EPTOr should I say, Happy New Year!
It's been over 13 months since the last blog entry and that's largely thanks to everything blowing up in my face, a couple of days after I started it.
But that's boring. Everyone has enough of their own problems to bother listening or reading about their friend's friend's 'bed hair,' or how much of an idiot the tree dealing boyfriend is. It's always been my view that people should share their problems and personal grievances with their close friends or family, and not shout about how woefully unfulfilled their life is through the aggravatingly intrusive megaphone that is Twitter.
That's not to say sometimes I don't want to shout at the world in general, but it's advisable to lock oneself in a suitable container for around thirty minutes or until the anger begins to subside.
However, I thought it would be a fitting time to try and start this blog again. I have two months off; and after immediately thinking, 'fantastic, I can do all the crap I wished I could do previously,' I realised there actually isn't that much to do, when you have no real time limit in which you wish to do it. Playing Starcraft, or having a drink at the pub with friends suddenly become a little boring when you aren't cherishing the few moments you can squeeze around work and home commitments.
I thought, 'brilliant, two whole months I can dedicate to practicing the glorious game the is SC.'
And then I a little niggling worm of concern squirmed it's way into my brain.
'What the hell am I doing.'
I'm sure it's a worry that comes into all of our heads from time to time, But this time it wasn't because I was blackout drunk sitting in my neighbors plant pot wearing just a slipper and a pair of boxers on my head. This was because I literally no idea where I was going...in life. I don't mean to sound like a tragic poet, but there was, is, little direction in my goals and aims. I am swinging between jobs, still training as a journalist, keeping afloat on poker earnings, and playing SC as a hobby.
The question is, what should be sidelined in the goal for bigger and better things. What is the one thing that I am passionate about. Could it be Starcraft. I just don't know. For now. I am growingly concerned that in a very competitive world, I have yet to find my niche, my hobby that becomes a passion that becomes a job.
For now, I suppose, I will have to forget my two months off and pour all of my energy into everything I can, in the hope of finding that one golden opportunity. Could it be writing? You tell me.
Day in Starcraft: FYI, Platinum now.
Played a few ladder matches and won most of them with the three builds I have been concentrating on. TvT with the 1 rax fe into combat shield stim +1 timing. TvP is LS's 1 rax fe into 6 rax. TvZ is a hellion expand into lots of aggression Illu style.
I also played in the UK Plat - Dia Tournament, grabbing 3rd place in a Bio only TvT, winning out by eventually having 3-3 to his 2-1. Lot's of fun, but lots to build on.
