My previous 2 blog posts,
#1 from 2012
#2 from 2014
sort of chronicled my journey from was a pretty dark place to a similarly lost place 2 years later. about a year and a half later, which is now, I think i'm legitimately in a very emotionally stable spot in my life.
Some things that have changed in my life that i think are notable:
I've moved more than halfway across the country to a new city.
I have a very good job at a fairly prestigious establishment.
I have a hobby that I have committed myself to which eventually turned into actual passion.
I've cut out anybody who has a negative impact on my life.
Otherwise, I don't think my quality of life has changed drastically and I am still talking to the same friends as well as making new ones. The biggest difference was that I did what I wanted to do, and not what I thought other people wanted me to do. Previously I had spent so much time trying to please other people that I didn't really pay attention to what I wanted to do for myself, which turned out was just doing as much nothing as possible.
I'm sure nobody actually cares, but maybe someone will read this who was in a similar position that I was in 4 years ago and can read this and know that at some point things may work out. not only that, but its also kind of cool that I had a sort of hobbit type thing going on where I journeyed through life experiences and eventually found where I needed to go without knowing what I was trying to achieve. TL is basically home, whether I know it or not, and its so refreshing to say that on the whole, I am happy.