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Snet
United States3573 Posts
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SigmaoctanusIV
United States3313 Posts
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WcOwl
United States8 Posts
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JerKy
Korea (South)3013 Posts
I have similar guilt because when I was a kid, I was careless and my brother got 3rd degree burns all over his body/face Youre a big hero to me | ||
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Snet
United States3573 Posts
On July 10 2012 14:46 SigmaoctanusIV wrote: Amazing, and inspiring. What that Typo in the title intentional? Unintentional. Woops.  | ||
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docvoc
United States5491 Posts
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DuB phool
United States1003 Posts
Thank you, and well done. | ||
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McFeser
United States2458 Posts
But your talking about mistakes  It's perfect. Don't admit it was a mistake you'll look like a genius! | ||
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FYRE
New Zealand314 Posts
Inspired me to do things. The paragraph structure in particlar was highly profound. Thank you for opening my eyes. | ||
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r.Evo
Germany14080 Posts
Don't let a stupid thing in the past ruin your appreciation of the present and the future. | ||
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Azera
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DarkPlasmaBall
United States44440 Posts
You're one of the few who has actually become a better person because of your previous flaws. It's never exciting to make mistakes, but it's not a terrible thing if you can turn something bad into an eventual good, finding a silver lining or a just cause sometime later down the road. Well done | ||
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teddyoojo
Germany22369 Posts
On July 10 2012 17:23 r.Evo wrote: I doubt carrying the weight of any and all mistakes you made in your life as some kind of burden that you can never get rid off leads to a happy or fulfilled life. If you managed to learn from mistakes you made are able to not repeat them and, even better, can help others to not make them in the first place you already did more than enough from my point of view. Don't let a stupid thing in the past ruin your appreciation of the present and the future. I agree. I liked your blog until the last 4 lines. You said yourself "humans make mistakes". Dont beat yourself up over those mistakes in the last. Learn from them. Forgot them. I doubt you'll ever drunk drive again in your live. You learned from your mistake. That's more than most people can say about their mistakes. And it's enough. Dont think about your mistakes, dont repeat them. And all is fine | ||
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Boonbag
France3318 Posts
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ggrrg
Bulgaria2716 Posts
As you said everybody makes mistakes, but you cannot beat yourself up about them all your life. The point is to realize them, never repeat them, and avoid similar ones. Nothing good can come out of dwelling on something that is past and gone. One should move on and try to improve. And you have certainly "redeemed" (for lack of better words) yourself long ago. I have utmost contempt for people who recklessly drive drunk with no consideration of how much they endanger others. Because of this I never dared to drive even if I've only had a small glass of beer and even if it means that I have to walk for two hours well beyond midnight to return home. But once I made a similarly stupid thing... I drove a few friends of mine 50 miles to a town in the Netherlands so we could smoke weed. However, i did not have nearly enough time to sober up before having to drive back. My judgement was clouded and so it happened that on the way back I was still somewhat stoned and tired since it was already late. Everything went well until we were only 5 minutes away from home. I turned into a one-way street in the wrong direction... There was no vision to see upcoming traffic. Luckily, I was able to reach the point where I could enter the right lane again without an accident, but that was when I saw a car coming towards me. If I had made the wrong turn 15 seconds later (or a minute later, or 2 min earlier, or pretty much not at exactly one of those lucky moments) I would have probably caused a very serious accident. The next day, I finally realized how irresponsible I have been. I felt like shit for a few weeks but I felt like I have to move on. I'm trying to be a responsible driver in every situation, and I certainly will never again drive when under the influence of any substance... | ||
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Perfi
Poland349 Posts
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JieXian
Malaysia4677 Posts
I bow to you and all your EMT buddies. | ||
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sorrowptoss
Canada1431 Posts
The main deal here is that you have trouble forgiving yourself for what you have done, and especially what you might have done if the circumstances were aligned. But here's the thing. It didn't happen. You did not kill anybody, you did not hurt or harm anybody by driving drunk. Yes you might have, but you did not. So now I feel like you are in anger, resentment, or self-deprecating for something that hasn't even happened! You are ruining your mental health for something that you made up! Yes, you were close to doing so, but you didn't. So you should find a way to actually be glad that nothing bad really happened for driving drunk in your case. You are stuck in a world of "if this happened, I could have done this, and then this would have happened". Be happy that you didn't actually kill anybody. Find joy. Life is long. | ||
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goodkarma
United States1067 Posts
On July 10 2012 23:10 sorrowptoss wrote: I honestly think that this kind of anecdote ends up one way or another in a movie. Inspiring and humane. The main deal here is that you have trouble forgiving yourself for what you have done, and especially what you might have done if the circumstances were aligned. But here's the thing. It didn't happen. You did not kill anybody, you did not hurt or harm anybody by driving drunk. Yes you might have, but you did not. So now I feel like you are in anger, resentment, or self-deprecating for something that hasn't even happened! You are ruining your mental health for something that you made up! Yes, you were close to doing so, but you didn't. So you should find a way to actually be glad that nothing bad really happened for driving drunk in your case. You are stuck in a world of "if this happened, I could have done this, and then this would have happened". Be happy that you didn't actually kill anybody. Find joy. Life is long. He is living his life as a way to redeem himself by bringing more order and justice into the world. The same kind of order he could have destructively taken away in a heartbeat had things gone slightly differently. I think you're overreacting a bit when you tell him to find joy, as he is finding joy in redeeming himself in his work. As far as never forgiving one's self I would say, though, to always forgive and never forget. Find what caused you to get to that regrettable action and see to it that you're never in a position to repeat it again. I think that's all that you or anyone for that matter could expect of you. My 2 cents... Great blog post btw 5 stars | ||
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GoSuChicken
Germany1726 Posts
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OpticalShot
Canada6330 Posts
Love your blogs, always a self-reflecting experience. 5/5 | ||
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chaosTheory_14cc
Canada1270 Posts
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Torenhire
United States11681 Posts
On July 10 2012 23:33 GoSuChicken wrote: sorry but what is a DUI? Driving Under the Influence It's a pretty quick trip to frown town. | ||
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Enervate
United States1769 Posts
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Syrii
Netherlands216 Posts
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thoraxe
United States1449 Posts
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TheToast
United States4808 Posts
On July 11 2012 00:14 Torenhire wrote: Driving Under the Influence It's a pretty quick trip to frown town. Unless you live in Wisconsin, where the first offense is a freebie and it's not treated as a felony until the fourth conviction. DUI laws need to change  | ||
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Woj
United States133 Posts
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Endymion
United States3701 Posts
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FraCuS
United States1072 Posts
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SigmaoctanusIV
United States3313 Posts
On July 10 2012 23:33 GoSuChicken wrote: sorry but what is a DUI? Driving Under The Influence. Be is alcohol or Narcotics. | ||
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Roe
Canada6002 Posts
On July 11 2012 00:14 Torenhire wrote: Driving Under the Influence It's a pretty quick trip to frown town. try saying that 10 times fast while drunk O.o | ||
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a_flayer
Netherlands2826 Posts
Exaggerate much? | ||
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Loanshark
China3094 Posts
On July 11 2012 07:25 a_flayer wrote: 1/5 Exaggerate much? Wow I wonder what makes a 5 in your book..... | ||
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Rotodyne
United States2263 Posts
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OmniEulogy
Canada6592 Posts
On July 11 2012 07:25 a_flayer wrote: 1/5 Exaggerate much? have you read his other blogs? =/ You are an inspiration Snet | ||
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peacenl
550 Posts
On July 10 2012 14:34 Snet wrote: You only live life once, right? What are things worth to you? When I was 18 years old I had a rude awakening to life. I experimented with alcohol and it caught up to me. I was pulled over when under the influence of alcohol. I was given a DUI. Life changed the moment I stepped out of the car to do the sobriety check. I won't go into much detail on the events leading directly after. I have always deep down been a decent human being. After my DUI, I legitimately felt bad. I felt bad that I could have killed innocent people. I could have killed a family...I could have killed children. I truly understand that I could have taken someones life. I never have, and never will forgive myself for that. However, instead of sulking, I decided to make a difference. I took classes to become an EMT. For the past four years I have worked as an EMT. I have arrived on scene to countless car accidents that are result of drunk drivers. I have climbed into cars mangled to nonrecognition. Every single time, I am reminded of my mistake. I think to myself, this could have been me causing this. It was not until several years later that I realized something very important. Humans make mistakes. I drove a vehicle drunk four years ago. Although the worst decision I have ever made... it has initiated the most amazing path of life I could ask for. In my career I have saved dozens of lives. I have held the hands of people stuck in a twisted up car... telling them they will be okay. I have walked into people's homes, during their worst nightmare, and saved their relative's life. I have watched people die right in front of me, but with my hands bring them back to life. I've been through alot. I think, what are my past mistakes worth to me? Everything. I don't forgive myself. I hope my actions can bring some justice to my past mistakes If you think about it, the past is only present in our memories, we spend a lot of time reiterating these memories, but in my opinion worrying about your past is just as bad as worrying about what the future might bring, it should bring a lot of people comfort to truly realize that they are here now and only now. You're enjoying what you do at this very moment and you are doing great things. On the one hand, we are in a society where this happens a lot, I mean alcohol abuse is practically 'accepted' and 'normal' in youth culture in the West (of course DUI is more severe): Someone that didn't party and do crazy things during his youth is considered not normal. On the other we are taught to feel guilty about it. In all fairness how can one feel guilty about his culture and what it seems 'accepted behavior', and how can someone change it's environment if the only control he/she has is over him-/herself. Concluding that you should not worry, if you feel like you have been given a second chance to do good, then take that chance as good as you can, which means stop worrying about past events. Because memories which bring up these kinds of emotions can form a block on the road of life. Case in point: you can not do good all the time. | ||
NonY
8748 Posts
On July 10 2012 14:34 Snet wrote: You only live life once, right? YOLO  | ||
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DomiNater
United States527 Posts
On July 10 2012 14:34 Snet wrote: I have watched people die right in front of me, but with my hands bring them back to life. This guy got to live twice! Awesome blog good sir. | ||
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Probe1
United States17920 Posts
When I got back I felt bad about it. Not enough to change my life but enough to tell my girlfriend who was as straight as you can get. She berated me and I admitted how stupid I was; I got over it and moved on. I've never done it since. When I lost two of my friends at the beginning of this year to a drunk driver that stopped concentrating and veered onto the side of the road I didn't think it could have been me those years before. Me driving the car, killing someones friends. I grew out of doing dangerous shit for the sake of it but your blog has reminded me to reflect on it and remember how lucky I was, you were, that nothing worse than what happened did happen. I'm a lucky guy that my lessons cost so little. I guess you are too. | ||
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Renent
Canada302 Posts
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obesechicken13
United States10467 Posts
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Renent
Canada302 Posts
On July 11 2012 11:35 obesechicken13 wrote: All you people who look up to snet: doesn't complementing his profession so much diminish the work that you do yourself? The world needs all sorts of people to survive, and you act like everyone should just become an EMT. shouldn't they? | ||
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FrodaN
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Torenhire
United States11681 Posts
On July 11 2012 11:35 obesechicken13 wrote: All you people who look up to snet: doesn't complementing his profession so much diminish the work that you do yourself? The world needs all sorts of people to survive, and you act like everyone should just become an EMT. Yeah, my desk programming job is not worth a single shit compared to what Snet does. There's a big big difference between "needing certain people for people to survive" and "needing certain people for a culture to survive" I look up to Snet and others. Does it mean I am more useless than them? No, not really, but that doesn't change the fact that they are spending their lives saving others. That deserves respect imo. | ||
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Diader
United States232 Posts
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Knap4life
Slovenia333 Posts
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peacenl
550 Posts
LOL, that's kind of weird ... -_- | ||
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RogerX
New Zealand3180 Posts
But one day your gonna have to forgive yourself, you can't live with that feeling of guilt for the rest of your life. Forgive yourself by thinking to yourself to you have atoned for your past actions. | ||
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KvltMan
Sweden1609 Posts
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teddyoojo
Germany22369 Posts
On July 11 2012 08:14 Rotodyne wrote: Cool, I remember your post or blog about your DUI and you going to court. Keep saving lives man, it must be an amazing feeling. now that you said it, i remember something like that too  | ||
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crms
United States11933 Posts
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cmen15
United States1519 Posts
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RiceAgainst
United States1849 Posts
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GnarlyArbitrage
575 Posts
If you wanted to make a difference, wouldn't preventing the problem be better? I have kidney stones and the best way to deal with them is to prevent them. | ||
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MH.Ithyn
United States24 Posts
On July 10 2012 23:33 GoSuChicken wrote: sorry but what is a DUI? Driving Under the Influence, usually of alcohol | ||
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FoolieCoolie
Serbia71 Posts
Also, On July 12 2012 15:12 DigiGnar wrote: If you wanted to make a difference, wouldn't preventing the problem be better? Raising awareness is always good and it takes a lot of effort. Its a way of not being selfish and doing things because they make you feel better. And the good thing about it is, it makes you feel better anyway. :D | ||
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obesechicken13
United States10467 Posts
On July 11 2012 17:04 Torenhire wrote: Yeah, my desk programming job is not worth a single shit compared to what Snet does. There's a big big difference between "needing certain people for people to survive" and "needing certain people for a culture to survive" I look up to Snet and others. Does it mean I am more useless than them? No, not really, but that doesn't change the fact that they are spending their lives saving others. That deserves respect imo. If we didn't have academians then EMT's would still be people giving out leeches to drain bad blood. If we didn't have garbagemen, then people would still die due to sanitation issues. There's a distinction between the two needs, but in the big picture everything is relevant and people should be proud of doing something they like. | ||
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CygNus X-1
Canada169 Posts
On July 11 2012 10:32 Probe1 wrote: When I was 19 I remember driving back with Rachel from picking up a few 24 packs of corona. We were on the interstate and we both opened one and shared it. Woah. Look out. We got a badass over here. | ||
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Probe1
United States17920 Posts
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ecstatica
United States542 Posts
On July 13 2012 13:20 Probe1 wrote: That's cute that you thought we stopped at one. Don't post in memes :/ Did she make you sit on that bottle while caressing your member? | ||
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Ritchie
Canada206 Posts
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dracomanm
Netherlands60 Posts
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Aerisky
United States12129 Posts
You've come such a long way. Snet <3 | ||
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Corazon
United States3230 Posts
Peace and Health to you =) | ||
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Shady Sands
United States4021 Posts
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