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vndestiny
Profile Blog Joined September 2011
Singapore3440 Posts
August 08 2013 06:24 GMT
#21
Yeah I begin to think you don't even know what discrimination means/ you have a very odd definition of discrimination. God u think ppl ask you question because they're surprised is discriminating? What the hell lol.
Erik.TheRed
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
United States1655 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-08-08 06:27:33
August 08 2013 06:26 GMT
#22
It seems like you really care about trying to improve the community, and for that you have my respect. But whether you're aware of it or not these kinds of posts come across as a bit over-the-top and melodramatic. For instance, you titled the thread "This is my last blog" but then didn't really explain why or indicate that you plan on taking some time away from TL... so I have to wonder if you really mean that or are just lashing out about your perceived discrimination.
"See you space cowboy"
ninazerg
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
United States7291 Posts
August 08 2013 06:28 GMT
#23
You speak Chinese? That's really cool.

...sorry for my discrimination.
"If two pregnant women get into a fist fight, it's like a mecha-battle between two unborn babies." - Fyodor Dostoevsky
ETisME
Profile Blog Joined April 2011
12350 Posts
August 08 2013 06:57 GMT
#24
that isn't discrimination at all. Most western society doesn't teach Chinese in their school for a starter. It would be a shock if they expected you to speak chinese.
It's a great conversation starter, I don't see why you think it's a negative thing at all lol
As for your speaking, once I watched your cast when my GF (who is from mainland) was beside me, she knew right away that you aren't a local.
其疾如风,其徐如林,侵掠如火,不动如山,难知如阴,动如雷震。
Dubzex
Profile Joined October 2010
United States6994 Posts
August 08 2013 07:04 GMT
#25
This still continues to be my favorite blog.
"DONT UNDERESTIMATE MY CARRY OR YOU WILL BE CARRIED INTO THE ABYSS OF SUFFERING" - Tyler 'TC' Cook
Daswollvieh
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
5553 Posts
August 08 2013 08:04 GMT
#26
There is a difference between feeling insulted/persecuted/discriminated/etc. against, and [/i]being[/i] insulted/persecuted/discriminated/etc. You seem to take offense easily and when it isolates you (emotionally) from other people, then you should start questioning your own perception. You cannot change the world, you can only change yourself. Perception is a tricky thing, as it appears to as as natural and true and one can always find reasons that supports one´s point of view, as one can find reasons against it. It´s important to try both and stay in touch with other people´s views, or great conflicts can arise. To use an extreme example: To a paranoid-schizophrenic persons, his delusions are truth. They come as intuitive and natural as the feel within his own skin.

TLDR: Question your sensitivity.
Aylear
Profile Blog Joined May 2009
Norway3988 Posts
August 08 2013 08:33 GMT
#27
This blog is entirely baffling. I do not understand how any human being could possibly confuse another person's interest and amazement and curiosity for discrimination, but here it is.

You're like the real life Pesto.



People aren't out to get you, dude. When they stare at you in amazement it's because they're amazed. I hope you figure that out, sincerely. You would be a lot happier.
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endy
Profile Blog Joined May 2009
Switzerland8970 Posts
August 08 2013 10:00 GMT
#28
I've spent 4 years in China and never faced any kind of discrimination.

Good to hear that your mum is getting better.
ॐ
Burrfoot
Profile Blog Joined July 2012
United States1176 Posts
August 08 2013 10:46 GMT
#29
Lamest last blog I have ever read today!

I'm white, pity me in China. My family problems unique. Ok, bye.
http://us.battle.net/d3/en/profile/Davlok-1847/career
ieatkids5
Profile Blog Joined September 2004
United States4628 Posts
August 08 2013 10:51 GMT
#30
do you ever NOT talk about how you're white and can speak chinese?
Sayle
Profile Joined October 2010
United Kingdom3685 Posts
August 08 2013 10:52 GMT
#31
I feel you bro. Whenever I go to China, everyone just assumes I can speak Chinese because I look Asian. Bunch of racist fuckers.
FryBender
Profile Joined January 2011
United States290 Posts
August 08 2013 14:59 GMT
#32
I don't want to just jump on the bandwagon of the 50 people before me who've already pointed out this but...seriously???

You're like the girl who wears the tiniest short shorts with bright neon-purple letters scribbled from cheek to cheek and then gets offended that people are staring at her ass. You're a white person who speaks chinese and you expect people to not ask you about it? What? The weirdest part about all of this is that in all of your blogs you keep talking about how unique you are (I'm a Caucasian who can speak Chinese!!! I should be getting 6-digit offers to cast every tournament out there) but at the same time you expect to just blend in when you're obviously different? Which one is it?
Orlandu
Profile Blog Joined January 2003
China2450 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-08-08 18:05:55
August 08 2013 15:55 GMT
#33
People have pointed out a lot of valid reasons as to why you come across as a bit of a "douche" as you put it, but from my point of view, there are a few other reasons. Undoubtedly, your Chinese is good, and you know that, which is part of the problem. You have a huge ego, but you're also overly sensitive to everything. As the person above me pointed out at the end of his post, you're looking for both sides of the coin when it comes to attention. Praise for speaking Chinese, searching for discrimination to get the other side of it as well. That's also blatantly obvious to anyone who reads your blogs, hence the annoyance.

Anyway, my main reason for having a hard time giving you the respect you're looking for (and don't think I'm saying you don't deserve respect for your hard work, you undoubtedly do and being a douche or not doesn't change that) is that your ego is clouding your judgement. You claim to be such an expert on Chinese and culture-related issues, and you're so confident in what you know, yet from the point of view of those who have spent much longer periods of time in China than you, a lot of what you're so confident about is actually wrong (I'm including both long-time expats and native Chinese in that). It takes more than a year or so to understand China, far more than that. And honestly, for the amount of time you've spent in China and how good your Chinese is, it baffles me how you can have the attitudes and opinions that you have. To me, you speak as if you're a newly arrived English teacher who somehow or another knows a bit of Chinese. You have a lot to learn, yet you have no concept of that, and you boast that ignorance to be your greatest asset to the community. That's the biggest issue that I have. But, I've never commented on your blogs before because it's really none of my business, as well as the fact that it would kind of make me a bit of a douche too, however since you brought the topic up I thought it might be worth offering my own comments. I don't want to pretend I'm an expert either, but these things I mentioned do stick out like a sore thumb.

China is undoubtedly quite racist, but what you've described isn't racism, and if you REALLY understand China you wouldn't be surprised about people commenting on you speaking Chinese, whether it be in China, Taiwan, or America. You're not as rare as you think though, believe it or not. Chinese has become quite popular amongst foreigners. That said, its still an impressive accomplishment, and people will respond accordingly. If you really understand China, you would know all of what was just mentioned and your attitude should have reacted accordingly by now, yet it hasn't. If you want to be the person you speak of becoming, these are important developments to have.

Either way, good luck. You have admirable motivation and devotion to what you do. It's only your ego and sensitivity getting into your way. Spend a few more years in China and learn some lessons in humility, and you'll be well on your way to accomplishing your dreams.

EDIT: One last thing I wanted to elaborate on... You really need to give up the idea that you're rare and special because you're white and speak Chinese. Yes, that's unusual, but it's not unique by any means. There are a LOT of white people (and people of other colors) in China that speak Chinese, and some far better than you. If you aren't aware of that, that's out of your own ignorance, the same reason why all those Americans you complain about being so shocked at you knowing about China and the language see it as amazing, because they're quite ignorant in that regard as well. However they have an excuse to be ignorant of things related to China. You really don't. Once again, if you really know that much about China, you'd have met many Chinese who have told stories about meeting a foreigner who has amazing Chinese. They're really quite common these days, to the point that those stories are rather annoying.

So just try to understand that, that you aren't quite as special as you think (not that your accomplishments aren't impressive), and I think that will go a very long way towards people liking you more.
We cant give up just because things arent the way we want them to be.
Kevin_Sorbo
Profile Joined November 2011
Canada3217 Posts
August 08 2013 15:56 GMT
#34
less qq more pew pew.

you have 2 choices.
1. ask one of your buddies to hit you on the head until you cant speak chinese anymore.
2. man up. ( I mean who cares what total strangers think about you? )
The mind is like a parachute, it doesnt work unless its open. - Zappa
maggle
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
Australia70 Posts
August 09 2013 00:59 GMT
#35
Calling it now - ain't going to be his last TL blog.
cheese me once, shame on you; cheese me twice, shame on me.
Foooky
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
Australia205 Posts
August 09 2013 01:19 GMT
#36
overly sensitive is an accurate description... Getting pissed for no reason ...
Mothra
Profile Blog Joined November 2009
United States1448 Posts
August 09 2013 01:45 GMT
#37
I'm confused and amused.
Rekrul
Profile Blog Joined November 2002
Korea (South)17174 Posts
Last Edited: 2013-08-09 04:41:54
August 09 2013 04:41 GMT
#38
I wish you the best of luck in dealing with the insurmountable racism you will face in Korea. I believe in you.
why so 진지해?
CecilSunkure
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
United States2829 Posts
August 09 2013 06:18 GMT
#39
On August 09 2013 13:41 Rekrul wrote:
I wish you the best of luck in dealing with the insurmountable racism you will face in Korea. I believe in you.

LOL
chenchen
Profile Joined November 2010
United States1136 Posts
August 09 2013 06:39 GMT
#40
Now that you've decided to stop blogging, how are you ever going to get the attention that you've craved so much?
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