You "don't belong" not because you chose not to, but because you didn't happen to. When time passes, you realize that this world is beautiful the way it is. You do belong after all, but you belong where most people don't. This itself should feed your emotional needs not to worry more. You are self-aware and curious enough to question things that others don't, you are very special. Since its special to think these days. But trust me, you are not an outcast, no matter how bad you want to be one.

SpiritoftheTunA

United States20903 Posts

March 16 2009 06:38 GMT

#22

i kind of saw this through your writing, that's why i included a "you are peerless" point in my parody

Pieguy314

Canada262 Posts

March 16 2009 06:55 GMT

#23

In China i recommend you stay away from cities like Beijing, Changsha, and Shanghai, for various pollution reasons. I recommend going to Shenzhen, or Guangzhou, but I SERIOUSLY recommend Suzhou. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Suzhou

Swarmy

Canada70 Posts

March 16 2009 07:04 GMT

#24

I don't mean to be rude, but you are hopelessly pathetic.

cgrinker

United States3824 Posts

March 16 2009 07:14 GMT

#25

Hey don't let people come around and say "Why are you writing so much? What's wrong with you?"

I applaud the the fact that you write. People should do more of it sometimes

cgrinker

United States3824 Posts

March 16 2009 07:16 GMT

#26

And furthermore, the fact that you are willing and able to express your ideas on paper speaks highly of your ability to actually function in the world. Thus the Catch 22 of these essays you post.

Nazarene

Denmark996 Posts

March 16 2009 09:36 GMT

#27

Cute

IdrA

United States11541 Posts

March 16 2009 10:08 GMT

#28

On March 16 2009 16:16 cgrinker wrote:
And furthermore, the fact that you are willing and able to express your ideas on paper speaks highly of your ability to actually function in the world. Thus the Catch 22 of these essays you post.

how does anonymously writing stuff speak to any kind of ability at all
he doesnt even express himself well and you can barely call what hes writing ideas

Trumpet

United States1935 Posts

March 16 2009 11:31 GMT

#29

You reminded me of http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-7074447351811006615 (I'd have linked youtube, but they downed it for copyright infringement)

You say

On March 16 2009 12:01 Shiverfish wrote:
I More accurately, I think I have been somewhat misunderstood for my style and content.

but you weren't misunderstood at all.

In fact, SotT understood too well, and that's what's bothering you.

Even after what should have been a reality check, your blog (especially first 2-3 paragraphs about the walk) reek of "I'm so mature beyond my years and so much better than anyone else my age, god I'm amazing. But no one notices! Why can't other people my age notice how awesome I am!?"

You do eventually answer that question yourself with:

On March 16 2009 12:01 Shiverfish wrote:One could say I despise my own demographic with passion. Indeed, if I were someone else, I am quite certain I would take an immediate disliking to myself. Of course not everyone is the same, but in general this demographic I deem too silly and unrealistic. They worsen the property value of the places they reside. They are inexperienced and untrustworthy.

"So that's why they don't notice how awesome I am! They're dumb! All of them! Gee, if only I were born in the Reniassance I could fit in with all the other like-minded, chivalrous knights."

Gotta hand it to you on the startling discovery that younger people are less mature, though. Only one step from realizing you're no exception.

Also:

On March 16 2009 12:01 Shiverfish wrote:
I dislike being in places where other people are around. Even around this playground I felt like I did not belong. Grandparents were there with their grandchildren, and kids were playing with their friends. As a young adult with no apparent purpose for being there and no companions to converse with, it seemed people would be suspicious of me. I would definitely be suspicious of me. I didn’t want to hang around and spoil everyone’s fun. So I decide, as I often do, to walk along, try to put a smile on my face, and not to intimidate anyone.

100% you could have walked right up to the adults there and struck up a conversation about anything you wanted.

You may not realize it, but people don't blindly hate you unless you give them a good reason.

Edit: This comes off really harsh, and I'm honestly not trying to be mean, but you're only screwing yourself over (very hard, at that) by being antisocial. If nothing else would motivate you, remember that massive amounts of job opportunities arise purely from knowing the right people and the right people knowing you.

floor exercise

Canada5847 Posts

March 16 2009 12:29 GMT

#30

self diagnose yourself with aspergers syndrome and sit in your basement the rest of your life. Just so long as you stop blogging

fanatacist

10319 Posts

March 16 2009 14:58 GMT

#31

I think he came here because he figured people who played a game that is 11 years old would be anti-social by nature and thus would accept him and would give attention to his pleas for ettention.

Boonbag

France3318 Posts

March 16 2009 21:55 GMT

#32

burn da fuckin troll

G0dly

United States450 Posts

March 16 2009 22:23 GMT

#33

Get a goal to work toward. I used to be like you. In my case, I found that I would need time to clear my thoughts and release my anxiety and stress. I eventually chose to do this by physical exercise (running), because it seemed prudent to me. Doesn't have to be the same for you, but for me it was a great way of going outside, getting some fresh air, and releasing all the stress and anxiety by exercising. No matter the mood i'm in before I run, I always feel better after I've put in a few miles. It gives me time to think and reflect as well.There's a personal sense of self worth and accomplishment when you set goals for yourself and accomplish them. For me, running also worked because it's a solitary sport - you don't have to talk to anybody, you don't have to communicate with people, you just put on a pair of good shoes and go.

Maybe running's not the thing for you, but that's what I did. I would encourage you to find an activity that's fun and releases stress and anxiety for you. Find maybe an hour or something to dedicate to this activity. It can be any sort of hobby, really. I would encourage this because it seems that you are under the mentality existing to exist - you need to find something that you enjoy and that will give you a break from all the rigors of everything else in life.

Maybe I completely missed the point of your blog, but this is just my 2 cents.

Milton Friedman

98 Posts

March 17 2009 04:54 GMT

#34

I don't come to TL.net much anymore but I saw this post and then decided to find all your other blog entries. Like anything, opinions vary greatly but I actually quite like your writing, although some of the economics you've used in the past is dubious, almost like you worked it in for the sake of projecting your rational image and not because you really believe it.

I don't suppose you have any respect for my opinion though