In about 6 months time... it would be a decade since I got stranded on this island. This has become a game of perseverance. Time will tell if I become the sole survivor... Some believe they won't make it past 2020. I believe I will because I am a survivor..

Alakaslam

United States15003 Posts

September 23 2020 14:19 GMT

#1302

Am I NELSON now?

Chezinu

United States6291 Posts

January 18 2022 08:55 GMT

#1303

In a couple of months, it will be a year since I survived this game for over a decade. New characters seem to appear. Sometimes I wonder if they are a mere figment of my imagination as a coping mechanism... The others in the game haven't spoken in years... I solely miss the early days where we had hopes of surviving by participating in these competitions. They are but a distant memory now. I can't say who won. I do recall there being different tribes... anyways, I believed I have mastered my stay on this island. I have faith that I can last decades. I have started to write less now, accepting the fact that I may be stuck here for a long time. I stopped calling out to the caller. He returned a message back once with a rhetorical note asking if he should save us. He knows we are here. If he so desired to save us, he would have. Perhaps, he is still watching us to this day. Amused he is likely to be. But deep down, I will not completely lose hope. I may lose the hope of being rescued soon, but I will not give up the hope that I will be rescued. The next game shall come and when it does. I will be ready.

Alakaslam

United States15003 Posts

February 06 2022 07:55 GMT

#1304

Am I a tree?

Chezinu

United States6291 Posts

June 01 2022 03:40 GMT

#1305

I still wonder how long I will be alone on this island. I speculate if there was a witness, they would wonder how an individual could hope so long. Deep down, there is still a fire. A hope of friendship. To carry a conversation with a another. Yes, I have learn to summon the unpredictability within me to speak with me as if I were another. My mind may leak chaos and disorder to create a story to stimulate one's broca region. I feel like I have a friend in me. A friend that makes me laugh. He knows how to make me laugh for he shares my mind. One day, these days will fade in the bliss of happiness. I will speak to a soul who appreciates my presence as I there's. Smiling, yes smiling at this mirage in my mind to one day become a reality. For my perseverance of past days have lead to many solidifications of such hazy visions. Some surprisingly more beautiful and delightful than was comprehensible. For my mind was never stimulated to life even remotely close to those moments before then. My mind could not even form an idea of such a feeling. Yes,

. My distant past has shown me that just as quickly as despair can fall upon a man, yes, truly a blessing can come just as fast and then consolidate at the new amplitude as it has done so at this lower state. I shall wait. I shall patiently wait. Til then, I shall enjoy what is here on this island as I numb out the yearnings of my heart for a social companion, but if I can no longer bare to ignore, I shall focus on what can be. The day where someone else speaks and stays. For my being will light up knowing this life's precious presence is just a reflection of the Great True Light in whom all that is was created and in one future we may rest in His holy state.

Alakaslam

United States15003 Posts

June 01 2022 14:51 GMT

#1306

Blazinghand IS religious! He goes to Chezinu's church!

Hey what denomination are y'all? I want to compare notes & practices & see who worships better

Alakaslam

United States15003 Posts

June 01 2022 14:52 GMT

#1307

"God will not be pleased!"

Chezinu

United States6291 Posts

June 03 2022 00:27 GMT

#1308

On June 01 2022 23:51 Alakaslam wrote:
Blazinghand IS religious! He goes to Chezinu's church!

Hey what denomination are y'all? I want to compare notes & practices & see who worships better

Non-non denominational, but not interdenominational.

Chezinu

United States6291 Posts

June 03 2022 01:22 GMT

#1309

On June 03 2022 09:27 Chezinu wrote:

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Non-non denominational, but not interdenominational.

To elaborate, I've been to Catholic, Presbyterian, Baptist, Assembly of God, Church of Christ, Non-denominational, Messianic Jewish Church, Methodist, Hebraic Roots Movement, Lutheran. Haven't been to Orthodox yet, would like to one day. LDS has an open house in this week in their DC temple.

I have spoken to Greek Orthrodoxs, Jews, Muslims (Sunni and Shiites), Hindus, members of the church of Latter-day Saints, agonists, and atheists (I just realizes no one capitalizes agonists or atheists). I spoken to people who seem to partially believe in Word of Faith movement, but not sure if I spoke to one or not.

I haven't spoken to the Amish or Mennonites yet... nor have I met any yet.

Note, I've attended churches and spoken with people with many beliefs different than myself. I would consider myself a believer in Jesus and the Bible. I'm constantly amazed by the wisdom and knowledge of the Bible that grows more and more obviously true to me throughout the years. There are so many layers to the parables and it has guided me alot in life, which is crazy how stories long ago can give you so much wisdom. I don't get such wisdom from other stories I have heard in life either from friends, movies, or other religious text I have read. It seems to me many churches tend to "organize God right out of it" as my dad use to say. So, who do I have fellowship with? I go by what Jesus said. Judge people by their fruit (aka spiritual fruit- love, kindness, self-lessness...etc). Basically, if someone is spiritually alive and healthy, they will be loving people and not envious or hateful. If someone claims to love God, but is not loving, they are liars. Now, of course I know that no one is perfect just as the Bible proclaims no one is righteous, except for God. Only God is good. My brother likes to say, the hardest thing to do in this life is to be a good person. Christianity addresses the evil in the world and understands that people can't make themselves righteous (at least the version in the bible - many churches teach otherwise). Which brings me to Ghandi's famous quote, "I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ". What I noticed in my life and my friends lives is that the more we read the Bible and focus on how amazing God is, the more we become like him. Some may say believers are brainwashed, but as my other brother has said in the past, "Maybe our brains need to be washed". The Word of God has helped me see the world clearly and has brought me alot of peace. Do I still suffer? Yes. In fact, Jesus promises his followers will experience trouble in this world. To me, following God is more than just having guidance and good morals. It is about knowing God. Jesus said that knowing God is eternal life - a message that I never heard preached, but have read many times in the Bible from prophets of old such as Isaiah (~700 BC) to the Gospel of John (some suspect ~60 AD). So, how do I worship you asked? From my heart, singing psalms and hymn, mediating on God's Word, living it out by loving God and loving people. Knowing I can only be in the presence of God because of Jesus's sacrifice to pay for my wrong doing. To the world, this is foolish as Paul of Taurus wrote, but to the believer it is powerful. I believe you can only come to God through God bringing you to Him. I believe in the Holy Spirit that convicts the believer of thier sins and guides them to the Truth, which is Jesus. I have had so many encounters with God when alone, with others, with music playing, when no music playing, when I was hungry, and when I was full. One day, I had to tell myself to accept the reality when trying to think of other explanations for what I was experiencing. I have had others who have been witnesses to what I have perceived as miraculous events. I have had experiences where others had experience similar spiritual experiences both friends in my life and in books written hundreds of years ago. We are not just biological beings. We have a spirit. To neglect the spirit is ignorant.