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I was trying to post in the drunk thread, but it was closed according to the TL search, there was feedback threads about it any everything, and some more closed ones.
Well my fiance works late so I bought another growler. Hopefully I won't overdue it this time but I should probably eat soemthing tsoon, I'm thingkjing pancakes.
Anyway, I love my fiance ver much, but I've had a rough year. In addition to other things, soome of you might recall me surgery. But even afterwards I have a series of benign tumors that have reappeared in my wrist and my palm. They m,ay be benughn bnut a tumors is not a good word. The doctors have no explanation or qwuick fix. They are rather painful and worst case svaernario I could lose my hand.
So I've been pretyty depressed about it. I keep myself bvusy but all I want to do is rest. I work so many hours and I am slways tired. I went to my grandfather's funeral today and I nearly cried. The was a good man and when my father dies I count on crying like a baby, because he too is a great man.
But to think that I'll have to deal witht hese tumors and multiple surgeroes and doctors who dont have all the answeres, i'd like to last long enough to have children of my own. To die aat a rich odl age. To have people remember me fondly and share relaitonaships with my sons and daugthers (for the lo0ve of god, hopefully sons).
SXo every day I deal with the pains, which are still not even remtotely lessened by alcohol, worry voer everything. Dont worry, i'm not an alcogocl, I haven'ty ehad adrink in a wkee, I'm just going thought some "stiuff" right now.
zI don;t have much in life, not much money or suttuff of accomplishments, so good health was kind of the one thing i hav going for me, but these timours...they huyrt so bad. a
mERTY FUCKING christingmas everyone
piece of advice: hold on eoto the ones you loves
I hope you get better, TL is with you 
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