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Lifes not fair. Sometimes life really isn't fair. Sometimes life dangles your hopes and dreams in front of you like a cat toy only to swish them away at the last second, with you barley getting a taste of them.
Since my journey to Korea a year and a half ago, I have met many challenges and obstacles in my broadcasting career. When I first showed up I was a fresh face straight from college looking to cast Proleague, the Starcraft league I grew up with in high school and college that I had a very personal relationship with. The challenges came where I had to learn how to properly broadcast, deal with a Korean company and how they handle business, and of course deal with my co-caster at the time. I'm not going to sugar coat it, he was very difficult for me to work with throughout the season and was an enormous source of stress for me the entire proleague season.
I just told myself get through this season, and things will get better. I really believed it too; just buckle down and weather the storm. Unfortunately that wasn't the case, and things continued to get worse from there. For more details on how things continued to get worse, check out Blog 6 and Blog 7.
Things were looking more positive coming into the Korean Dota 2 League season 1. I never got paid by Spotv or had anything beyond a verbal contract with them, but they did promise to pay my rent. Season 2 paired me up with Moonglade and the production quality improved for the English casters, things seemed to be getting better. I talked to Spotv about getting a contract and salary from them, since things were becoming more professional. I contacted V about this and he said he would talk to Spotv. He said Spotv would pay me for season 2's work as well as get me a contract. Wonderful! Whether I would cast season 3 or not though was still up in the air. Red flags.
This is where things start to get fucked up. V and R, a long lasting member and supporter of me at Spotv quit their jobs because they really dislike X, a higher up at Spotv that is handling a lot of the business decisions. These 2 guys have been working with me and generally helping me out at Spotv since day 1. Keep in mind this is in the middle of my potential contracting and season 2 payments. I'm handed off to one, then another different person at spotv where I was forced to essentially beg for my payments and updates regarding the season 3 situation. I eventually find out that I will get my money soon(tm) but they still never said anything about season 3. A meeting is held and in the end I find out that I won't be casting season 3, the reason being that X really dislikes me due to having a close affiliation with V and R. I have never met X before.
Completely out of my control. I bust my ass and deal with some terrible shit for so long and this is what I get out of it. My future looks quite hazy at the moment, I have never felt so lost in my life. Before moving to Korea, and throughout most of my life I always had a clear vision and goal of what I wanted to do with my life. After broadcasting and living in Korea for so long, I am almost scared to return to the USA, simply because my old goals and aspirations are no longer what I want to accomplish and to make matters worse I have NO idea what I want to do.
I'm tired of being broke. I'm tired of being stressed out. I'm tired of the way I've been treated in Korea by spotv. I'm tired of telling myself to stick with it for awhile longer and things will get better. I'm tired of continuously getting fucked over. I'm so tired.
Small update: I realize that there isn't much positivity in this post. I wrote this after I found out what happened + 4 hours of sleep. From the positive side I do miss some things about America so being able to return would be nice. I also gained a lot of friends, I learned a lot about living in the real world, and there ARE some ways for me to still stay and survive in Korea if I really want to.
i just found out about this
