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Yesterday was horrible. Today was horrible.
And tomorrow?

This is the one and only question that is zipping back and forth between my left and right half of the brain. Yes, no, yes, no! We already made it very far into the Starladder and we also got a doable group for Wednesday. I was so sure we would easily make it. I mean really..We completely destroyed every team but one on our way to round 3. But these last two days..


The last time we seriously practiced was on Thursday. Yeah..It was alright. I mean on Thursday we won our games and we really stomped people again. And yeah..Sunday was alright! Beana was super late because he's having some party stuff with his uni friends atm (end of term) and therefore we only played one game. This game was over after 15 minutes because we won this game without even giving them a chance. So yeah I was a bit pissed off because we only played one game but in the end I was looking forward to the next day.


So today/Monday I come back from uni and play some pubs with Chippy and some other members of Brutal Insanity. Everything goes well at the start etc. but in one game I jungled Bloodseeker and for some reason thought I am le awesome and can just run around the map and kill people. Obviously I failed completely together with the rest of the team which meant a lot of feeding going on.

While we were feeding them all the money we could, Chippy built double Midas on his Lone Druid, thinking he could carry the game that way. Obviously he got shut down completely because he did not have any fighting power at all. What do you normally do as a team captain? You motivate your team mate and make sure he's pumped up for the next game.

And what do I do?..
I start shouting out my own frustration and start a horrible fight with Chippy. Well, this is already quite common between us and even though it should not happen we can both handle these situations quite well. I felt super sorry afterwards but did not show that at all.
Again Beana had some party stuff and I was already very disappointed. I actually wanted to cancel practice but Chippy talked me into playing some fun pub CM with a standin. Well...In retrospect it was a shit idea. We lost both our games to some stupid Meepo shit by me and bad play by others.

Robin was quite annoyed after the last game because he lost mid horribly which made me feel even more sorry on top of my standard "I fed sorryness". What to do now? We decided to wait for Beana and play at least one serious game today.

And now it began. This is the one thing that now makes me struggle to believe that we can manage Starladder. Even though our individual game was acceptable (as always there were some major mistakes again but it was still alright), we lost our "game flow" completely and communication failed entirely.

My captaining was so horrible today.
People didn't react to my calls instantly so I just have to get my balls right and freaking shout at them! The biggest mistake you can make as a captain is to let your team mates ignore you and make their own decisions if you don't want them to make them. I know the solution. But what happens if I can't fix it until Wednesday? Will we be able to win this with raw skill advantage? Will our individual play be enough? Or can we reach this state were we just act as one mind, one team?

I don't know..I really don't know.


Questions? Well..This time some support would be good I guess :D



NoLuck out!

Edit: If a mod sees this: Can he please put [Entry no.38] in front of the title? I would be really thankful!