So I'm not exactly sure what spurred me to type this blog out. I've been a long time member of this site, though never fully committing or participating. I'm guessing it's due to this neurotic feeling I'm getting now. Also considering the time here is 5 am, walking as my preferred method of catharsis isn't practical now. I don't even feel like going out if I could.

I happened to chance across some old posts I've made and was surprised to find that I actually don't remember making most of them. It was like as if I had been brainwashed and was uncovering the forbidden secrets of my past long forgotten. There was this thread which I had posted in but forgotten about it soon after. (It eventually died though I don't see why it did, but I'm worried to try reviving such an old relic.) I guess part of the reason I felt depressed was cos I could've known some people there who were actually working close to me, but I somehow forgot about it. As one who has gone overseas (to Sydney) to pursue studies, I have learned much about social interaction since then, but at least two other events spring to mind, events which I've regretted doing nothing cos I could've known someone better.

So back to the start, perhaps I come here seeking advice on how to get over this melancholy, or maybe I'm in search for friends or company. It could very well be just the cathartic brain dump I mentioned earlier and I'll just forget I made this blog post in a week's time.

But what the heck this vibe can't go on forever. I enjoy music and try to find fascination in anything and everything. Followed BW since 2003ish, yet forever plat on SEA. Let's talk.

(Oh if you know me personally and found this, well congratulations, and welcome to one of my thought wells. Yes, Starcraft was a big part of my life before, but I don't have the time/energy for it as much now.)