Firstly, congratulations to Suppy for Advancing into the Asus ROG second group stage. His group is brutal, but I’m sure he’ll get out :DD
I think frustration and ignorance characterized many of my posts to blogs. I wrote the parent rage blogs in an attempt to vent what I saw to be a huge injustice, my abuse by super authoritarian parents.
Yet I think after over ten of these blogs what I most learned was there is much to learn, and I was often in the wrong. Even though my parents might have propagated a poor reaction, it was my poor reaction, and I myself should have controlled my reaction.
1) Although my family lives a rather conservative, and boring on the whole way, as Chill aptly pointed out, who the hell am I to determine it. In a short period of time I’ll have more of a say in what occurs, and after my recent surgery I further realized how much of this was actually due to my health issues. Though it is in no way my fault that I had these issues, my parents reaction was to devote all resources to treating it, and attempting to ensure my success, no matter how embarrassing or counterintuitive it may be.
2) Simply stating that improvement should come will rarely yield it. While I repeatedly woed my academic failures, and at times tried to shift responsibility away from myself. I’ve suffered from Deep Procrastination. I simply didn’t want to do anything, and put it off. Then I did it poorly, I did poorly, I hated it, etc. I still haven’t really addressed these problems, but I do need to when I finally reach college. At that point, it is nobody’s fault but my own.
3) Either try to do things, or don’t. Much of what I did in blogs was complain about activities I knew I would like to do, never really asked to do, and then never did. Then I felt terrible because I never did them. As stupid as this sounds, it is a tendency I’m sure a fair few people have. I almost wanted to be able to blame my parents for not being able to do it, as I was almost scared of having more responsibility.
4) I thought I knew a lot more than I did. I seemed to think that I knew how to parent, and how scarring it would be. In some ways, if I did more of what they said I might be in a marginally better position. If I had had the guts to really challenge them, and discuss it, there might be differences. It is extremely hard to determine how exactly they should do things, but they were far from abusive. Although they were very strict, and really didn’t care how most of the community or my friends parents operated, in many ways an ability to simply operate by your own ethics and guidelines is extremely important to have. While I still disagree with the actions that were taken, many posts (Chill again…) were quick to rip into my short term stupidity. While I tried to defend myself at the time, they really were insightful, and attempted to bring me back down to earth.
Chill looking at one of my more misinformed posts
5) The ability to vent really helped me keep it together. Teenage angst and all, I don’t know what I would have done without the support, the questions which inevitably asked if I was Asian, sharp critical and apt comments from some remarkable figures. Furthermore, my blogging to a certain degree further imbedded me in the TeamLiquid community, and the SC scene as a whole.
A couple of plugs.
I’m @Froadac on twitter, and I should be attending the IGN event in San Francisco. You can recognize me by my 5’4” height, and a fairly fresh looking scar on my neck