June 21st when I started lifting I was 120 lbs, 5'10'' (idunno the kg for that sorry 99% of the world, just know i was fucking skinny) and today when I weighed in I was 134 lbs. This isn't like 14 pounds in the belly either, it's a healthy cut amount in my arms chest and legs.
While I'm proud of that in and of itself, I'm most amazed at what working out has done for my confidence.
Most of you know I do standup. I've always been good at it because I'm very funny in person pretty much all the time. I'm not trying to be cocky when I say that, I just know that i'm funny because its unordinary when people DONT laugh at me. Some people cook, others tell good stories, i'm funny. I was class clown for my high school as well so I just put the pieces of this VERY complex puzzle together.
When you're good at breaking the ice and relieving tension and shit like that it gives you a great amount of self confidence, which is why I've never had trouble on stage or meeting new people at new student conferences or in interviews or really ANYWHERE in life.
However I never realized until about 2 weeks ago the shocking fact that the problem I have is that I was a PUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSY.
its bizarre and hard for me to say, but its true. I had no balls. I was very popular in high school with women and even though I've never had sex (choice not lack of opportunity) I never considered the fact that I couldn't get it if I wanted to.
But the fact is that in the new world of College Land where people don't talk to each other in class and you aren't wandering closed hallways, I don't have as great a magnetic effect as I once had in high school. people used to know I was funny and fun to talk to, now I'm just some skinny redhead dude. as a result I haven't made many "new" friends outside of the people I party with or work with, which didn't really bug me until recently. I realized I'm going to have to WORK to meet an awesome girl, cuz I'm ridiculously picky for the level of aesthetic value I bear.
SOOOOOO since I've put on weight and started working out I've been filled with what I consider a "better confidence" which is not to say I wasn't confident before, honestly I was cocky as hell. But this feels healthier in a way. I'm more upbeat (not hyper) and I have a sexier feel I think, which I know sounds fucking gay as hell but its true. I've never considered myself a sexy guy, I always just had the polite, funny, smart thing going for me and figured that'd be enough. But it's not. Clearly those are good things to have, but if you want to get things rolling with a girl you need that extra zing to really draw them in. + Show Spoiler +
hot girls that is, if you want an ugly chick you can just do w/e the fuck you want
I even got to the point when I was checking out at a store that I started flirting with this girl who had been helping me out. when she checked me out at the register I got up the balls to ask her name and shit and eventually asked if she was seeing anybody. She told me she'd been seeing the same guy for years but was flattered at the gesture. I said "all good, just curious" and was on my way. This was the FUCKING BALLSIEST thing i've ever done imo. I know it doesn't sound like much, but having the cajones to flat out ask the girl you just met if she was available is more nerve racking than performing for hundreds of people. since that point I've felt like I've turned my life around, even if it wasn't shitty to begin with.
This is mostly a lot of ranting, but I've just been in a fucking great mood all day and wanna share it with TL who pretty much made it happen
TY decaf and eshlow you guys are awesome ^_^
And if you've been putting off working out, slimming down or w/e, even if you're not in that bad of shape right now, I immensely recommend it just for the strength it builds in your confidence.
TLDR: I put on 14 pounds of muscle and am no longer a pussy. woot!