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Hey guys :~)
Thought I’d make a blog to waste some time at work. About how the break up’s going and a pointless story;
For those that don’t know (everyone) I broke up with my gf of a year +. She’d lost her virginity to me ect and I just slowly stopped feeling the same. After a long time I finally broke it off. Lets skip all that, we still talk and she still clings to the thought that we might one day get back together which completely breaks my heart.
I had a weird experience where some sluz I had never met made a Facebook status like
“Want some cutie to pick me up and take me to the beach”
I saw this and gave her pictures a quick geeze and thought to myself that it had been a month + since we had broken up and maybe to try give this chick a go. So I inboxed her:
“Im some cutie :/ “
The slash face is out of habit but after a bit shes like yeah lets go then I was like okay. I wanted to do something with my mates but nothing had been happening so I picked this girl up. This is where it gets fucking bad. She gets in my car I look at her and shes looks like her photos.. but 10X FUCKING FATTER. A few scenarios ran through my head to get rid of her, my favourites were
“I think my tyres flat can you get out and check?”
* Do a little skid and drive off *
or
“Get out.”
* Do a little skid and drive off *
That’s all I really had but I’m not a massive jerk. It went shit I took her to the closest beach then ditched it barely looking at her but I got this really bad feeling that it should be my ex with me. I just felt utterly empty. I just couldn’t shake the feeling of regret for breaking up with her.
Some say its one of two things. I still have feelings, which constantly change 24/7 or I just don’t like being lonely. I have no idea I just hate myself for having shit feelings. On a different note, the past 4 months I’ve been addicted to the gym and just recently bought a bunch of vitamins to stop me hopefully from getting sick as much as I do.
I might post some progress photos in a month or two to show you guys, I gained a bunch of weight when with my ex and lost 11kg so far in 4 months with clean dieting, low carb, 6 small meals and 6 day gym weeks. 95.7kg to 84.4kg. Il post some photo’s if people want to see.
The deal with the gym is I am technically a qualified fitness instructor which isn’t much to brag about since I did the certificate in school and have always been educated in fitness but just very lazy and lacking motivation with bad dieting. I finally tapped into some motivation and stopped thinking that I was doing it to get girls and more doing it for myself.
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You don't have feelings for your ex. Remember why you broke up? Thats why you don't have feelings for her. You just compare everything to the the times you did it with your ex. Problem with having had a good relationship is that the next relationship needs to be atleast just as good if not better. Otherwise you'll just think about how it was better with your ex even though it wasn't working out back then either.
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I like how you mention that you started doing things for yourself and not girls. I've found that in every facet of my life, the depth to which I could honestly answer "why am I doing this?" has always determined my results.
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Congrats on the weight loss. <critical hat> Going low carb don't you feel like complete bollocks? I know I can't stand being around people running on ketones; they're all crazy in the head XD XD Carbs carbs carbs carbs carbs :D
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I dont think that picking girl on facebook can ever work :p
Yeah you shouldnt give your ex a second chance if it's because you pity her, youll feel like shit.
I love your blogs
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lol that was fantastic that you actually responded and picked the chick up. More balls than me for sure. Those situations are 90% how this one ended up. But hey, maybe once in a blue moon she's a real looker and down to bone, just make sure you wear rubber or you'll walk away with pants full of who know what 
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Wow... just WOW
I can't believe you would just ditch someone because they're 'fat'.
You are a horrible person... it makes me cringe what this poor girl is feeling. Change your porn viewing habits or you're gonna think everyone is fat. It's your porn that is making you think girls who aren't fat are fat. Pretty soon you're only going to be attracted to girls who look like holocaust survivors.
Aside from that I'd say to go get some professional help because you are a horrible person. I suggest seeking out a psychologist and then a psychiatrist.
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On August 02 2012 02:34 Mattson wrote:
Wow... just WOW
I can't believe you would just ditch someone because they're 'fat'.
You are a horrible person... it makes me cringe what this poor girl is feeling. Change your porn viewing habits or you're gonna think everyone is fat. It's your porn that is making you think girls who aren't fat are fat. Pretty soon you're only going to be attracted to girls who look like holocaust survivors.
Aside from that I'd say to go get some professional help because you are a horrible person. I suggest seeking out a psychologist and then a psychiatrist.
Or maybe she was actually fat, and he didn't want anything to do with her? Watching porn does not make other women fat, lol.
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On August 02 2012 02:34 Mattson wrote:
Wow... just WOW
I can't believe you would just ditch someone because they're 'fat'.
You are a horrible person... it makes me cringe what this poor girl is feeling. Change your porn viewing habits or you're gonna think everyone is fat. It's your porn that is making you think girls who aren't fat are fat. Pretty soon you're only going to be attracted to girls who look like holocaust survivors.
Aside from that I'd say to go get some professional help because you are a horrible person. I suggest seeking out a psychologist and then a psychiatrist.
i dont find fat people particularly attractive. im not being an asshole, but i guess im just not wired to find fat people attractive.
on a side note i also believe obesity is a lifestyle. you arent born fat (exclude the babyfat) and its not other proples fault that you binge eat and dont work out. no, its your decision.
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“Im some cutie :/ “
No way you actually said that to her, I cant stop cringing. This has potential to be the blog of the year, please keep on posting and keeping us updated on your "life."
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I think that you have feelings for your ex bro, you talk about her and refer to her like I refer to my girlfriend now, whom I love and adore beyond belief. Maybe you should give her a second chance.
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Glad to see I'm not the only one horrified to think you would ditch someone because you didn't like their looks.
I did laugh at that part though haha.
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Sort of shameful, even if she mislead you, and you don't find her attractive she's still a human being.
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