EPTI've always been a person who just can't mass games. I don't know why. I'm physically and stamina wise capable but its probably mindset (existed since my BW ICCUP time too lol). I see my profile and chagrin a bit.
Less than 100 games for 1v1. Even my 2v2 is considerably low lol (200 ish) and that was because my partner force me to keep playing lol.
Now with a new semester before me, I want to do better in my studies. My studies had some decent parts, some bad parts (No fails but some are real borderline). I don't want those anymore. I've been improving for the past year but im not satisfied.
After my internship, I feel so stupid at times. There was problems then which I tried to solve using methods that I know but I still can't apply on it properly. I know why, my lack of practice and non syllabus studies (again similar to my current laddering problems lol)
I know though that I won't have time for any tournaments anymore. I decide to leave the competitive scene of SC2 to focus heavily on my studies. Screw all those other games too. I'll still play SC2 but perhaps a lot less. That golden time is what will change my future.
It's weird though since the more I play 1v1s recently, I felt a past of me return. A past years back where I was simply more responsible, more capable of self practice or studying. More focus and dedication. All that before I graduated from Malaysian middle school (equivalent to high school I suppose). Then I lost all that thanks to a couple of friends which are gamers. I now see that road once again.
From the way I see it, today's the closure of a chapter in this part of my life. A new chapter is in store for me and the road I shall return to driving. Thank you for reading and good day.
