late-night thoughts

I peer down at the earth, amazed by the brown, blue and green. Up here all I have are different shades of white and black. Often I wonder if I should let go of this world and plunge down...to approach this shining heaven beneath me.

One day, I decided to go. I dropped out of my sky and down into the winds. I fell, stunned by the beauty I was fast approaching. I watched a mossy-soft plain turn into a rougher sheet of green. As I came closer, I watched everything become more and more defined...more and more complicated.

I dropped into an incredible place--but I didn't pay attention to that. Just before I landed I saw a man. I was surprised when I realized his eyes were searching above for heaven.

In a flicker of a moment I gazed back up and I was shocked to see a ribbon of colors elegant and rugged resting against weightless, massive clouds.

traditionally heaven (or paradise) is resting among the clouds, or up in the "heavens". We're stuck on the ground.

now if you're a raindrop, you're stuck up there in the clouds. you see heaven as going down. dropping out of the cloud is metaphorically death or some sort of release into a place where you can't control, and the eventual consequence is to become a part of something much much greater than your individual self. so really its just perspective but still the personified raindrop is a perfect example of human life in one cognitive system

a big what-if. just go with me and assume that christianity is legit: What if we have christianity backwards? like we're all worshipping satan and not god. I've always found it weird that we symbolically cannibalize god/the son of god. on top of that we're told what not to do, told we're definitely going to do what we're told not to, and then the only way we can be saved is to surrender our soul? are we on the right side of the god/devil good/evil (notice how similar the letters in both those pairs are) ideological clash and balancing act supposedly going on in our world? and all this through faith--blind, unreasoned faith.

imagine a rainbow up in the sky. i shouldnt even say rainbow, there are so many connotations with that.

imagine the phenomenon that occurs when sunlight gets divided by water. you see the colors up there. I feel exactly right describing with the adjective elegant and verb resting, but I can't think of the second verb. I have the idea, the feeling, but not the word.

I know this is confusing but I don't know why I have such trouble describing this. "a ribbon of colors elegant and ______ resting against weightless, massive clouds." the closest I could come up with is rugged.

if you can kind of get what I'm at, feel free to fill in words. or just any words, as long as its funny or intelligent.