EPTAbout me: I'm 16 years old, I love starcraft 2 and have followed the pro scene obsessively for the past 2 years. I'm a startale/bomber fan. I also suffer from a heart condition called chronic pericarditis.
This year was really tough for me. I'm usually a pretty good student, but in the last year, my heart condtion has been getting really bad. i've been missing a lot of school while sick, and was having a lot of trouble catching up. in the end, i had to drop out half way through the year as i had just missed too much. since then, my condition has not improved, if anything, i'd say it's gotten worse. My parents even took me to Cleveland to meet a doctor to see if he had any advice, but he just told us to "stay the course that we've been on."
I have a twin brother who doesn't have any heart issues, and it's extremely depressing to see him continue in school and life, while i see to be in the same place. Its hard to keep connected with friends, as we sort of run out of things to talk about. i'm so scared of being all grown up, still being sick and unable to finish highschool/college. i don't want to have to live and be dependent on my parents for the rest of my life. The one thing i have going for me is starcraft. Even though i don't post a ton, Starcraft IS my life. i watch all the starcraft tournaments/streams i can. It has really really been so nice to have something like starcraft that takes your mind off everything else.
Anyways, I'm really hoping that 2014 is better. and that this thing improves and maybe, just maybe, ill feel better and will get to attend school. I know it's unlikely, but i'm really hoping.
Thanks for reading, those who did. i just felt like i wanted to get this all off my chest, and this seemed to be an easy way to do it. Happy new year.
