EPTJust needed to put this on paper, to clear my mind.
Perhaps I'm wrong, and I'd love to think I'm wrong but I highly doubt it.
New term began, I was feeling amazing when it was starting some sort of new-found confidence, added to the fact that my parents gave me the go-sign to just pass my courses since I'm only an undergrad.
So about my previous term, I was chasing this one girl for the second half of the term. Then I just kind of said "fuck it" after the term was over and tried to forget/ignore. Keep in mind we are friends which I find surprising because she knows I liked her.
It all started on the second day of classes. I was sitting with my friend before a lecture, and "the girl" comes along and stands in front of me expecting a hi. Trying to ignore the best I can, I let out a half-assed hi. I was wearing a toque for the first two days back -something that I didn't do the entire last term. She was very curious about why I was wearing a toque. Anyhow, she sat behind me and proceeded to give me a very brief shoulder massage which was somewhat unusual because even though this isn't necessarily an uncommon behavior, we've been away from each other for so long I thought maybe she would take her time.
So next lecture, I happen to run into her and another friend of mine (for this blog sakes, we can call her "mutual friend")who I am also good friends with. It was a cold day so the girl (the one I like) runs to the building when we got close. The mutual friend and I kept our normal pace and walked into class. We saw the girl (who ran into class earlier) sitting and had 2 seats saved. So both of us go there and sit beside her. When I did get to the seat she says to me "Hey Tony (that's my name) I saved a seat for you, isn't that nice?" I was still kind of disinterested so I replied with "That's nice...I guess" in which she replied to and said ""I guess?" I thought I was the love of your life!" She went too far with that one, so I said "don't get the wrong idea" and proceeded to sit down.
I think that last bit bugged her a bit, so during the entire class, she tried to get my attention. 3 things that happened (that are worth noting) was one, I was texting during class, and she tried to close my phone (and no it wasnt because it was distracting because she always texts in class and a lot more than I do), one of those playful things. Then she started to write my name on the desk, and then she wrote HER first name and my last name on her book and told me "This would be my name if we got married" I was like "cool..". Then before the end of class she randomly put her hand on mine for a good 15 seconds.
Now that's just cruel. I just wanted to "forget" and move on with my god damn life.
Next day, first lecture, first thing she happens to see is me when she walks in, so we talk for a bit, more chirps flying her way from me, she goes and finds another seat because there wasn't one beside me. For the next one or two classes, we didn't get a chance to "meet" each other but when we did see each other, she gave me "that look".
So I decide to head off to lunch with one of my close friends, and I just text her saying "I'm not going to tonight's lecture with you" just for kicks. This was where I started to gain interest for her again due to the recent events. The obvious response was "why" so I just told her that she was mean. Then the predictable response: the girly no! and then she adds that she is "positive" (she gives me shit for being negative all the time) So I said "Positive and negative equals negative" "Not always" "Are you suggesting that we make a good couple?" "Opposites attract
" "Sorry, I'm no boyfriend material, only marriage material" "I'm too young to get married" "You are out of luck then, but it's the thought that counts" "Always the thought that matters " At this point, I thought to myself, "I've got this". Next lecture, the usual shoulder rubs, and she shows the mutual friend my texts and seems happy. Night lecture is more or less the same, she tried to pull the "Deep down inside you love me" shit again, so I was like yeah keep on dreaming etc.
The next day was more or less the same again, "Omg we match, we were meant to be" etc. At this point, I conceded, and stopped insulting her and disagreeing with her (I was also tired and not in the mood to "go against her")
Then today, I was just like, fuck it I'll ask her out.
HERE IS WHERE SHIT WENT WEIRD
I asked her out (had to text, because we didn't have class today), she is being all mysterious about it, such as when I asked where we wanted to go she told me "Your house", so I asked if she was eager to meet my parents and she said "My future inlaws". Then stuff.... just didn't happen at all.
I later talked to her on facebook, and she told me that she thought I was just joking around as usual, which is an acceptable excuse I guess. So I explained to her that I was serious. Then I get no reply, and I fell asleep. After my awakening, I see " Ahhhhhhhhh, I see".
That was the last of it, and I just don't want to talk to her again right now, I assume it's just one of those shitty ways of trying to reject me without making me feel bad type of thing, but I just don't seem to understand why she did the stuff she did, when she wasn't interested?
Maybe I'm just mistaken and should try to talk to her again. Maybe not.
And I didn't really think the whole "Friend-zone" shit mattered because of the way she was acting.
But in the end, I really don't care, if she talks to me about it again and good things happen, cool, if not she is still a great friend (hopefully). But if it ends up being the latter, I can't help but feel that I have been fooled.
My current view on it is that she did fool me, and that comes back to the first statement "Perhaps I'm wrong, and I'd love to think I'm wrong but I highly doubt it."
I don't expect positive replies and I'm ready for that.
EDIT: I should clarify, I can move on easily due to the sheer amount of females in my program, and currently after all the replies, I feel completely indifferent to this situation now, and I just don't care how it turns out. Thanks TL
