EPTThis is awesome by itself, but the problem is that I'm also waiting to hear back from an internship program in Germany that was supposed to give me their acceptance/rejection by "the beginning of March," before they backpeddled and said that they would give out results in "mid-March." I still haven't gotten a response from them. So now I'm in a bit of a pickle.
From an objective standpoint, the Colorado internship is better in nearly every way: better pay, better for my schedule, cooler/prettier city, more prestigious, etc., etc. But spending time living abroad was pretty much my #1 goal for undergrad ever since I first started thinking about college (ie. like junior year). I feel like this is my only opportunity that I will ever have to live abroad this easily. I've been studying German for 2 years now in preparation for this entire opportunity. From the objective lens of most people I talk to, it seems obvious that I should take the Colorado internship, but from my point of view, going to Germany is really just what I want to do.
And now I'm sitting here with Colorado wanting my confirmation by tomorrow morning, and still wondering if I'll get into the German internship program, and I simply don't know what to do. Turning down the Colorado internship is simply not an option; I can't risk being jobless this summer. But I would hate to just have to send a letter and snuff out what I've been waiting for and preparing for ever since coming to college. And I won't be able to have another opportunity to go to Germany again until after graduation since I'm doing a co-op internship next summer.
Right now, the only option I can see that wouldn't immediately tear my heart apart is sending the confirmation to Colorado, and renege on the offer if I get accepted into Germany later. But it's definitely poor etiquette, and it is also kind of risky if they decide to be jerks and contact the German program and get me kicked out of that (which I've been told is a possibility, though I find it extremely doubtful).
I could also send the Colorado folk an honest letter explaining the situation and say that if at all possible, I would like to hold out on my confirmation until I hear back from the German program, but if it is not possible, I would like to confirm my job offer.
I know it sounds totally douchey that I'm complaining about how my summer job offer isn't good enough, but I feel so torn right now.
Don't get me wrong, I'm totally stoked about either job, it's just that I wish the decision didn't have to be like this. Anyway, thanks for reading and tolerating my selfish and job-offer-spoiled banter.
