland22213 Posts
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Kupon3ss
時の回廊10066 Posts
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ChunderBoy
3242 Posts
On March 09 2015 20:05 eieio wrote: I really enjoyed combinatorics, proofs are super fun never went beyond that tho, stupid college. analysis seems neat. not sure what that correlates to in the uk tho studying history seems really fun but being tested on it would be awful idk combinatorics is the best part of maths geometry 2nd best analysis is meh rest are utter trash like algebra | ||
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eieio
United States14512 Posts
multicalc got really boring. I can only integrate things so many times before I just use wolfram alpha to do it for me | ||
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