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So, I'm an old man now, but have spent a lot of time reading the many girl blogs that permeate TL. I sympathize with many of you, and felt that I should share my high school experience. If there's enough interest, I'll publish the entire story with some lessons and reflections. (Extremely long blog below)
I met her at a football game. This small blonde girl with a smile that made my heart beat faster (I’ll call her Jane for the remainder of the story). She was smart, fun, flirty, and beautiful. I spent that night cheering on a high school football team, but the only thing I remember is her. That night, our school had a dance. It was the first time I had the guts to ask a girl that I thought was pretty to dance. She and I danced and talked and it was amazing. Alas, I was a simple sophomore and like many of my fellow Team Liquidians, I had very little confidence. The next time I saw her, she was holding another guys hand, but being the nice guy I am, I still said hi, and pretended to like her boyfriend. My entire sophomore year passed with me catching glimpses of her and chatting with her infrequently.
Fast forward to the next year, Jane had skillfully moved through several boyfriends and landed on a football player. I was scrawny, played soccer, and took a bajillion AP classes. Sadly, one of those AP classes was shared with Jane. I sat next to her daily and chatted with her, becoming one of her better friends. I spent the year watching as her relationship blossomed with my insecurities keeping me from finding someone else. I floated through my Junior year of high school, aced my AP tests, did well in school, played lots of soccer, but hoping and praying every day that Jane would break up with her boyfriend and I could move on in.
Luckily, My senior year came around. The boyfriend left for a few years, and there was my chance. However, somehow I missed the timing window and when I went back to school, Jane had another boyfriend. We had 3 classes together this year, and I spent an inordinate amount of time with this girl. Of course, being the silly little teenager that I was, I always was the shoulder to cry on. She always asked me what she was doing wrong and why couldn’t other guys be like me.
After one of these break ups, I decided to ask her to a really casual dance as a friend, hoping that I could move in. Like many teenagers who go to casual dances, I went with a large group. We had a great time at the dance and our group decided to go up the canyon and have a bonfire. I spent the evening hanging out with friends, lying on the grass, and I was flush with excitement. The dance had gone great, and homecoming was coming up soon. That night, I knew I was going to ask her to Homecoming.
On Monday, I was devastated. Jane had somehow fallen for another guy in the group, had held hands with him and kissed him that night. Our entire group was completely fucked up with half of us ending up on the wrong side. I can still remember going home and having me and a best friend decide to go rock climbing. I told him what happened and he sympathized. However, instead of giving me the right advice (and he was 17 at the time, so I totally understand his lack of experience) told me to just keep being a great friend and things would work out.
Note: The right advice would be to say fuck that stupid bitch, go ask the hottest girl that you knew out, and find a way to make it work so that I would never think of Jane again.
Instead of listening to my friends advice, I decided this bitch didn’t deserve another second of my time. I was pissed. I broke a bunch of shit that she gave me, I tore up all the pictures of us and vowed to never be stupid like I had been. My resolve lasted for a day, and then she called me crying asking why I hated her. My heart melted, I was back under her spell.
I was with this girl as she went through boyfriend after boyfriend our senior year. I remember her looking at me one day after a break up and had her tell me “you won’t believe it, but there’s a guy that I have classes with that I really like”. IT WAS ME!! Right?..... Wrong. It was a jerk from the soccer team. Her newest boyfriend told me during practice that the only reason he dated her was because her dad had season tickets to a professional basketball team and he could sit on the front row whenever he wanted to. Once again, I was the dutiful friend, supporting her through another douchebag boyfriend and near graduation she broke up with the moron.
By this time, I had realized that I was never going to have a chance with this chick and I was content being her friend. I still had some latent feelings for her, but mostly I had engrossed myself in my schooling and had spent 5 days a week rock climbing. Everything was going great. My birthday was coming up, and my friends threw me a huge birthday party. I was never one for birthday parties, so it was a lot of fun to have so many friends supportive. Of course, we had the party at Jane’s house (her dad was filthy rich, and they had a pool, basketball court, arcade, and so much more in the backyard). My buddy pulled me to the side and said “hey, you’ll never guess it, but Jane is totally falling for you man”. I looked at him and laughed in his face. A relationship with Jane was never going to happen, or so I thought. But, near the end of the night, I noticed that Jane was spending an awful lot of time around me and was always touching my arm and laughing at every single thing I said (I’m not a funny person). I was excited, could this finally be it?!
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well she seemed like a slut to me o_0 how could one even find a new lover that quick lol. It's better for you to get rid of her man.
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this story just stopping was such a bummer. please finish it off, and i don't fuckin get your paitence man, surely at some point you'd just go nahhhhhhhh fuck this, or by sheer chance another girl would come into contact with you who you acted sexually attractive around, its just such a long time, thats like a 3 year period, if a girl decided to fuck me over for that long, and to be honest how you've described it, that is how it is, i think you probably took the term boyfriend and attributed it to these guys she was seeing probably way to fast, like boyfriend is more than just sleeping with someone really. i never got how people could ask out girls without having first been intimate with them first.
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Please finish this, having cliffhangers in a blog post is just unfair man!
I do think that after the 3rd or 4th boyfriend, you should have realized that this girl goes through boyfriends faster than she goes through a bottle of water after walking through the desert...
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How can you end it there...
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This is so goddam painful to read. Oh why does the world have to be so cruel! Why do these stupid fucking bitches have to fuck everything up? Why are girls wired to be attracted to the jerks? WHAT THE FUCK EVOLUTION? WHY U SO STUPID?
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She said no. Shitty cliff hanger...
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i'd hope i knew rock climbing when i was that young... came to know it just recently, envy you for that. Rock climbing 5 days a week :S
lots of highschoool stories are like this i guess, fun to read, i want the enxt chapter
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DON'T BECOME FRIENDS OF A GIRL YOU LIKE
/rant
I've always had lots of friends who are girls, right now my best friend is a girl and she's a person I trust wholeheartedly and it's a friendship that makes me happy as fuck.
I have never had any feelings for her (even when things DID happen, no feelings involved), and only befriended her because she was fun, smart and we had a nice time together, but if I had had feelings for her, the correct approach would have been to flirt with her, DEFINITELY NOT befriend her, that's just asking for disaster.
It's a different scenario when you like someone and you become her "friend" but it's actually extremely flirty and one of the people involved is definitely playing a card there. A little flirting and some physical attraction is definitely acceptable, but actual feelings are not, tricking someone into becoming your friend because you like her is, imo, a massive disrespect.
Friendships are extremely valuable relationships, as a friend I'd be fucking angry if a girl befriended me and I got to trust her and suddenly she told me it was all because she liked me (this almost never happens in this direction though so I'm fine  ).
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Awesome blog- can laugh at the teenage stupidity (we've all been there exept for those who still are) since it's been long ago (I get the impression). Mean cliffhanger though  keep it coming.
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What happened next, this is worse than an episode of lost.
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What a cliffhanger lol.
Don't leave me hangin bro!
Anyways, i'm sad to see how you got decieved in your high school years, but glad you can reflect back to it now with such insight!
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I'm a guy and i have a female friend who always falls for a new guy.. She is always yapping about how this or that guy is so great. She'll be like
" ohmygod he said "hey you're so nice." I love him"
It's rarely someone i can see the appeal of in other words haha.
It has become obvious that she doesn't really care about these people.. She just likes the idea of it. It's fucked up, she might never find love because of it...
Let us all reflect on the fact that another cannot kill our demons for us with some miracle based in romance.
Now i have tarnished the perfection of the potential fairy tale the OP might delude us with. I don't think he would
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oh wow. If I met such a great girl and had such little confidence like you I would probably stay friendzoned like you. No shame.
When is next part?.
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Continue.
FOR GREAT JUSTICE.
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On November 02 2012 15:20 Entirety wrote:
Please finish this, having cliffhangers in a blog post is just unfair man!
I do think that after the 3rd or 4th boyfriend, you should have realized that this girl goes through boyfriends faster than she goes through a bottle of water after walking through the desert...
Yeah this seems like the best response.
And yes, please finish. I never like to see a story half-told ^^
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we want the 2nd part asap. Nice reading and you keep us waiting for then end... damn u xD
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Cute...I hope the ending is you and Jane together <3
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Have no fear fellow TL users, I'm mostly done with the second part. I was just tired and that was the perfect time to end it. Also, the story is just getting great, the last year around her before I left the state for two years are just as epically fail as the first 3 years.
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On November 03 2012 01:19 il0seonpurpose wrote:
Cute...I hope the ending is you and Jane together <3
Not really. She seems like a slut to me
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EPT
