Before I start venting, i don't give a damn about those less fortunate than me. If you care so much about them, make your own blog about it. I know i am much more privileged than them, and that having internet/family/whatever is a gift, but really right now I just want to vent. (Yes, I am in a bad mood)
Ok, so today so far has been frustrating as hell. Wake up in the morning, go to my grandfather's house as I do regularly every Monday I have off school. I log onto his computer, and load up my youtube playlist of Undergrads episode (they should continue it, was an awesome show). I start up league of legends, play a ranked match and don't really have any problems. Win after a few back and fourth moments.
This is when my friend comes online, the friend that orig got me into the game. He said he wanted to help me get out of noob teritory (1200 ELO). I was already approaching 1350, so I didn't really need his help, but I played anyways. First game, loads up, we do ok. My friend who thinks hes awesome goes 1 kill 5 deaths in about 20 mins. He rages at everyone else (except me) for not helping him etc. We lose, but he blames it on bad luck. We play another game, and this time my friend doesn't do too badly, a few kills and deaths about even. Our teammates are bad though, and we yet again end up losing. Third game we won after the opponents made some stupid lategame mistakes. We then lost two more games in a row, mostly because of me playing badly combined with leavers and general inter-team rage. I got tired of playing with my friend, because he thinks hes better than everyone, and I queued up for a solo queue game. My allies SUCKED BADLY. I finally decided to stop playing LoL for the day, having dropped 200 ELO.
It is about 4 by now, so my grandfather and I head home. I wanted to listen to The Beatles on the way home, so i picked out the cassette tape from my grandfather's armrest storage thing, and put it in the player. I wanted to listen to "Paperback Writer", but it started on another song. I spent the next 10 mins messing with the controls trying to get it to the song I wanted. As we arrived at my home, the song finally came on. I thought it would be no problem, as I had a cassette player in my boombox. I put the tape in, and pressed play. Nothing. I tried a few other buttons, and still nothing. Well crap, now my boombox doesn't work. I tried to press the eject button, but the cassette section was stuck shut. I tried pulling on it, pressing the button hard, and finally resorted to smashing. It opened, and I got the tape out. I fixed the tape that was caught in the cassette, and put it back in. Nope. The cassette holder wouldn't close. .... Now its really broke.
Fuck it all, I turn on my computer and download the song off youtube so I can listen to it as much as I damn well please. I plug my headphones in, and start listening. About halfway through the song, I hear my mother screaming from downstairs for me. I go downstairs, expecting to have to take the dog for a walk (which is normal). No. She wants me to clean the dishes by hand while I listen to her bitch and complain about how I wasn't home in the morning (which i never am on mondays) to do stuff. I was going to tell her my brother was home all day to do stuff like that, but I really just didn't want to deal with her. I finished cleaning the dishes, went back upstairs and wrote this blog.
Tl;DR: Nothing going my way today, pissed off. Need to vent.
Edit: AND I CANT FIGURE OUT HOW TO STOP BEING ANGRY. GAHH
On July 12 2011 07:15 baller wrote: it sounds like u have a really hard life man
one day all these injustices will be fixed, just be strong and get through these tough times
Sarcasm is really not what I need right now...
but it's what you deserve. sorry but what's your problem? you had to deal with some difficulties of playing music and lost some elo in LoL? big deal, that stuff (and 10 times worse) happen everyday.
if those were the only problems i had... .boy.. would i love that^^
don't be righteous damahammer .. he had to do the dishes fk (you will get used to it after the first 20 times, FK those god damn dishes i h8 them too) (dont get me started about the cat)
Sounds like a crappy day. We all have them. Guys, don't be tools and act like you've never had a shitty day like that where you just wanted to explode with frustration.
I'm sure he realizes that it isn't logical for him to be so angry atm, but emotions, especially anger, often throw logic out the window. So even if one understand that they shouldn't be angry, it doesn't change the fact that they feel like shit. This is especially true if they're a person who is easily angered or has legitimate anger management issues (I do at times )
Idk what to tell you Corvette other than just find something to kill some time and just get this crappy day over with so maybe you can have a better one tomorrow.
On July 12 2011 07:42 sermokala wrote: I decided to switch to zerg
I know how you feel.
I laughed, sorry.
Well, I think I've calmed down a bit (I am starting to program a Blackjack program, programming makes me calm out of all the things hah), but yeah I gotta stop getting frusturated over the little things. I mean, LoL is just a game, sometimes shit just doesn't go my way and I should probably listen to my parents cause they give me a house to live in/food etc.
Still pissed at my friend though. Someway somehow I am going to convince him he is not the greatest shit in the world. Maybe then he can be less stubborn and im-better-than-you-y
Our teammates are bad though, and we yet again end up losing.
Hi, I'm not lvl 30 so maybe I'm not qualified to comment, but this is possibly the worst way to rationalize a loss (even if there's a good bit of truth to it).
Ultimately there's always something you could have done better (look beyond the kill/death statistics) -- objective control/warding, CS, whatever. The way a friend put it to me: "you are not good at League of Legends. You will never be good at League of Legends". The idea that you are good, and your teammates are bad (even if it is true), is simply setting yourself up for a lot of stress and no fun. At least, that's the way I look at it, and I hardly ever rage over losing anymore.
That said, its immensely frustrating duo queueing with someone who doesn't recognize their mistakes and doesn't care to improve on them, so you have my sympathies in that regard.
On July 12 2011 07:53 SnetteL wrote: 1350 elo, thats not noob territory at all. Such a difference with 1200. Your mate is lucky you even want to play with him.
He was somewhere around 1425, so meh. We aren't Hotshot level or even Grasshyren level yet, but you gotta start somewhere.
Our teammates are bad though, and we yet again end up losing.
Hi, I'm not lvl 30 so maybe I'm not qualified to comment, but this is possibly the worst way to rationalize a loss (even if there's a good bit of truth to it).
Ultimately there's always something you could have done better (look beyond the kill/death statistics) -- objective control/warding, CS, whatever. The way a friend put it to me: "you are not good at League of Legends. You will never be good at League of Legends". The idea that you are good, and your teammates are bad (even if it is true), is simply setting yourself up for a lot of stress and no fun. At least, that's the way I look at it, and I hardly ever rage over losing anymore.
That said, its immensely frustrating duo queueing with someone who doesn't recognize their mistakes, so you have my sympathies in that regard.
Well, I couldn't really go into specifics because I like to try and forget losses, but I am pretty sure me and my friend were the only ones warding, they kept overextending, and everyone (including my friend) kept going into teamfights one by one and each getting killed. You'd think they would have the logic to know if the tank died, you should back off, but nope. And I probably could work on my CS, I usually lead in level around 11-13, but then I become underleveled because I completely ignore creep killing.
Don't get me wrong I've raged plenty of times as a result of things not going my way when gaming.
But I often quickly realize that video games don't matter in my life. They are simply entertainment, and my MW2 rank or SC2 rank will never get me anything in life that I can't get through other, more productive means.Find something else in your life besides video games and YouTube. I read about history, play Settlers of Catan: Cities and Knights with friends, go to the movies, go out, call up girls; there's plenty to feel good about in life besides video games.
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