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LonelyIslands
Profile Blog Joined September 2006
Canada590 Posts
March 12 2012 18:24 GMT
#81
Talk to people.. seek out help. PM me if you want to talk, I can help you find resources.
My heart and my mind will carry my body when my limbs are too weak
Brutaxilos
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
United States2629 Posts
March 13 2012 02:39 GMT
#82
People tend to tell me to find something that makes me happy, but the thing is... nothing really makes me happy anymore. Things that I normally look forward to (eating, sleeping, SCing, listening to music, running) just don't give me the same feeling.
Jangbi favorite player. Forever~ CJ herO the King of IEM. BOMBERRRRRRRR. Sexy Boy Rogue. soO #1! Oliveira China Represent!
Alborz
Profile Blog Joined March 2006
Canada1551 Posts
March 13 2012 02:48 GMT
#83
Hey Brutaxilos,

I used to be a lot like you, and still am a little bit.

I was depressed since High School and I am in third year university now. I think most of my depression came from my anxiety though. I have high levels of anxiety in the things I do, socializing, running, exercising, etc.

I am taking medication for anxiety-depression and it's pretty helpful. Talk with your psychiatrist and see how it goes.

You have more guts than me because you come out openly and ask for help, talk about it. One of the most difficult parts for me was hiding my anxiety and depression because I was afraid what others would think of me. And hiding it did not help, at all. It made it a lot more burdensome, and I still have some difficulty revealing it.

Anyway, it does get better, and I have to agree with much of the advice here. Especially with the advice of just keeping yourself busy. One of the things that fuels depression and anxiety is just sitting and staring at it. Focus on something else, refocus your energy so to speak. I find that helps me. Just forgetting about it. Then when you finish a task and look at your feeling again, its much lighter or not there

Feel free to message me, or ask anything. I am 21 years old and I was depressed for much of my later teenage years.
Jinxed
Profile Blog Joined May 2011
United States6450 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-13 04:15:05
March 13 2012 04:14 GMT
#84
On March 13 2012 11:39 Brutaxilos wrote:
People tend to tell me to find something that makes me happy, but the thing is... nothing really makes me happy anymore. Things that I normally look forward to (eating, sleeping, SCing, listening to music, running) just don't give me the same feeling.


You're going to have times like that while dealing with depression. It's just how it is and unfortunately not much can be done to change it.

The idea though is to just do something to get going. It's really to do nothing than to get you to reset, which is exactly what you need. Best analogy is think of your head as a processor. Right now it's sputtering and lagging because you're trying to do too much, so you need to shut it down and start back up again in order to stop the sputtering.

The key is to do, not to think, just do. Once you've done that and gotten it all off your head then come back to the problem.

EDIT: Oh and it does get better. That much is always certain.
LiquidDota Staff"LeLoup is a great name pls undo." -Liquid`Nazgul
Brutaxilos
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
United States2629 Posts
March 13 2012 04:54 GMT
#85
I just don't know what to do. I really can't focus on my homework and frankly, I don't even know whats bugging me. It's just really really painful to just do anything.
Jangbi favorite player. Forever~ CJ herO the King of IEM. BOMBERRRRRRRR. Sexy Boy Rogue. soO #1! Oliveira China Represent!
Philipd122
Profile Joined April 2011
Australia776 Posts
March 13 2012 06:39 GMT
#86
If it hasn't been posted already, go to depressionforums.org. It's a great resources for people with depression.

I'm also a high schooler suffering depression but I haven't been diagnosed yet or seen the doctor. I'm too scared to even ask my parents to see a professional.

Tips from a fellow suffering highschooler:
- Take up something that will relax you and take your mind off depression, this will help you focus.
- Treat yourself better and take good care of yourself.
- Stay positive during the most difficult of times. The depression will challenge you during tough times.

Again, I'm sorry if any of this has already been stated.
Oz | Leenock | GuMiho | Lucky | MC | PartinG | DRG | Mvp
Bojas
Profile Joined December 2010
Netherlands2397 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-13 08:22:30
March 13 2012 08:15 GMT
#87
On March 13 2012 15:39 Philipd122 wrote:
If it hasn't been posted already, go to depressionforums.org. It's a great resources for people with depression.

I'm also a high schooler suffering depression but I haven't been diagnosed yet or seen the doctor. I'm too scared to even ask my parents to see a professional.

Tips from a fellow suffering highschooler:
- Take up something that will relax you and take your mind off depression, this will help you focus.
- Treat yourself better and take good care of yourself.
- Stay positive during the most difficult of times. The depression will challenge you during tough times.

Again, I'm sorry if any of this has already been stated.

Forgive me my ignorance, but what is good about a forum of self diagnosed depressed people? I'd get a diagnosis first and then find help through people who have actually studied that shit. Maybe afterwards visit a forum about this.

I mean you don't know what the actual cause of your sadness is. It can be A LOT of things. Ranging from fear/phobias, food problems, social problems, traumatic experiences and more. And there's different way to treat all those things.

Maybe you don't even have a depression. You don't know yet, only way you can know is by visiting a psychiatrist.

... Or maybe I'm sort of a hipster depressed person. I've always wanted to be a hipster.
Philipd122
Profile Joined April 2011
Australia776 Posts
March 14 2012 09:31 GMT
#88
On March 13 2012 17:15 Bojas wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 13 2012 15:39 Philipd122 wrote:
If it hasn't been posted already, go to depressionforums.org. It's a great resources for people with depression.

I'm also a high schooler suffering depression but I haven't been diagnosed yet or seen the doctor. I'm too scared to even ask my parents to see a professional.

Tips from a fellow suffering highschooler:
- Take up something that will relax you and take your mind off depression, this will help you focus.
- Treat yourself better and take good care of yourself.
- Stay positive during the most difficult of times. The depression will challenge you during tough times.

Again, I'm sorry if any of this has already been stated.

Forgive me my ignorance, but what is good about a forum of self diagnosed depressed people? I'd get a diagnosis first and then find help through people who have actually studied that shit. Maybe afterwards visit a forum about this.

I mean you don't know what the actual cause of your sadness is. It can be A LOT of things. Ranging from fear/phobias, food problems, social problems, traumatic experiences and more. And there's different way to treat all those things.

Maybe you don't even have a depression. You don't know yet, only way you can know is by visiting a psychiatrist.

... Or maybe I'm sort of a hipster depressed person. I've always wanted to be a hipster.


I kinda knew I was going to get a response like this.

The point of a forum of "self diagnosed depressed people" is

- You can read experiences of people in a similar situation and get help from people who are actually currently experiencing depression/mood disorders.
- Also most people on the website are already diagnosed. I'm sort of just a different case.
- It's a great space to put your stories through where people will read it and actually not give ignorant responses.

Also regarding your second point, what if I told you one of my symptons is self harm or suicidal thoughts? Would that convince you at all? I'm not saying I experience both but I chose not to include explicit points purely because this is not the forum for it and I hoped people would just somewhat believe what I'm experiencing without having to make a long list.
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Bojas
Profile Joined December 2010
Netherlands2397 Posts
March 14 2012 17:59 GMT
#89
On March 14 2012 18:31 Philipd122 wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 13 2012 17:15 Bojas wrote:
On March 13 2012 15:39 Philipd122 wrote:
If it hasn't been posted already, go to depressionforums.org. It's a great resources for people with depression.

I'm also a high schooler suffering depression but I haven't been diagnosed yet or seen the doctor. I'm too scared to even ask my parents to see a professional.

Tips from a fellow suffering highschooler:
- Take up something that will relax you and take your mind off depression, this will help you focus.
- Treat yourself better and take good care of yourself.
- Stay positive during the most difficult of times. The depression will challenge you during tough times.

Again, I'm sorry if any of this has already been stated.

Forgive me my ignorance, but what is good about a forum of self diagnosed depressed people? I'd get a diagnosis first and then find help through people who have actually studied that shit. Maybe afterwards visit a forum about this.

I mean you don't know what the actual cause of your sadness is. It can be A LOT of things. Ranging from fear/phobias, food problems, social problems, traumatic experiences and more. And there's different way to treat all those things.

Maybe you don't even have a depression. You don't know yet, only way you can know is by visiting a psychiatrist.

... Or maybe I'm sort of a hipster depressed person. I've always wanted to be a hipster.


I kinda knew I was going to get a response like this.

The point of a forum of "self diagnosed depressed people" is

- You can read experiences of people in a similar situation and get help from people who are actually currently experiencing depression/mood disorders.
- Also most people on the website are already diagnosed. I'm sort of just a different case.
- It's a great space to put your stories through where people will read it and actually not give ignorant responses.

Also regarding your second point, what if I told you one of my symptons is self harm or suicidal thoughts? Would that convince you at all? I'm not saying I experience both but I chose not to include explicit points purely because this is not the forum for it and I hoped people would just somewhat believe what I'm experiencing without having to make a long list.

Fair enough.. But you don´t need to convince me of anything I´m not really qualified to diagnose you . It was just a thought about doing what's best for 'healing' your mental problems. It's a bit like people on these forums being worried about their wrists while they should just visit a doctor for proper treatment.
English
Profile Joined April 2010
United States475 Posts
March 14 2012 18:22 GMT
#90
Exercise and getting a puppy (provided you have the dedication to it) are very good ideas.
plated.rawr
Profile Blog Joined June 2008
Norway1676 Posts
March 14 2012 18:38 GMT
#91
On March 12 2012 09:29 MelodyBW wrote:
Show nested quote +
On March 12 2012 09:18 Brutaxilos wrote:
On March 12 2012 09:16 1a wrote:
smoke weed

No.


why not?

Weed amplifies depressions. Severely. It's a great drug if you're in a stable sense of mind, but if you're not, it will ruin you.

That said, I can't really help. If I wanted to be nice, I'd tell you it'll pass and it gets better eventually, but that'd probably be a lie. Psychiatric medicine is an option, but honestly, that will unleash an entirely different bag of problems upon you, plus the dependance on the medicine to function as well, which isn't really a solution to the problem - it's merely swapping it with something else.

I don't know. Try to find your passion. The thing you live for. Something you can spend your entire day doing, without knowing time passes. Figure out what it is, and keep doing it. Dedicate your entire self to it. Time will pass, and things will change. You might not feel better, but time will pass and things will change. Somehow.
Savior broke my heart ;_; || twitch.tv/onnings
TuElite
Profile Blog Joined March 2010
Canada2123 Posts
March 16 2012 01:19 GMT
#92
How was your day today Brutaxilos ?
Always Smile - Jung Nicole - Follow Nicole on Twitter @_911007 and me @TuElite
bokeevboke
Profile Blog Joined May 2010
Singapore1674 Posts
Last Edited: 2012-03-16 11:00:33
March 16 2012 11:00 GMT
#93
Have you tried reading some books? If you'll be sucked up into the story you can get away from reality for awhile, then come back and things might look differently.
Its grack
theBALLS
Profile Blog Joined July 2011
Singapore2935 Posts
March 16 2012 11:08 GMT
#94
On March 15 2012 03:22 English wrote:
Exercise and getting a puppy (provided you have the dedication to it) are very good ideas.

Please don't get a puppy for the sake of easing depression.
If you lose the stick, you'll always have theBALLS.
natebreen
Profile Joined June 2011
United States184 Posts
March 16 2012 12:14 GMT
#95
No one can give you some magic nugget to cure a state of thought that you have created for yourself.

Additionally, no magic pill will "fix" you. In fact, most anti-depressants carry very strong negative side effects and leave people feeling like zombies.

You have to wake up one day and make a choice to be a different person, then stick to that decision.

Depression can be mitigated naturally by the following: Vitamins, Exercise, Sunlight, Hobbies, Small goals, and most of all self-confidence.

You may think self-confidence is something that comes from success or inherent attributes to be proud of, but really it's a "chicken or the egg" question.

You can be self confident as a homeless bum with 2 teeth. It's all about having belief in yourself and who you are as a person.

You're not going to like the last thing I'm going to say, but it needs to be said:

Don't take the easy road. It's so easy in our society to just claim that everything is stacked against you, and that your life is awful, and that you can't go on. Bullshit.

Sitting there feeling sorry for yourself is the easy road. You need to start seizing opportunities and ACTIVELY be positive. Don't sit in your head and give your psyche excuses by falling into depressed thought cycles.
LaSt)ChAnCe
Profile Blog Joined June 2005
United States2179 Posts
March 16 2012 13:10 GMT
#96
steps to feel better:
1. get on a stable sleep schedule (ideally sleeping nights)
2. get outside during the day when the sun is out for at least 10-30 minutes (every day ideally)
3. smile
4. eat healthy
5. exercise
6. get rid of any drama in your life, that shit will never get you anywhere
Mementoss
Profile Blog Joined February 2011
Canada2595 Posts
March 16 2012 13:12 GMT
#97
I'm just going to leave you with a youtube video and a movie/book suggestion. Both which I watched when I was in high school and felt pretty shitty. These videos changed who I was as a person, inspired me to live my life in a way which made me happy and to be able to look and believe in the positive aspects of life.

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Not on youtube, but its called The Secret. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Secret_(2006_film)

It was a documentary about positive thinking and getting what you wanted in your life. It was also a book. You can probably find it online, or grab the book from your local library.

I hope maybe watching these videos might teach you something about yourself, and maybe inspire you to get rid of this depression. Also remember high school isn't an accurate representation of life. Its a little bubble world and you will have many opportunities to do whatever you want afterwards, as well as meet completely new people and friends you can connect with.

On that note, have a nice day .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uu96xMwFVXw
SkytoM
Profile Blog Joined July 2009
Austria1137 Posts
March 16 2012 15:56 GMT
#98
Sleep well
Work out
Eat Healthy

I think this is the best non-medicinal way to fight depression.
Bisu... ;-(
Brutaxilos
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
United States2629 Posts
March 19 2012 04:34 GMT
#99
On March 16 2012 10:19 TuElite wrote:
How was your day today Brutaxilos ?

Good. Right now I'm having a four day weekend because my school is low on budget. It's a nice rest for a while. Hopefully it will last.

I'm sorry for not replying as much to this blog. It sorta went invisible on the sidelines for a while so I thought it was dead. I felt a little better in the past few days as well (I had a two hour session with my doctor, didn't really fix any problems but I somehow felt a lot better afterwards). I really want to thank all you guys for your help.
Jangbi favorite player. Forever~ CJ herO the King of IEM. BOMBERRRRRRRR. Sexy Boy Rogue. soO #1! Oliveira China Represent!
Brutaxilos
Profile Blog Joined July 2010
United States2629 Posts
March 21 2012 18:44 GMT
#100
I'm sorry for the bump. School began again after a four day break. I was feeling pretty good during the weekend. Right when school started, life started becoming shitty again.
Jangbi favorite player. Forever~ CJ herO the King of IEM. BOMBERRRRRRRR. Sexy Boy Rogue. soO #1! Oliveira China Represent!
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