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I sit here in the middle of the night 2:12 AM being kept awake by many different things that lurk in my thoughts.
ICCUP has been okay. Starcraft has been bad. I crack at the smallest things and yes I know that very well. I lost to a few D- players already.
Anyway, I feel as if I've just reached a point where I'm about to call it quits. Not SC but on the fact that I wait for the right one. There's an inner desire but sometimes desire is just desire. Its nothing.
Love is love. Its something to enjoy but I believe that love isn't fit for everyone. Not me at least. For some, love comes easy and for some, they fight so much just to get a tinge. Why wait so fucking much for the damn cake you can't fucking eat.
I recall back to the incident about Tika where he blogged about his own love life. I recall Misrah's beautiful encounters with two wonderful women. But I guess things end somehow. I agree with Misrah. Whoever said that its better to love and lose than to have never loved at all is a fucking retard. Seriously. Sometimes I wished I never loved at all.
Its one thing to love and lose with the knowledge that you've got better love in store for you but its another thing where you know that this love will be your last.
From Tika's incident, I gather that most of you understand how fucked up it gets sometimes. Its shit to find that you're almost always or always more than ever alone in all that.
All that's happened really just proves a point that I'm not a creator. I can't create love out of nothing.
And I can't admit that I haven't ran away. I've probably ran long enough for a marathon now. But its so screwed I can't even think about anything better.
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Abstinence is the answer.
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Trying to sleep damn how do you even fall asleep in nights like these.
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On December 08 2008 03:30 Tensai176 wrote:
Abstinence is the answer.
I believe so too. But maybe just abstaining from it. Doubt I'd get married.
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On December 08 2008 03:26 JMave wrote:
I sit here in the middle of the night 2:12 AM being kept awake by many different things that lurk in my thoughts.
ICCUP has been okay. Starcraft has been bad. I crack at the smallest things and yes I know that very well. I lost to a few D- players already.
Anyway, I feel as if I've just reached a point where I'm about to call it quits. Not SC but on the fact that I wait for the right one. There's an inner desire but sometimes desire is just desire. Its nothing.
Love is love. Its something to enjoy but I believe that love isn't fit for everyone. Not me at least. For some, love comes easy and for some, they fight so much just to get a tinge. Why wait so fucking much for the damn cake you can't fucking eat.
I recall back to the incident about Tika where he blogged about his own love life. I recall Misrah's beautiful encounters with two wonderful women. But I guess things end somehow. I agree with Misrah. Whoever said that its better to love and lose than to have never loved at all is a fucking retard. Seriously. Sometimes I wished I never loved at all.
Its one thing to love and lose with the knowledge that you've got better love in store for you but its another thing where you know that this love will be your last.
From Tika's incident, I gather that most of you understand how fucked up it gets sometimes. Its shit to find that you're almost always or always more than ever alone in all that.
All that's happened really just proves a point that I'm not a creator. I can't create love out of nothing.
And I can't admit that I haven't ran away. I've probably ran long enough for a marathon now. But its so screwed I can't even think about anything better.
Hey all i have to say is this, i feel for you. I know what you are going through and believe me it sucks. But before you decide to call it quits, ask yourself a few questions.
1. What am i looking for?
2. How hard am i willing to look for it?
Instead of giving up try and do something from a different angle.
I gave up trying to find the one, I'm just waiting to have one fall into my lap.
Anyway good luck to you, and i hope that you can find your own CC girl.
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I gave up looking myself. Fuck girls in general actually. All they do is want shit from you. I'm now buying the coolest shit for myself since I don't have to pay for whatever stupid item the girl wants. You save a TON of money.
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On December 08 2008 03:50 Psyonic_Reaver wrote:
I gave up looking myself. Fuck girls in general actually. All they do is want shit from you. I'm now buying the coolest shit for myself since I don't have to pay for whatever stupid item the girl wants. You save a TON of money.
Well put, your nice things will never walk away from you.
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On December 08 2008 03:50 Psyonic_Reaver wrote:
I gave up looking myself. Fuck girls in general actually. All they do is want shit from you. I'm now buying the coolest shit for myself since I don't have to pay for whatever stupid item the girl wants. You save a TON of money.
haha
didnt you make a blog about living in korea or something like that, who are you trying to fool
yeah no I guess you're going there for the great food and culture lol
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Whoever said that its better to love and lose than to have never loved at all is a fucking retard. Seriously. Sometimes I wished I never loved at all.
Turns out not everyone is as emotionally unstable as you, stop your crying and go on with life.
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At the risk of contributing to the misogynist culture that Tl.net fosters, I'm going to suggest you try hookers.
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On December 08 2008 04:46 Frits wrote:Show nested quote +Whoever said that its better to love and lose than to have never loved at all is a fucking retard. Seriously. Sometimes I wished I never loved at all. Turns out not everyone is as emotionally unstable as you, stop your crying and go on with life.
Haha guess you fail to understand that everyone has different problems.
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