Long story short I moved away from home for about 3 or 4 months after graduating from high school. Me and my girl broke up and I moved back home with family.
My issue now is that I am way out of practice because my ex hated that i played games and we were always out and about doing something.
Even though Im home and I have plenty of time to practice SC2 I have severe ladder anxiety. I know its only bronze league but I guess im just really competitive or something and hate losing with a passion.
I set a goal for myself to at least hit gold league before i go off to basic training for the Navy in roughly 6 months but I have not made any steps towards reaching that goal really. I mean yea I have a masters friend who has been very nice and cool about sitting with me and talking to me about what I need to work on and all that stuff. But other than that I have not laddered consitently and its detrimental to my goal.
I always tell myself that Im going to play a ladder game or tell myself that I feel like playing SC2 but then a part of me says that I dont want to lose and that Im afraid of losing so I never really follow through with what I said earlier.
Kinda hitting a brick wall here and Idk what to do to break through.
You can't break through the brick wall if you don't play. At your level you seriously lose nothing by losing a game, 14 ladder points in bronze is fucking nothing, but with every loss you can gain knowledge about what you did wrong. Watch your replays, watch pro replays, watch streams, read TL. AND PLAY THE GAME. Also the season will end soon, so if you really are conscious about your record, you can play without worry as your stats will reset.
Why are you afraid to ladder yet willing to admit you're in bronze league? Go to liquipedia find ANY build for your race and just master that. If you think you're so competitive why waste your time posting a blog and just go play?
I never understood ladder anxiety. "I'm not going to play because I might lose…but I won't get better if I don't play." It's those losses that make you a better player not the games where your opponent never builds more than 6 workers.
Make yourself a schedule and stick to it. If you tell yourself your going to play for 2 hours when you get up or before you go to bed, just do it. Don't let a game get the better of you, its okay to be upset with losing, almost every sane person is.
You'll know whether or not you really wanted to play Sc2 if you do this for a while. You will either enjoy the games you win (and almost win) and put the losses behind you. Or the losses will make the whole experience un-enjoyable, in which case you should stop playing (if its not fun).
One of the things I have the most fun with in Sc2 is probably playing team games (and practice 1v1's) with someone of relatively similar skill and just talking with them about ideas you have about the game (like when I scout you doing this, I think this, but what does it mean to you?).
Kinda not where I expected it was going to go, but.. if you're looking for SC2 advice, just practice and play and whatever. The ladder resets all the time- I understand ladder anxiety but with the system that's in place, you really have to think of it from a logical perspective- aka, to get better, you have to play. If you don't play, you won't get better. Either you sit there and dwell on anxiety or you don't.
the best advice i can give you: just play - for the fun of it
other than that custom games are really nice, because you can just fool around (or at least pretend to) with your friends while learning the game in a casual way. you also don't get cheesed
day9 made a daily about this: not sure, if it's the right one though
also don't complain about your race, your enemy or yourself, it just makes you feel worse
Find a friend on b.net and play customs with him. Then once you feel comfortable with the matchups and less stressed about 1on1's you can ladder easier. It's a lot less stressful if you joke at eachother on voice.
I played guitar for 3 years and had to force myself to play. I didn't improve much because back then I didn't know any music that inspired me. Then when those 3 years passed I started to listen to other styles of music, and it inspired me deeply. I started playing again, because I wanted to learn to play the music I was listening to. I never had to force myself to play, but still I started playing more often, and my learning curve sky-rocketed. I love the music I'm playing, that's why I play guitar on my spare time. If you don't feel the same way about SC2, then don't bother playing. You can still play for fun, but when I say fun, it means you have no intentions of improving or learning. Trying to learn something when you lack the inspiration is just a waste of time.
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