EPTShould be studying for my last math exam but just can't find the motivation right now so I'm just gonna write a bit about what's on my mind. So Anyways I am about to finish my last year of high school, and to be honest I don't really know what to think about it. I've always dreaded the thoughts of growing up and having to take responsibilities and what not. But now that it's actually around the corner and I am actually looking forward to it. Since I guess most of you can relate to living with your parents isn't always the easiest thing in the world and it just get harder as time goes by. Though I love them there's really hard to keep up a non problematic relationship with them when you enter adulthood and them still treating you as their responsibility.
This of course is why I am excited to move to another city in the near future since I'll for the first time in my life be the only one in charge of myself and no one looking over my shoulder. However this comes with a set of it's own problems since there will no longer be anyone there to catch me when I fall and so on. I've actually been quite spoiled when it comes to work around the house with my parents taking care of most things as I may well be the laziest thing known to man. So it'll be a different kind of life I'll be living in the near future and i am quite excited as for what the future holds for me.
Another thing that I am looking forward to is getting to study something that I actually enjoy, computer science. I'll be working towards a masters degree in that over the upcoming 5 years and I just feel like school might actually be interesting at last. Because up until now my main beef with school has been the limitation of options as for what you study. As for computer courses there are only 7 potential courses that you can take at our high school and I've aced all of them except for web design as that was just a stupid course with more photo editing than coding which is what I enjoy doing.
The computer courses are pretty much the only things that I've been exceptionally good at. I've always had an easy time learning about stuff and have had an extremely laid back attitude towards all school work as I knew that I'd pass the courses anyways. So my grades are actually pretty shitty to be honest but that's mostly due to the fact that I am forced to to courses like history, chemistry and biology which I think are just the most boring shit ever.
Another thing that makes me exited is getting far away from the town I live in. It's pretty much the definition of boring, nothing to do and empty shells of people pretty much sums it up. Of course I'll miss the few real friends that I do have here because they're awesome but high school student are just about the most pathetic and appalling people in the world. It's all about the cool stuff in life and not about what's really important such as who's a nice or interesting person. i actually get quite depressed at times because of these people. I am actually a quite popular person I pretty much know most of the people at my school and I'm a quite likable person it seems as a lot of people seem to want to treat me in a respectful and nice manner. This probably stems from the fact that I try to be as nice and welcoming to people as I can. But I still get really depressed at seeing others get bullied or used by the "cool kids" it's just infuriating. One of the perks of being a person who pretty much knows everyone is that you know both sides and that you can tell the people who behave in that immature way just how bad what they just did were and what, but of course you can't teach an old dog to sit. Because it's something that they have forgotten a week later.
Of course there's always people like that but I think it mostly is immaturity on their part and with age maturity comes (at least in most cases) and therefore I look forward to not having to interact with those people anymore.
So to conclude my thoughts about the future I'd say that I am scared, exited, hopeful and happy to think about it. As the future is unwritten and anything can happen I just hope that it's better than the shitty ass time I've had at high school, but lets face it nothing can be worse than that.
Have an awesome day/night where ever you are and peace out! Also excuse me for the wall of text if you enjoy the read then kudos and if you didn't well then I'm sorry that I wasted your time ^_^
