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ROOTheognis
Profile Blog Joined January 2006
United States4482 Posts
December 26 2012 03:07 GMT
#1
After becoming a bottle deep with some pretty cheap red wine purchased from the corner market, I come here to write this ‘blog’ for you. I apologize in advance if the following jumble of words and sentences come off as convoluted or disorganized. I will try my best to make sense of the chaos in my ramblings.

Why are you writing this instead of practicing, you crazy baffoon!!? Well due to recent, unfortunate circumstances, I had to pack my bags and move back east from the Quantic training facility. Not having the option of moving back in with my parents, I was worrisome and considered all the possible options. I determined that the best decision for my career was to join ROOT Gaming and crash at the girlfriend’s dormitory for the meantime until I was able to save enough for me to lease out a place of my own. Unknowingly then, I soon discovered that the internet was already to be disconnected since she was graduating and moving out by January 1st. So here I am, solitary with idle Starcraft hands on Saint Nick’s day with some Sauvignon scribbling a random assortment of thoughts. If there is positive feedback, I hope to make this a regular affair until the internet is back and order is restored to God’s green Earth.

We, as nerds, don’t actually realize how much our lives depend on the computer and the internet until we are without. Almost driven to insanity by my boredom and frequently contemplating strangling myself with my Razer Orochi mouse cord, I looked to find enjoyment in other mediums outside the online world. I turned to books and found myself commuting to the university library daily. I was always one of those that disliked reading and sometimes even laughed in the face of literacy (LOL). But in times of desperation, I found myself liking books more and more. First delving into fairly light works such as Ender’s Game and The Hobbit, I soon worked myself up to “heavier” works by the likes of Viktor Frankl, Alexander Dumas and Nietzche.

Hey! You half-witted goober, what does this have anything to do with Starcraft II? Hold your horses, you boob-headed dingbat, I’m getting there!

Anyways, becoming mesmerized in these works, my curiosity sparked and I started to draw parallels from these writings, relating them to my own personal day-to-day life with Starcraft. I vividly remember one specific line from Nietzche that struck me the moment I read it: “He who has a why to live for can bear with almost any how.” The quote was so simple yet so profound that it shook me down to the marrow of my bones. Since I first started off in my so-called “career” in e-sports, I unknowingly and subconsciously had this mindset all along deep within. I genuinely believed I would succeed. I would seek to achieve this childhood ambition of mine no matter what. No matter what unfortunate circumstances beset me or whatever shithole I was put forth in, it was actually of no importance. It all falls to the wayside in the grand scheme of things; the bigger picture of what I craved.

I plan to pursue professional gaming and Starcraft II undoubtedly for the next two years. Why two years? That seems like a really arbitrary amount of time to throw out there. I wholeheartedly agree, but I think that the handful of months I lived in the Quantic training facility, where I achieved little to no tangible results, was not enough evidence for me to justify giving up. Two years, I believe, is a suitable and realistic time frame to meet these set goals.

I don’t hope that I’ll succeed. Hope leaves room for us to excuse ourselves to failure. Our future is reliant on our own personal decisions and the sacrifices we make for attaining these goals. Maybe there’s some small luck involved, of course, but it’s not a matter of if I’ll make it. It’s a matter of WHEN I’ll make it. This has always been the case in my mind, delusional or not.

I’m not sure if this is too short of a blog or if I should have jotted down some more. But anyways, thanks for spending some time and reading this. Hopefully if well received, I will write more blogs on other various topics that aren’t so drab and uninteresting. If you have any suggestions on future blogs, I would be happy to oblige. ☺ Anything from my personal relationships and their effect on Starcraft, my personal experiences living in the Quantic training facility, build orders or anything strategy related… I don’t mind!

Oh yeah by the way! I wanted to end on this quote; relevant or not I don’t care. It’s badass

“What would you not have accomplished if you had been free?

Possibly nothing at all; the overflow of my brain would probably, in a state of freedom, have evaporated in a thousand follies; it needs trouble and difficulty and danger to hollow out various mysterious and hidden mines of human intelligence. Pressure is required, you know, to ignite powder: captivity has collected into one single focus all the floating faculties of my mind; they have come into close contact in the narrow space in which they have been wedged; and you are well aware that from the collision of clouds electricity is produced – from electricity comes lightning, from whose flash we have light amidst our greatest darkness.”
-Alexander Dumas from The Count of Monte Cristo

Over and out,
Michael “theognis” McClelland


Twitter: @ROOTheognis
Stream: www.twitch.tv/ROOTheognis
Facebook/youtube: Coming soon!


****
If you avoid your weakness, it will remain your weakness. www.twitter.com/#!/rootheognis Follow me!
Nathanias
Profile Blog Joined April 2010
United States290 Posts
December 26 2012 03:14 GMT
#2
I've always seen you as an inspiring player to watch, and a good man to talk to. I wish the best for you and appreciate this blog shedding some light on the difficulties associated with really pursing what we care about. Here's to the future good sir, and keep the blogs coming!
CommentatorNever give up, Never surrender
Master of DalK
Profile Blog Joined June 2012
Canada1797 Posts
December 26 2012 03:17 GMT
#3
Glad to know you're still alive ^^

Very well written, those books really paid off haha
@MasterDalK | Maelstrom Entertainment | Streaming Every Esport Under the Sun
Sc2Corpse
Profile Blog Joined December 2011
United States210 Posts
December 26 2012 03:18 GMT
#4
Good luck man. I followed you a bit in Quantic and you have a lot of potential. I also dream of being a pro gamer but am no where as close as you are. Don't let the low times discourage you because better things always come from them.

Keep at it, I believe in you!
The Zombie Protoss <3
StimiLant
Profile Blog Joined July 2006
United States534 Posts
December 26 2012 03:19 GMT
#5
why u so smart mike? !__! gl man lemme know if ur renting in nova c u soon son
lnstantly
Profile Joined August 2012
United Kingdom23 Posts
December 26 2012 03:25 GMT
#6
Really nice blog man! This deserves more attention!
Axiom + Liquid <3
Vronti
Profile Blog Joined August 2011
United States111 Posts
December 26 2012 03:25 GMT
#7
Very nice blog, enjoyed watching your stream and tracking your results, best of luck in the future! (and books ftw :D )
"By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest." — Confucius
cmgillett
Profile Joined March 2010
United States335 Posts
December 26 2012 03:31 GMT
#8
love it and love the parallels you draw from outside influence. Many things are relatable and intertwined if we look past the obvious exterior. Rooting for you in 2013, and hope you choose to blog more. Would like to hear about how you've balanced your relationship as well as some of the others you listed. Goodluck!
Chainedsage
Profile Joined June 2011
United States37 Posts
December 26 2012 03:36 GMT
#9
based theo great blog B)
Juan Carlos Tena Lopez AKA Major, AKA Gosi[Terran] AKA, Terran, AKA, Princess AKA, Britney, AKA Memory, AKA Kitty, AKA CuteAngel AKA NoNge #1 based sc2 player.
mindjames
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
Israel323 Posts
December 26 2012 03:45 GMT
#10
If this is how you write while boozed up, you should definitely write more. Thumbs up!
Salivanth
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
Australia1071 Posts
December 26 2012 03:52 GMT
#11
I'd love to know:

A) What it was like, both personally and for your Starcraft skill, living at the training facility.
B) What your transition was like from "skilled amateur" (mid-high masters) to "aspiring progamer". (On a team, training full-time.)
<@Wikt> so you are one of those nega-fans <@Wikt> that hates the company that makes a game and everything they stand for <@Wikt> but still plays the game <@Wikt> (like roughly 30% of blizzard's player base, maybe much more...)
Spray
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
United States402 Posts
December 26 2012 04:34 GMT
#12
Hope everything works out man! can't wait till you can stream again :D
HuK Fighting~~!
ROOTheognis
Profile Blog Joined January 2006
United States4482 Posts
December 26 2012 06:28 GMT
#13
On December 26 2012 12:31 cmgillett wrote:
love it and love the parallels you draw from outside influence. Many things are relatable and intertwined if we look past the obvious exterior. Rooting for you in 2013, and hope you choose to blog more. Would like to hear about how you've balanced your relationship as well as some of the others you listed. Goodluck!

On December 26 2012 12:52 Salivanth wrote:
I'd love to know:

A) What it was like, both personally and for your Starcraft skill, living at the training facility.
B) What your transition was like from "skilled amateur" (mid-high masters) to "aspiring progamer". (On a team, training full-time.)


I love the ideas. I'll write blogs on all of these since my current schedule allows it

Thanks for the support guys! <3
If you avoid your weakness, it will remain your weakness. www.twitter.com/#!/rootheognis Follow me!
nolook
Profile Blog Joined November 2012
82 Posts
December 26 2012 06:55 GMT
#14
I thought you gave up on nerd life long ago, at least you sounded like a super social being while randomly visiting x17. I either overestimated your age or wtf.

Ofc you can do it, look at some of the scrubs that dominate foreign sc2. You are at least talented.
All the grace, the beauty, the poetry had gone out of the majestic river!
TheEmulator
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
28090 Posts
December 26 2012 07:31 GMT
#15
Great blog, keep on doing them please
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kollin
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
United Kingdom8380 Posts
December 26 2012 11:09 GMT
#16
You're an incredible writer, and it's a shame you've been put in a spot like this. Good luck with your playing, and if you do write more blogs it would be great if you could write what Salivanth suggested. I don't really think we have enough insight into those experiences, so it would be really interesting. Keep up the good work!
.kv
Profile Blog Joined August 2010
United States2332 Posts
December 26 2012 13:04 GMT
#17
It's 7 am so it may be due to lack of sleep/focus

But what exactly are you looking to succeed in sc2/what is your goal?
Results? By that do you want 1st place at a major event or is it lowered a bit and just want top 4? Could also be just to knock out 2-5 Koreans?
Recognition? How many do you want to recognize your skills or is there a certain person you want an approval from?
Money? Do you just want to make sustainable living and don't care regardless how you get there whether it becomes a coach or caster or a personality?

Anyways always been rooting for ya and see ya at future events brotha from anotha motha
BabyToss!
Profile Blog Joined October 2010
Czech Republic588 Posts
December 26 2012 14:18 GMT
#18
Good reading for sure. Wish more players did something similar. It's a good insight on your mindset. My message to you would be to keep doing what makes you happy, what gives you something, what you enjoy and lets you grow as a person. If the thing you do is your passion, you'll, sooner or later, start to bloom.

Best of luck, and do post more.
Nowadays a Filthy Casual | Follow your dreams |
tehemperorer
Profile Blog Joined June 2010
United States2183 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-12-26 18:36:36
December 26 2012 18:33 GMT
#19
One day you will look back on this post and say, damn, what a waste of time. However, any effort, if given with passion, is worth the time!
Knowing is half the battle... the other half is lasers.
phiinix
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
United States1169 Posts
December 26 2012 18:42 GMT
#20
I don't watch your stream as much anymore, but i'm still rooting for you to do well in anything and everything! :D
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