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knightwulf
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Canada174 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-11-10 19:04:20
November 10 2012 19:02 GMT
#1
Hi TL,

Back Story

My name is Jonathan (knightwulf) I received a brain injury in fall 2010 and have been struggling to cope with the new side effects since then. I was hit in the front and back of the head while playing university football. I had severe amnesia of the past 3 years and could no longer remember why I was in Toronto. I also forgot everything about my first 2 years of university. I would wake up and freak out because I did not know who's room I was in (mine). The amnesia subsided and most memories became accessible again but I had other symptoms. I refused to get help because I did not want to acknowledge that I would no longer be able to play football or be my old-self again. I failed out of school and was very depressed for a year or two. This fall (2012) I wanted to graduate. I went searching for the necessary help.


The Help

I went to a Counselling and psychological service for students of U of Toronto in late July 2012. There I was set up with a therapist specializing in brain injuries. From there the recovery started. I had to get a starting point. So we Ordered an MRI and I was refereed to my Old Teams Dr who is the leading sports medicine Dr in Toronto who also works with the NBA/Raptors. There I learned that my brain has been damaged and centers of my brain have started to die do to unuse. I would try to use them (say memory) and then forget something and get frustrated and give up, leading to the fact that my brain was damaged and not being stimulated properly anymore. My brain had shrunk 20%. The message I got from the Dr was very very discouraging. He mentioned all the things I would be unable to do. Mostly I would never be able to think the same way again, or be that guy I was. He set me up a learning strategist, a technological assistant, a accessibility helper. These are the people who have been helping me learn how to learn again.


StarCraft2 ??


To start learning again we had to find a starting point. Something that is challenging but not overwhelming, enjoyable, and constructive. I mentioned how Sc2 was very challenging and provides a physically safe environment of competition. It started with my therapist he loved the idea of seeing how much of this game I could learn. I told my dr and he liked the idea of multitask and reaction time testing. Everyone seemed onboard that this was a great place to start to see if I can learn or retrain my brain. Thus, I was under the 'Dr's orders' to play video games. I really enjoy playing Starcraft 2. It is a very fun community and very positive place (Aside from occasional rage). I wanted to stream to say 'I am committed to recovery'. I then opened up to reddit and Team Liquid after trying to play on my own. The response I revived was unwarranted and extremely helpful. I got dozens of messages from people who wanted to help or hear more about my story. Telling my story helped me accept that this injury occurred. Hearing positive message helped me keep playing after 'bad days' (having my injury interfere with something i used to love ie losing my car keys for weeks because i forgot where they were) and trying to learn. Your support was like putting me (nsfw) on your back and carrying me into positive yards. I am very grateful to the support and I can say it helped bounds to my recovery.


Other help

Meanwhile this fall I have been going to school as my primary task. My goal is to graduate the university of Toronto in a BAsc of Kinesiology. I tried doing 5 courses, everyone advised against this. I needed to find the appropriate balance of school and learning. I got lots of support and help from the BPHE program office and from my professors. They understood and helped find ways to help me achieve success. The biggest thing was letting me rewieght the courses. Letting more of my grade be later in the year. As to hope that There was some recovery. I have had to drop down to 2 courses as I find this is the most manageable load for me. Balancing School and Sc2 has not been a problem. School comes first, Sc2 helps me learn, But I have to be able to learn school stuffs first. So in short: ??(life career)?? -> school -> learning -> ways to learns = (SC2!!!!!). I have been seeing my therapist weekly, Dr/monthly, learning strategist/weekly. These are the other support systems in place to help me learn.


What now? UPDATE !

Yesterday I got results back from a recent MRI. My brain has returned to full size. The areas of my brain that were damaged appear on an MRI to be normal. This is extreme positive results. This means that the steps I have been taking are working. The Dr was very open that the brain is a very unknown/ unprecedented organ. My injury is hard to predict outcome and recovery because not much is known. So the big news is that Atrophying has not only stopped but my brain has recovered old centers. This news does come with a large sad truth. Most of my side effects are still present. I asked why does my brain look healthy when I can only concentrate for 3-4hours a day? why cant I remember last week? He said that most damages wouldn't show up on an MRI. These are his theories of my current struggles:
1. + Show Spoiler +
These are chronic conditions that most likely will always be present, but the extent can be lessened or coping strategies can be found.

2.+ Show Spoiler +
The Neural Axons may have disconnected in my brain preventing the information to be sent. This would explain the cognitive confusion I get. This he said would not recover but new pathways could be found

3.+ Show Spoiler +
My hippocampus (memory center) could be damaged in transferring short term to long term memory. Making my working memory problematic. This would explain why I can not remember last week . I think this could be extended but mostly will be permanent. I have put some daily reminders in my phone to keep up with tasks and friends/family names. (i have no idea what makes things stick in my memory but weird things do. Ie, A man's car and license plate but not the man. It could be from my preivous photographic memory I have no IDea.)

4.+ Show Spoiler +
I get extreme mental/cognitive fatigue. This may be because the mitochondria in my brain may have been damaged. They are the ATP production centers in the body. This is where we can energy from. So its not my fuel( food ) but the amount of food I can utilize. I gather that I have `4 hours a day of concentration before i burn out. assuming that before i had 16hours I am at 25% mictocondrial efficiency. This would be able to improve. Micocondria grow and expand to the demand put on them. This is awesome except that if I get to the point where I get tired I have gone too far. Rest is where growth happens and if everyday i burn out when can I grow? This is my current task to find my limit and stay within it.


I am trying to get to see an occupation therapist to help work through and find the tasks I can and cannot do. I would also Like them to help guide what Career can I do now.

Final

I wrote this to thank and update the StarCraft community. You have helped be a positive role in my recovery. I will be playing in CSL for UofT and I am extremely excited about it. Feel fee to message me with questions I will try to answer them as best I can. Another Time i want to help teach some cool life tricks that helped. I am not sure where to post these yet.

Thank you for reading.

Sincerely,

Jonathan, Knightwulf.221 Contacts:

http://www.twitch.tv/knightwulf35
https://twitter.com/JonathanCW35
http://www.reddit.com/r/starcraft/comments/12z2ir/using_sc2_other_helps_atrophying_in_my_brain_has/


TL:DR I have started to show positive recovery from a brain injury. Thank you for the support


Edit:

Disclaimer: Please understand I am writing this from my perspective, these facts are as true as I know them. There is most likely inconsistency because I have an unreliable memory.

*****
bGr.MetHiX
Profile Joined February 2011
Bulgaria511 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-11-10 19:14:44
November 10 2012 19:13 GMT
#2
congratulations bro,it requires strength to recover from what u did.

i hope you get better even faster

ps : and it doesnt amaze me starcraft helps.not at all!
Top50 GM EU Protoss from Bulgaria. Streaming with commentary : www.twitch.tv/hwbgmethix
Cortza
Profile Blog Joined January 2011
South Africa328 Posts
November 10 2012 19:17 GMT
#3
Wow man. That's really something. I hope you go places despite what happened to you.
BigFan
Profile Blog Joined December 2010
TLADT24920 Posts
November 10 2012 19:33 GMT
#4
Amazing story! It's great news to hear that your brain has recovered and things are getting better, keep at it and good luck!
Former BW EiC"Watch Bakemonogatari or I will kill you." -Toad, April 18th, 2017
Apom
Profile Blog Joined August 2011
France655 Posts
November 10 2012 19:56 GMT
#5
Worth five stars for your determination. Your story is inspiring, I hope you can recover to the largest extent possible.
Paljas
Profile Joined October 2011
Germany6926 Posts
November 10 2012 20:16 GMT
#6
one of the few blogs i really enjoy while reading it.
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knightwulf
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Canada174 Posts
November 10 2012 21:27 GMT
#7
Thank you for reading it. I wanted to share how positive this game and community can be.
I do want to share a pm I received. I was asked if I have heard of www.lumosity.com[1] . I have and I used it for memory help previously, Comically, I kept forgetting the password and which email i used (i thought it was funny)
Pandemona *
Profile Blog Joined March 2011
Charlie Sheens House51481 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-11-10 21:49:18
November 10 2012 21:49 GMT
#8
Brain was 20% smaller...played SC2 (other things too)...brain goes back to normal 100% size.

Wow man, gz! The brain is indeed a fascinating organ. Good luck to showing those Drs and Scientists anything is possible
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PixelNite
Profile Joined August 2011
France1008 Posts
November 10 2012 22:34 GMT
#9
Congratulations man, this is so cool. I am happy for you, best of luck, i respect your courage!
EtherealDeath
Profile Blog Joined July 2007
United States8366 Posts
November 10 2012 23:35 GMT
#10
Holy shit. Your brain shrunk 20% then returned to normal? Idk if that's normal or whatnot but damn did not know the brain could recover so much.
felisconcolori
Profile Blog Joined October 2011
United States6168 Posts
November 11 2012 01:51 GMT
#11
The brain is an amazing organic computer, and hopefully over time your symptoms can either be coped with or your brain can reroute around the damage to find new pathways and regain old functionality. (There are documented cases of the brain finding new paths or work arounds for damage that allows people to regain functionality.)

The thing, of course, is that healing takes time and it may be years of slow improvement, and hardship. It's great to see that you're fully invested in your own recovery, and that SC2 is helping in some way. Also very glad that your school is on board and helping. Congratulations, and here's to hoping your continued recovery and improved health. =D
Yes, I email sponsors... to thank them. Don't post drunk, kids. My king, what has become of you?
fabiorlopes
Profile Blog Joined August 2011
Brazil17 Posts
November 11 2012 02:44 GMT
#12
Congratulations man, keep on playing and I hope u can get even better and find your career!
Never Knows Best
fire_brand
Profile Blog Joined October 2009
Canada1123 Posts
November 11 2012 04:25 GMT
#13
That's incredible. It's good to hear that TL had such a positive effect on your life and that Starcraft has helped you so much. It's unfortunate that the news isn't better and that it sounds like you're going to have to live with a lot of the side effects you're feeling for a long time or even forever, but that you're able to maintain such a positive outlook and keep powering through your problems is inspirational.

Hopefully in time you'll be able to fully realize your goals and that you'll be able to return to some semblance of normalcy. Keep yourself immersed in the community though and don't forget your friends and family only want what is best for you. The community will always be here for individuals who have difficulties like yourself, just don't be afraid to share or to admit your weaknesses. Good luck in the future and congrats.
Random player, pixel enthusiast, crappy illustrator, offlane/support
zhurai
Profile Blog Joined September 2010
United States5660 Posts
November 11 2012 11:10 GMT
#14
for remembering stuff, have you thought of having a blog (or making a private one locally that only you can see) so you can keep track of stuff?
Twitter: @zhurai | Site: http://zhurai.com
Zim23
Profile Joined August 2010
United States1681 Posts
November 12 2012 03:43 GMT
#15
Glad to see things are getting better, and hopefully you'll see a full recovery. Don't give up!

On a side note this is one of the reasons why I've totally fallen out of love with football. I just can't support a sport that does this to its players at a much higher rate than other sports, and at a rate that is nowhere near acceptable.
Do an arranged marriage if she's not completely minging, and don't worry about dancing, get a go-kart, cheers.
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